I don't know where we stand
But still you hold my hand
What are we, really?
Why can't you say it freely?
I'm stuck up in my head with my thoughts
Words forming knots
For there's nothing like us
I don't want to make a fuss
But I've never felt this way
My heart is starting to betray
These rules I've cast upon my walls
With just a look from you it sprawls
Should I stop?
Should I bear these teardrops?
Or would you let me stay?
Even if your friend's looks could slay
Tell me what you feel
I'll let you heal
I'll be your fortress
Don't let me go on wordless
I don't want to lose you
Or gray would be the only hue
On this upside down world
Where people's smiles are crookedly curled
I'm scared and so are you
But I'll be selfish cause I don't want to lose the view
Of that **** beauty
So I'll make you smile daily like its my duty
I want answers
But I should mind my manners
I respect what you say
But why leave it that way?
You got broken
Now accept my token
It's my love and I'm sorry
For I cannot carry
This name undefined
But I know our hearts are combined
Even without words said
The thing is I don't know if its all in *my head

I remember how you
pushed me against the wall
and in a way I would never fall
pressed your body onto mine
Your arms gripped tight like a vine
You closed your eyes
To mask your want in disguise
Then hasted to kiss me
My lips parted as to agree
Your pin so firm,so strong
There was no way I could've escaped even if it felt wrong
But honestly I just wanted that too
My heart beat as if wild animals were at the zoo
It was weird yet right
Unknown and light
Perfect and flawed
Bound to make us awed
Now I hate how it ended
Its not like I wanted
Now I have to bear this feeling
Of something missing
To avoid the temptation
Of your lips filled with flirtation
So cold yet soft
Bow shaped and liked most

I hate how I close my eyes and think of you and what happened
My heart saddened
Knowing I shouldn't and I couldn't do it anymore
Hanging by those word to which you swore.

There's something wrong with me
I don't have the key
to know who I should be
I don't want to pretend to be fine
when they can't see the sign
of how desperate I am to find
something better in my mind
I want to die
but i want to live
i want to dine
but I want to give
I want a purpose, something more than a cause
To leave and be free, to be my own boss
I don't want to feel things I shouldn't
I don't want to be forced to do things I couldn't
I feel alone
but there's something in my bone
that makes me hope
that when I let go of this rope
i'll find a maybe
that someday my heart would be put to safety
I am tired of being broken
not by life but words unspoken
I want to be okay
To sit by the bay
but I also want to be loved, my love
I want to be with you than anything else above
I want to sink in the waves of you voice
but that's not my choice
to envelop myself in your arms
not because of your charms
but because I love you too much
so it is my heart that I will clutch
to let you be free
even if you forget about me
Do I have to plea
just for you to see
that I should let you go
so we could grow
but every time I try
it makes me cry
you want me to stay
but you go far away
I don't know what say or what to do
but i feel rather blue

for there is something wrong with me
but in order to fix this I have to leave you be

Go ahead
Take my heart
Take my soul
I would give these up to you
If I know
That maybe I would have a chance
A chance to make you stay
To make you feel better
Than the past you never said
Then when you did
You left
As if nothing happened
As if You were never broken
But the horrible effect
Is you left me hollow
For I have given my everything
Just so you could feel whole
I have given you my world
And all I could ever have is the chance
A chance to feel the way you did before I came along

I know I promised I would never
Never fall for you
Never be jealous of people who come near you
Never feel weary of the uncertainty
Never leave
But I did fall for you, everyday
I was jealous for they could still touch the one I treasure beyond myself, they could hear the thoughts of your beautiful mind
They could see the things I saw that made me love you even more
And I know I can't force you to stay
But I want you to
I know I shouldn't but I find myself unsure
I know I said I would never leave but I fear that my love for you may be too intense that it wouldn't just break you, it would destroy me
I'm scared beyond reason
Uncertain of what I should do
For I am breaking torn between two
It would hurt me to see you hurt
But it's pain that eats me up when you're getting father away
I guess I'm left with the choice
Of staying and bearing the grief
Or leaving and destroying myself

Take a risk you said
For the doubts in my mind were too loud
That it over shadowed the want of my heart
I did as you told me
And when I did
I felt the pain
I felt how my world weight down on me
I felt the way broken people described life
Those who I thought exaggerated of how cruel the world can be
That risk took away my being
My life of innocence that the world is not as people said it was
But i was wrong and they were right
I took the risk but I guess it was nice
It was nice to feel the pain even if I feel the sun won't shine the same
Because without that risk
I would never have loved you the way I thought would be impossible

I might explode
For i love you too much
I might burst from the hurt that i bear
But i don't care
I know i'm young
Too young to know if this is true
But i just know it in my gut
I would never leave
Unless you ask me too
I may get tired but if you love me back
You would cheer me on
Give me strength to bear the pain in return for loving you
I was broken or so i am because of you
Everytime you come so close you still feel so far.
I might explode
But i know you wouldn't care