My heart is empty and meaningless
It's filled with darkness
My heart is waiting
Waiting for someone
Someone who will make my life anew
Someone who will not make me blue
This someone is you

Sitting here with my anxiety around my neck, I play my favorite song again again until I start to question the pronunciation of the.
I don't cry, no the tears are stopped short by my unwillingness to accept reality, yet reality is stopped short by me willingly living in a fantasy world.
The adults think I am overreacting, but they don't understand how crippling everything is when even waking up is struggle.
I need more time.. Time to stop the shaking. Time to find my fake smile.. Time to remember my four lettered lie..

Oh yeah, here it is, yes. I am fine.

A promised love fo a thousand years
A thought that you are the one, instead brought tears

A promised love for a thousand years
A silent hope that you'll stay forever, my love

A dream of you that someday would come true
A nightmare that you'll leave would make me blue

A promised love of my heart that is waiting.

I am waiting for you to look my way
'cause I've wanted you to notice I exist
I'am waiting for you cause I know you'll
come back



I'am waiting for you to love me
'cause I know that you'll learn how to open your heart
I'am waiting for you to take care for me
'cause I hope that I'll soon have a place in your life




I'll be waiting for you even if it takes
forever I'll always be here still waiting.

Me and my mom
I'm feeling nervous
A little bit shaky, little bit trembling
Eye to eye
In the longest stroll of my life

My excuses are my only weapon
Against the strongest wall of madness
My positive thoughts
They are my only shield in this war of heart and mind

Please stop hurting me
I whisper, trying to escape while wide awake
Trying thoughts real for reality sake
I cried

Somehow would you please assure me
That this night mare will be gone
Because I fear that  my positive feelings
Wo'nt even return to my heart.