There are somethings only we know
Those hidden touch
Those forbidden vows
You are my secret not meant to be shared
I know its selfish but this I swear
I treasure you dearly
I wish you do the same
Words you've said spin in my head
Memories of you flash before my eyes
My skin still feels your touch that send tingles up my spine
I replay the whispers between us that sends butterflies amidst my stomach
I fear it may go far but at times i regret it didn't
This mind is in chaos
But one thing still remains clear
The picture of me and you.

You don't have to say the words i want to hear
You don't have to the things that would please me
I'm not one to judge I know
But sometimes I do
And so do you too
I won't care as much probably
If you didn't do the things you do
Or say the things you say
I've learned not to depend my happiness on people that could take it away
Because if I do, with you gone, it would take my heart too
I won't please you either for I have grown tired
Tired of not being enough
Tired of doing wrong things for your perspective that are not for mine
I am enough and I am worth it
I may not be for you but for someone else maybe I could be.
I was made and born to existence
I was well taken cared of not for you to bring me down but for me to be better
Better than who I am each passing day
Better that who I was in the past
I am me
And you are you
I won't mind you if you don't mind me
We are separate and thats how it should be

He's someone I have to wait to be with,
Even so I feel Him in the silence.
In my heart, in my being.
He's my peace, my rock, my sanctuary.
In His arms I feel the love everyone craves to have.
I'm not perfect yet He never judges whenever I commit a mistake.
Unlike the people that surrounds me
I'm not the best but He loves me for me
He knows me inside and out
He's my hero and I am His.
He made me feel better today
I guess that is my faith in His prevalence.

I know you wouldn't care.
I know you  wouldn't listen.
You act like you're innocent— like everything's fine.
But its not.
You call yourselves friends but are you really?
You can't see the fake smile, so forced, so untrue.
You turn your backs on someone who cares for you.
You turn cold and silent at the person your friend doesn't like.
I reach for you even if you're remote but you choose to move farther away.
You leave someone who loves you dearly.
For someone who has done everything but.
I've grown tired.
I've learned where I stand and how to do so on my own.
I was blind, now I see.
Why they say the things they do about you.
It's true– somehow, maybe.
You guys are heartless.
So unreal and clueless.

This is the temptation of barely holding yourself together.
This is the pain you feel when you find out the truth.
That no one would choose you.
No one would love you as much as you thought they would.
Friends don't turn their backs on friends and neither do they make you feel alone in a crowd.
They don't turn cold and choose a side. But thats the problem.
Are they true?
Truth hurts are the true realization even more.
I'm broken and tempted but I'm barely holding on to my last hope.
I know now why people said those mean things about them— about us. They're partly true now that I realized that.
No one will save the other no one will care.
I'm alone and I know it.
Shun by the world I've known.