Damm you were bright
But the moon is my lover

Sun of my life
I love like no other

My star in the sky
None can eclipse

The kiss of the night
By day, she I miss

Wonder of the world
She lives while you rest

Daughter of the night
The reaper of the blest

you said, we are running out of time
makes me wonder
if we ever had any at all

I pray for wisdom
Not for age
It seems as the days roll by
That I always get one
Not so much the other

You told me to talk to you
I am distant even from myself
Do you know how long it would take to get there
And then go all the way back to you

You were the kind to look through the pockets of the dead for loose change
So it was no surprise to me when I felt your hands on my body even as it was still warm

I am beautiful.

Words I cant say.

I am pretty.

That lie just fades away.

Just the way I am.

Something I cant bear to understand.

I love you.

Just stop the lies.

I will always be here.

You said as you walked away.

I will stay.

You said from so far away.

You are my only one.

Was that a group message?

I care about you.

Stop bullshitting me.

Your scars are beautiful.

Says the one who inflicts them.

My Only Valentines.

What about the 364 other girls?

Just you and me all the way.

The why is this wall in between.

I only have eyes for you.

Well. I can see you to.

Goodbye

Goodbye

^ Atleast we agree on something

What more could I add to our memories that the desire for them always to continue?

You say it at parting
You say it when bad things are starting
You say it when the sun sets
You speak it when you have seen nothing yet
You say it when you don't want it to be over
You breathe it when you cry and moreover
You say it to your dreams as they fly away
You say it to the ocean at the end of summers day
You breathe this parting to those you love
You speak it to the clouds above
You say it when the race is never finished
You say it when the tears have diminished
You say it for those who cannot
You speak it to the those who on pain you have wrought
You breathe it into the fields of home
You cry it out to those all alone
When you leave those you love
To find a new home above

Goodbye

When you ask me
How I like it better
How can I tell you
You'll never be perfect
I'll love you
Through your changing of seasons

Maybe feelings, are not meant to linger
Even as the sweetness is faded from your tongue, does it not warm your heart still?

Sigmund Freud
Maladaptive
Daydreaming
Escape
Bare Feet
No
No.
No!
Why
Why

I’m too good for this
I was soft with you
My mistake

I don’t want to be here
To feel this

I don’t want
I only have, to lose
And so I give and I gave
Break myself into little pieces
To fill as much space as possible
In every place I’ve ever been

my women's logic is about as keen as;
grass that hasn't been mowed in months
and my brain is about as sharp as;
the knife used on the stone table

More than surface deep
More then dreams and sleep

"Do want the truth or can I lie?"

"You need my permission?"

"Yes,"** *"That's how messed up I am."

I placed you like a star in my soul-sky,
            and yet when you are of the earth,
                  you hold no place in my heavens

I am not my body
But it is my house
A hundred years from now
When it is a vacant home
Will you rummage through my rubble
Sift through my fallen shingles
I fear to be plundered
As men often do
As sinners often joke
Of renting women’s bodies
Yet, they do not pay the price
I am a haunting house
I am not an open door
Will you not respect my frame
For the soul it once contained
Or is the time after I part with life
Squatters rights

I do not know
If the waves love or hate the shore
I can only perceive
Have you dived
Into your own depths
What did you find
In the murky waters
Or did you back away
From the shadows
Of your own darkness
To look inward
Is to have open eyes

You, who I once found comforting
Now curate such opposite energy
What are you holding
Not in your empty hands
But inside
Where my stomach would be churning
If I spoke the way you spoke

Open your mouth
Call up the demons
My expiration draws near
A dead one
That has long been buried
Is being necromanced
Let her sleep, she is tired
You are not one to let sleeping dogs lay
We cannot let ******* sleep
Are we the sun
Or the rooster
We both wake you
One more gentle than the other

If you don't ever hold on
You won't ever have to let go
Somethings happen
Before you even know

It's the keeping on that breaks you
It wears you out
As does tread on a tire
The rubber has met the road

You think these words are sad
I say they are filled with hope
Read between the lines
Finding the lost love
An etch-e-sketch of memories
You say it hurts to hear you cry
I say its just how I get bye
A preparation of a new dawn
How cant you see this is a song
You say I am broken hearted
On this we can agree
But its my heart so leave it to me
I do not walk alone
Though you try to see my path
I tell you in vain
That you must journey back
Turn around and trace your steps
Before the markings fade
I know this trail
It leads to peace
But turn around please
I must walk without you
A journey of a heart
You say I will die on my own
I say is okay I was never alone
I have my God and my soul
And that's enough to keep me whole
We all feel something to an extreme
Some more numb that others
Or at least that's what we make
The world believe
A hollow shell
Grass in the wind
Blown away to the edge
A simple step to the ledge
I cant see the bottom
Oh what a long drop
If I fell
Would I be able to stop
You say don't let go of my hand
But that's the only way you will understand
Letting go is part of life
But how you chose to do it
Will withhold your sleep tonight

i stay
because
i fear
if i leave
for just a moment
this will all
just disappear
if it is gone
then that is the end

Oblivion calls my name
The unknown I will break upon
I answer in whispers
Riddled with moonlight
To know you
Is to feel the sun on my face
I miss the summer
I long for the love she bore

They will catch you
Find you, and put you away
And you wouldn't of even -
Known they were looking for you
I mean sure as hell
You were lost, but only -
In your own mind of foolishness
So it is so inexplicably rude
For reality to interupt
Things were fine -
They are always fine
And of course by fine
I mean that they couldn't -
Possibly, be more wrong
But that isn't at all unusual
Some of us live in eternal chaos
Created by those -
Who live off of chaos
So I'm a high functioning dysfunctional
And you found me in a place
That doesn't even exist
To bring me to a place
That I should never ever be

I prophesied I would haunt you
Now I truly am your ghost
Abandon me of your shadow
As I released your soul
We are not bound to each other

How quickly we unravel
Skein of time slips into knots
I cut the cord
Wicks burn down to nubs
We are not bound to each other

Relinquished of your promises
I of my duty
I told you I had healers hands
You place yourself beyond reach
We are not bound to each other

Do not look for me in your dreams
Do not call for me in your sleep
I am not there
My spirit never had a place to rest
We are not bound to each other

Pray for closure, beg for it
Perhaps God will hear you
Perhaps he will care
There are no grudges here
We are not bound to each other

Said you would die for me
Now you are dead to me
Dig your grave, to lie in it
Surrogate funeral for your spirit
We are not bound to each other

I forgive you
Of your sins and lies
Time will fill your gap
Nothing will stead for me
We are not bound to each other

Do not seek me
When we are reborn
If you are healing
If you are well
There will be no reason for me

Dust of the earth rise
Stagnant you have lain
Steps awaken you
Not before your time
Earth is spinning as before
Days are meant for her
Us not so much
We are beneath all, beneath sky
Beneath what heaven would ask of us
Not beneath torment
That wanderer has not made her bed
We sleep in comfort we do not own
Fools live this way
We are fools
There is no remorse for us
Would knowledge of an ending change a beginning
God thought as much when he made the earth
Seven days, the end of all things
The in between is for us
We waste it more foolishly than he thought
It is wasted just the same
No matter how big the hands that hold us
We cling to fingers in hope we do not fall

Your mother she held you so tight before
Now all that clings to you is funeral shrouds
Let the bells toll
Let the choir sing
The angels are coming to awaken the dead
Your mother she stands at the foot of your bed
Death the sweet taste, kissing your lips
It will linger into the cold of the ground
As they lay your body all the way down
Six feet dug, for just one soul
The bells ring out, a final toll

Here I am
With my head between my hands
Trying to love you with the wrong blood type

I was hungry!
You were starving

Neither of us would slice up our stubbornness to feed the wolves in our minds
For fear
For fright
Of bleeding fingers
Doing anything to avoid our hands being shaken with teeth
They hurt
But drip little more
Than the ichor of the gods in the sky

Would you like to store your heart in this person?

Now.                     Never.                        Ask Me Later.

If my body is a temple
As those who worship
The god of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob profess
Then there is blood on the walls
If it is a temple
Who is it devoted to
Who will be the sacrificial lamb

I cannot be both temple and offering

Heavy thoughts
For such a light pen

We don't need more memories
Or more ghosts

Just more glasses
For more drunk toasts

I was never a little girl
You’re always a hundred years old
When you’re fighting and flighting
And freezing
It’s just so **** cold
My throat is raw
From begging you to love me
All I ever hear back
Is you raising your voice
To tell me to shut up
I am quiet now, daddy
You made me
But you can’t see me
Ironic
Since I’m the one haunted

Between day and night I thrive
Trying to find a way to feel alive

The woman in white was wailing at the gate
Her whisps wrapped around the iron bars
As though she was shackled in the earth
I asked her why
She did not hear me over the wind carrying her cries to my unfortunate ears

Is it the coins tinkling in death's pocket I hear
Is he coming or does he only watch whispering no words of caution

Broken glass is no good for bare feet
I find myself
Where I have not tread before
This road winds longer on the way down
The way up was so steep, yet not as eerie

I felt the push and I ignored the pull
Before I even arrived
My pulse will thrum and my chest struggle to fill itself with air
If only my wisdom ran as deep as my fear

The other woman will come, stand in the window
A man will stand beside her, blood on his hands
The lights may never stop playing tricks on my eyes
They will find in my dreams tonight
Let this be the extent of my worries
The mutterings of my prayers will not be in vain

You told me once
Of when you prayed for bread
Acid rain came down that day
I then learned of reality

If I go into the woods tonight
Will I smell another mans smoke
Or am I so greatly delusioned
To truly believe I am alone

These monsters come and go
My chest a revolving door
A heart hotel
A coffin of nightmares

Angels speak, I do not listen
Prayers quiver in the morning air
I am not there
Not patient enough to wait

Scars on my back spread
Along my limbs
Vines growing on a brick wall
Neither of us will ever find heaven

I never shut up about the moon
She's always there
How I do love her company
When I'm making myself out to be lonely

Is it wrong to assume
Stars are another worlds
Parking lot lights
I don't have all the answers

I find no humor
In the irony of doing what's right
As we go along
I find I was betraying my future

When will I learn
Trying to love this way
Is like trying to dance
With a broken leg

Even after I pass
I will not of told
All the stories in me
They are in bones

I call you foolish mortals
Take it as praise
I will not even name my self
There is great folly in wisdom

If only happiness
Was as aggressive
As the pain
I hold space for

Bury me shallow
In the autumn floor
I hold myself no greater
That the earth

I cry out under the heavens
The veil is thinning
How do you deny
The pulse of the spirit world

Know me now
But not my name
She is the secret whisper
In the thickest of your veins

Maybe once we would have lived
Thriving on the chaos
Hand fed to us by the universe
We were foolish then

Someday wisdom will come to us
We will not know her face
Fair chance she is already among us
Thinly veiled

Do you remember
The first time you smoked
The way it stopped in your throat
How it brought your stomach up

Know when I think of you
It is the same for me
You are a bitter tar taste
I light you up again

Only to spit you out
You coat my tongue
The inside of my cheeks
With your black smoke veil

I asked for depth
You delivered
I cannot back out now
There is no where but up

Those in the dark
Beg for light
Those in the shadow
Wish to stay hidden

I am the ***** sinner
In the bathroom
Trying to scrub myself clean
Of smoke and saints

I was warned
The path of the traveler
For those with thick soles and thicker skin
Thick souls and thinner whims

I set out like a dead man on a quest
Like a fool
With my best foot forward
Not knowing which was is South

You prayed me greener pastures
I just prayed for you
Here we are
Hollow promises, hearty prayers

We ache for what we had
Knowing fruit in the sun
To quickly turns bad
Sour sugar in the soil

When it is hard
Then I know
I have chosen the right path
The universe does not
Need to teach me this lesson again
I learned
I am listening still
To jagged words
My eyes do not betray me
Ghosts of a past life
Permiating
I am a gentle sinner
Do not bring violence among us
Leave space between us
I am not bitter or angry or burdened
Do not threaten my peace
I fear the screams in the night
Will one day be shuttled
From my own throat
Worse beyond that
I fear they will be silenced
I loved the quiet once
She is tension now
Tension between now and tomorrow