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  Feb 2018 lu
Barker
What's behind your mask?

Are you as broken as I am?

What's behind your mask?

Is the darkness inside you?

What's behind your mask?

Are you as hollow as I am?

What's behind your mask?

Is the pain held inside you?

What's behind your mask?

Are you afraid of it?





Yes...I am
(c)ibarker
lu Feb 2018
i know i probably scared you,
or annoyed you,
or simply bored you.
i never wanted to,
it was the last thing i wanted to do.

i’m sorry.
lu Feb 2018
HIS KISS WAS POISON.
THAT I MISTOOK FOR LOVE
I BELIEVED THAT HE WAS THE ONE,
HE HAD TO BE.
THIS RELATIONSHIP WAS FORCED
AND NOBODY COULD EVER LOVE ME.
WHEN HE FINALLY WALKED AWAY,
THAT’S WHEN I REALIZED IT WAS TRUE.
EVEN I CANT LOVE ME.
I DIDN’T BLAME HIM AT ALL.

BUT HE SHOULDN’T HAVE BEEN THE ONE TO LEAVE
AFTER ALL, HE TREATED ME LIKE DIRT
AND HIS WORDS WERE VENOM
WHILE HE LIED AND SAID HIS HAND WAS
NOT UNDER HER SKIRT.
BUT AT THAT PARTY, I SAW IT.
HE HAD NO REGRET.
OUR LOVE WASN’T REAL BUT
****,
DID THAT HURT.

NOW I’M HERE,
REMEMBERING WHEN HE WOULD
SAY HE WAS “JUST WITH THE GUYS”
BUT THE GUYS DON’T HAVE PERFECT LIPS
AND LUSTFUL BLUE EYES.
OR A DRESS THAT WAS TOO SHORT,
AND A NEED FOR ATTENTION.
HE WAS LOVE DRUNK
AND HE NEEDED AN INTERVENTION.

HIS WORDS TURNED HARSH AND
I KNEW THEY WERE TRUE.
I REMEMBER HOW HE SCREAMED
“NO ONE COULD LOVE YOU.”
IT RINGS IN MY EARS EVERY NIGHT,
IT’S ONE OF THE THINGS THAT KEEPS ME FROM BEING ALRIGHT.
NOW THERE’S TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE,
WARNING YOU ABOUT BROKEN HEARTS, JUST IN CASE.
lu Feb 2018
“I’M OKAY.”
THAT’S WHAT I SAY

“I’M OKAY.”
MAYBE IT’LL BE TRUE TODAY.

“I’M OKAY.”
MY WORDS WILL ALWAYS BETRAY.

I’M OKAY
I’M OKAY
I’M OKAY

BUT I’M NOT OKAY
NOT TODAY
NOT YESTERDAY

I’M HURTING SO BAD
BUT NO ONE EVEN KNOWS THAT.

NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW.
I’M AT MY ALL TIME LOW.

I WILL SIT HERE AND CONTINUE
TO BE,
WELL,
INVISIBLE ME.
1:40am
lu Feb 2018
you do not have to be alone,
if you want, i can be your home.
i know i'm far away,
but hopefully we'll be together one day.
you can call me when you need me,
you can scream or cry, whatever it may be.
you don't have to put on a mask,
if you need to talk, just ask.
i am here for you.
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