my heart cries out, telling me it's too late.
I ignore her.
heartbreaks, I can no longer take.

she continues to broadcast my mistakes,
my eyes burn with regret
she know how to make me upset.

punishment is my mind
suffocating me for all the wasted time.
soon, I too am crying.

there after, I am dying
7 minutes of life before me
before I begin flying.

*brighter the sun begins to shine
love and procrastination
was my only crime.

why did I grow up so fast?
to have responsibilities beat my ***.
why did I skip class?
to only cheat life and still come in last.
why did I rush my youth?
only my childhood knows the truth.

I can take a punch
an insult
a offense
but my life makes no sense.

I can handle heartbreak
but loneliness I can not take
7 billion humans on earth
and solitude is my fate.

woe to man who created pills
they give me chills
they make me feel
take too many they'll make you ill
they deceive my fantasies
their thrill is real

woe to the man who made **** pills
with every one I take,
a piece of me is killed.

I don't think I will be loved this lifetime
no one will claim me and says she's mine.

I don't think loneliness will ever leave my side
he's my husband, and I'm his bride

I don't think intimacy is something Ill achieve
they will get too close, and I will fearfully leave.

I only wish someone was brave enough to stop my self-destruction
after all I'm just a delicate woman child in need of severe loving.

I run I run I run away
I may stop if I make it to Heaven one day
I hope heavens gates have no escape...
because I'll run some more
until I feel safe.

I listen to sad songs
on replay.

my insides are dead
but I play life during the day.

I smile to stop words
that I anticipate people might say...

like how are you doing?
**fine i say, but lies I am chewing