I cry only in the silence
Bathing within the tears
Regretting what I say once
Because rehearsal tests fears
Like a diamond in the rough
Just waiting to be unveiled
I'm like an Animal to the trough
I'll survive where those have failed
Picture me dying
Better yet picture me sane
I'm the one constantly crying
While you maintain your fame
Amongst the fog and the rain
I'll remember every word that you said
As I embody this pain
And wish I were dead

The tea boils
As the food spoils
And my tears
Fall harder each day

I check the time
And again check the time
Because without you
I have lost my way

Mold in the sink
Dishes start to stink
The cats need to be fed
As we starve in the cold

My heart aches in the morning
And again when it's storming
You promised forever
Or atleast until we were old

But go ahead have your fun
While I sit with this gun
And test my luck
On a game of chance

One click two click
The sound makes me sick
As the devil smiles
With his haunting prance

The entirety of our lives
As we strive to coexist
Like a bee amongst hives
In a maze with no exits

Tiptoe along the lines
Of what's right and wrong
We see our future and it's binds
Like the hook to our favorite song

With regrets haunting our dreams
And decisions tempting fate
It's hard to hide the screams
When our emotion runs off hate

In the end when all that's left is love
And our star has lost its light
Our existence will rise above
In this dreary cosmic fight

To have a place in history
Of all wonders and the sublime
And to finally solve this mystery
Of these shackles we call time

The longest of nights lasting an eternity
As tics and tocs echo off these empty walls
Nothing moves or even vibrates
Besides the spontaneous quiver
Of my bottom lip
Dancing alone to the sadness

Dust resides in place of corners
Of every picture frame you took
Leaving hallow memories
To haunt this dreadful house

Staring at our bed
Still made from the last time
We both slept in it

My heart collapses
As my body follows
With a rush of pain
Stabbing into my mind

My dearest friend where can we run to?
Please take my hand
And show me where the pain stops
Or where the road ends
Or how the light dies

You've always been there for me
And hid away when I forgot
But I need you now more than ever
Please don't leave me here all alone

I may not be as strong as I once thought
And this scares me
Because you may be my only friend left

You want to know the truth?

I lost a part of me that day
My body shutting down
As the convulsions started
I guess that's what happens Right?
Eighty two capsules of Tylenol
Dissolving rapidly in my stomach

As the seizures started
I broke my little brothers lamp
Crashing to the floor
muscle spasms kept me awake
Just long enough to think...

Think of my mistakes
And the reasons I wanted out
The flashes of your face
And the shades of your smiles

But till this day, I'll never forget
Not once was I afraid
Not once did I regret
I truly believed I was going to die
And I had accepted it

Sometimes I wonder
If a part of me did die that day
Left behind to wither away
Haunting me from time to time
Calling me to come back

And to be honest
I miss you old friend
But I still have things to do
So you'll have to wait a little longer
Before we can hold hands once more

Splattering droplets
Calm the skin
As each molecule
Fissures under the magnificent rays

Oh why have these bruises failed to heal
To exist as pastel
Smeared upon my canvas
Traversing along my veins
As roaring rapids
Claimed the cracks of the earth

Forgive my unforgiving tendencies
Latching onto your heavy soul
Dug so deep within yourself
My roots excavated your pain
And brought nothing but beauty
To this calm yet frightening world

Breathe

Just breathe

Let us synchronize our hearts
As one
And our minds will forever follow