"tickings" poems
I can't remember the last time I lived somewhere
that didn't have running water.
I wonder if it's actually happened.
We're moving a maximalist aesthetic
into a minimalist situation.
I just want a glass of water,
a hot shower,
a working toilet.
Ive never been so tired,
and I've never smelled so bad.
My leg are two masses of limp pain,
my hands are stiff, calloused wads of meat.
My right eye is experiencing a
mild swelling, that I'd ******* pray
isn't pink eye, if I believed in god,
which gets harder from here.
Illuminated in the dark of midnight
by computer light,
with only the tickings
of a cheap watch for condolence.
Their voices complain from downstairs.
Then laugh. Then return.
Trinkets chitter around.
Rooms full of garbage.
If you hit it softly enough,
can you still tell you're at the bottom?
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 4:52 PM UTC
no one could ever understand
why i loved clocks so much
i would hold them to my ears
and listen endlessly to their tickings
i would imagine strange mechanical worlds inside of them
and rub my fingers over their gears and hands,
and if they had eyes i would have seized those too
i only loved them in the daytime, though
their rhythm was too much at night,
it would intrude on my nonsense world
and demand order, which wasn't ever any fun for my dreams
i know others, whose nighttime clocks reminded them
of the horror of the Telltale Heart
which is strange, because i know someone,
someone very dear, and very sick,
whose heart ticks and does not beat
whose hands and eyes and everything
are dying, dying, but her heart
died long ago, so now it ticks,
ticks on and on, ceaselessly, reliant as a clock
i love clocks because they tick
because they beat, and make me think of hearts
that do not fail, even when all else does, or is going to,
and manage to be right at least twice a day
even when they're already broken.
Jan 3, 2012
Jan 3, 2012 at 6:58 PM UTC
I think you're dead.
You haven't replied to my letters, my calls, my emails, my texts,
my body language, my thoughts, my wishes,
the almost-silent tickings of my heart as it beats closer and closer to where you are.
I didn't want to write this poem, because I didn't think people would believe me.
I thought I should make it a book, or a story, or a newspaper article.
Man Leaves Woman With No Reason, Probably Dead.
We met on park benches, and under bridges.
In abandoned train stations and church gardens named after poets.
We never went out to dinner, or back to each others apartments.
We were too much that combination of whimsy, fear and patience.
I don't know where you live, or who your friends are.
We are ghosts meeting together always passing through each other
never touching.
I always knew you would leave.
I didn't know how, but I thought I would.
I imagined fights, or the slow dying,
our affection like the tired kidneys of a person
who could no longer filter all the conflicting elements out of
themselves.
I imagined reason.
You only gave me mystery.
Before you left, you said you had to go do something.
You left before I could ask what. You ran away.
The sound of your feet against the pavement like one-handed clapping,
like a tree falling in the woods with nobody to hear it.
Without your return you made me into nobody,
and turned us into a fantasy,
into a poem.
That no one will believe.
May 2, 2010
May 2, 2010 at 1:08 PM UTC
Phantom tickings of hours laid awake staring at white blank wall ,
You see u am not here,
I have been gone for what seems like forever
I don't know who Iam anymore
You have injected into me flowing through my veins like lead
I am weighed down
Heavy heart
clinging on to old memories like a child holding a mothers hand in a bussling city sidewalk
I knew I'd loose myself without your guidance
Weighed down in bed
I've realized how big my bed is how much youve consumed every inch of me
Raw and scratched
inside out you've severed my vocal cords
I can't even objectify to your injustice
Youve crawled out
And for some ******* reason I still sleep with your sweaters hoping that they'll start to smell like you
I smoke your brand of cigarettes hoping that you'll call before I OD
I love you to the point where I hate you
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 10:54 PM UTC
beauty is the mind,
the subtle tickings
and whirrs,
that make up thoughts.
Aug 18, 2013
Aug 18, 2013 at 1:36 PM UTC
Time fades away
The wind blows the sand
Into forever
As the clock turns it’s hand
I stand alone in the silence
The tickings gone dim
It’s my quest for survival
And my chances are slim
I’ll take the odds
If it’s all the same
And live for each moment
While the moments remain
Feb 1, 2023
Feb 1, 2023 at 9:20 PM UTC