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CommonStory Apr 2018
I've tasted black coal

For the first time ever

What a bitter taste

Dry grainy texture

Water makes it worse

I couldnt finish the first lump

Oh how weak i am

My parents made it seem so good

Smile of their faces

Black of demons on their teeth

Its only now i realized

The plain rice

And warm milk

Was a gourmet meal in comparison

They protected me

And i appreciate the weakness I endured through the love of my parent

But for my childs sake

They will taste coal the very first day
Copyright Matthew Marquis Xavier Donald 4/15/2018
AM Feb 2014
the happiest I've been in my life is in your arms,
in those short-lived moments
when i turn my face to yours
and your lips curl into a smile as you
gaze back at me,
when you stroke my cheek
lightly with your finger
before kissing my forehead softly, sweetly...

the worst pain i've felt is in each and every
moment i am awake without you
you... my love, my drug, my weakeness
the incessant yearning to see that tight-lipped smile spread across your face as my eyes meet yours
it's in these moments I know
you're going
to
break my
heart
midnight prague Nov 2010
Z
I almost fell asleep
before i convinced myself to write of you
and who ever knew I would write of you

tonight you craddled my mind
in thoughts of you sitting next to me
humming the same rythym that breathed on
everyones soul strings

wraped in my culture
wraped in your voice
and wraped in the man
who I thought was the men of all men
come to find
I wasnt treated as if he was so

so it goes
the story
I met a young gentlemen
who almost changed the course of my life
and shook my world
with the simple smirk of his sinful lips
the epic glare of his eye

I surrendered for a minimal amount of time
i forfited into my weakeness
and wraped myself in it
immeresed myself into something that
was out of character and insanity
or maybe not

and so it goes this story
of the days where i use to spend in the garden
the days i spent picking fruit
the days i spent alone
with the grumpy old hearts beating down on my mind
the days i spent dwelling in thought of you
dwelling in absence of you
dwelling in longing

i held my breathe
and suffocated underneath the gloomy water
and i held myself there

your look was sly
and then you intention shifted
and so did my thoughts
the glare in your eye didnt shine the same
and my hearts beat started to slow down
and catch on to its normal pace

your lips changed and with that your tongue
why did people matter
people should have never mattered at all
and maybe if you were different
it would have lasted more than a month
Usually i could write so easily but since i felt the touch of your hand and the press of your lips i can no longer remember anything but the way your heart beating out of your chest and the nervous shake in your hand felt. My words no longer seem dull and saddened with the weight i carry. My beautiful redheaded princess, i have never felt such a strong and dire love for someone. My beautiful beautiful princess, i know my actions may not show you my full heartfelt nervous love but i promise its true. Your blue eyes have captured me and i dont fear the promise of forever no more. I look at you and i see us getting married, i know it sounds crazy we are after all kids but maybe its not so crazy after all ive loved you since i laid eyes on you and i would do anything to keep you happy. I see us with kids and i know it doesnt seem possible because we are both female specimen but i know that we will figure ways out. And i know this seems so early and fast forthcoming but i only wish to speak the truth around you and the truth is i promised myself long before you i would never fall in love with another girl but you came a long and i couldnt resist after all the girls that look of forever are my greatest weakeness but only you are the one i want. My little firecrackeres girlfriend, one day soon i will put a promise ring around that pretty little finger of yours for you to show off and me to promise that for you ill always be true.
Emma K Jul 2018
To you it’s just a word
a word that no matter how many times said
it is always ignored
if I were to give you every reason in the world to do so
you still wouldn’t listen to our pleas
and if we can’t strut the way you want us to
we would be shunned
but if we strutted just how barbie should
you would approach and without asking
take control
I remember teachers saying to cover up our shoulders
but I never heard them tell the boys to stop staring
stop, I said it and I won’t stop until you do
I will fight you because you need to know when enough
is enough
when you were little i’m sure you didn’t lift up little girls dresses
or catcall them just for the pleasure
what happended
to the sweet dandelions that you handed us
or the cheesy love notes being passed from desk to desk
no you stopped with that
because if you continued it would be a sign of weakeness
a sort of loss of “manhood”
but I tell you now a girl would rather have a bouquet of weeds
than a hand up her skirt
so stop
sanctuary Sep 2014
here comes those sleepless nights
tears that brings rest
meals skipped due to appetite lost
bed that is comfort for the weakeness
the fakes smiles,
the pretend of being okay while the world goes on.
the flashbacks of the love now gone.
Things that make you wonder 'why love in the first place when all those happy moments only bring such sorrow'.

'Twas better to have loved than to never have loved at all.
what a horrible truth.
Reincarnated as a curse, once I made my way into the broken earth
A ***** capsule, pain through breakthroughs,
And plateaus mama I hear you, talking to ,
Me while,you was in gestation a manifestion,
Christ like, my words like Albert Pike,
Soon to spike, from the moonshine that bites,
Into my mentality, entered into another reality
Pacing, at a duality, evil vs good and vice versa,
Light circling around me, like
halos
Angels in the outfield feel, like Nas feel,
Let my words heal anything I
said it's real,
I bring life from death, air to breathe,
Carefully position my steps, stomping
On the devil's ground, though I'm crowned,
With mental thorns, my soul torn in the storm,
Fighting the weakeness from within',
With a bottle of gin, to.tackle my sins,
Lord forgive me for my waging, I'm paging,
Home early I see the lights, it's gods army coming to swarm me, yeah

Hook:
I stay drunk to myself, cruising the streets, in my girls jeeps,
Watching over the weeps, see the evil that peeps,
Silence the weak, as death makes it peaks,
I just let the liquor speak,

To myself...X2




Huh a braille man showed me the world,
Said my eyes, was closed even though,
I was seeing, what was this i was believing,
Receiving, nothing but fake blessing
Family's stressing and I'mstill stretching,
My nerves pass shell shocked, my words locked,
In all caps, I'm tombstone bound destined to drown,
I'll accept my destiny, for punishment
Of society, wise men like me, see the penitentiary
Or the cemetery, knew my goal before
I touched earth, knew I wouldn't worth,
Amounts to nothing, soon as I unbuttoned,
Expose the worlds flesh this ain't a test,
I'm hooked to the boozes crest, lay in between
My woman's breast, so I can better manifest,
My universal thoughts, everything I thought,
Was real was an illusion, see the cold fusion,
Tryna break the evil, within the Constitution
But most ain't using, too steadily cruisin,
Tryna cop wins, but I'm still loosing,



I stay drunk to myself, cruising the streets, in my girls jeeps,
Watching over the weeps, see the evil that peeps,
Silence the weak, as death makes it peaks,
I just let the liquor speak,

To myself...X2


Now that the liquor done settled in,
I see the spirits closing in,
To relieve me of my sins, I'm still struggling,
Everyday, hustling no not the Rick Ross way,
I stay with AKs, every year of my birth day,
I write a mental note to the sun dieties,
I know they smiling up, or down at me,
Depends on where you stand on the Earth's axis,
Feelin' Jackson, these demons won't leave me alone,
As I add another chapter to my tome, regained my throne,
Hip hops far from gone same tune different songs,
I spit for pleasures and pains brains to migraines,
Growing insane, I'm everywhere you stare
Followed, closely as to shadows, I battle,
Comfortable newjacks, break through stats
Imagine that, me spitting bars that's wack,
Only focused on facts, not fantasy tracks,
My words is wise, blessing in disguise,
Like Kweli, soothin' ya ears so smoothly,
Grab a fifth then let it lift roll up a spliff,
At the same I'm leaning ya over the cliff,
Edge can't shake all this madness in my head,
Guess I'm better of drunk fighting demons in my head,
Instead,

So I stay drunk by myself yeah,


I stay drunk to myself, cruising the streets, in my girls jeeps,
Watching over the weeps, see the evil that peeps,
Silence the weak, as death makes it peaks,
I just let the liquor speak,

To myself...X3
Reincarnated as a curse once I made my way into the broken earth
A ***** capsule pain through breakthroughs
And plateaus mama I hear you talking to
Me while.you was in gestation a manifestion
Christ like my words like Albert Pike
Soon to spike from the moonshine bites
Into my mentality entering into another reality
Sitting at a duality evil vs good and vice versa
Light circling around me like
halos
Angels in the outfield feel like Nas feel
Let my words heal anything I
said it's real
I bring life from death air to breathe
Carefully position my steps stomping
On the devil's ground though I'm crowned
With mental thorns my soul torn in the storm
Fighting the weakeness from within'
With a bottle of gin to.tackle my sins
Lord forgive me for my waging I'm paging
Home early I see the lights it's gods army coming to swarm me yeah




Huh a braille man showed me the world
Said my eyes was closed even though
I was seeing what was this i was believing
Receiving nothing but fake *** blessing
Family stressing and still stretching
My nerves pass shell shocked my words locked
In all caps I'm tombstone bound destined to drown
I'll accept my destiny for punishment
Of society wise men like me see the penitentiary
Or the cemetery knew my goal before
I touched earth knew I wouldn't worth
Amounts to nothing soon as unbutton
Expose the worlds flesh this ain't a test
I'm hooked to boozes crest lay in between
My woman's breast so I can manifest
My universal thoughts everything I thought
Was real was an illusion see the cold fusion
Tryna break the evil.within the Constitution
But most ain't using too steady cruisin...


Now that the liquor done settled in
I see the spirits closing in
To relieve me of my sins I'm still struggling
Everyday hustling no not the Rick Ross way
I stay with AKs every year of my birth day
I write a mental note to the sun dieties
I know they smiling up or down at me
Depends on where you stand on the Earth's axis
Feelin' Jackson these demons won't leave me alone
As I add another chapter to my tome retained my throne
Hip hops far from gone same tune different songs
I spit for pleasures and pains brains to migraines
Growing insane I'm everywhere you stare
Followed closely as to shadows I battle
Comfortable newjacks break through stats
Imagine that me spitting bars that's wack
Only focused on facts not fantasy tracks
My words is wise blessing in disguise
Like Kweli soothin' ya ears so smoothly
Grab a fifth then let it lift roll up a spliff
At the same I'm leaning ya over the cliff
Edge can't shake all this madness in my head
Guess I'm better of drunk fighting demons in my head
Instead
Igor Vizoni Oct 2018
did you ever felt like
you had to choose between
hide behind a mask and
avoid the pain,
or open the scar and
let it bleed
until is drained?

I fell like im
about to lose,
because of a mistake,
my mind, my friends.
A weakeness moment
i wish i could erase.
Its too late now,
ill have to face

Is it valid to lie
to protect someone you like?
or this is just like
puttin up a desguise?
i just cant decide
swallow my pride
look in the eye
face and apologize.
i wish that i
didnt have to take a side,
but is late now and the night
came to doom my mind.

— The End —