I love the moon and the stars
I love the way the night sky looks above me
I love how the stars sparkle like its a coat of diamonds
And how the moon follows you everywhere so you're never really alone
I believe that there's other existence out there
Aliens
I believe in aliens, the green kind
The ones that look just like us
I believe we're not alone
I love the beauty of it all
And I also love how scary it all is
I love how looking up at that big beautiful sparkley sky, I truly believe I am not alone.

Each day I arise,
Awaiting sunsets,
On the horizon of your mind,
Sinking low, this illuminating and colorful depiction,
Throwing colors about,
Magenta and burnt-orange,
Violet with blue,
Having missed the sunrise that is you,
Glistening sparkley eyes,
Drawn deep with longing for my awakening
In your soulful eyes,
Feeling soft the generous love,
That cannot be contained,
It is felt and wanted,
Needed,
Desired,
Cried for over sleep,
Disturbed in otherwise quiet dreams,
Held gently and admired,
Love undisturbed,
Lost I feel,
Shaken about,
Startled from this dream,
Realizing,
That love will come,
I remain parched,
Thirsty,
I wanna drink from your well,
And quench this overwhelming dryness,
But I fall short,
And never reach you,
I slowly die,
Laid to rest in this arid and desolate desert,
Falling prey,
To the burning sun,
That is you.

Wherever you are,
Whereas you go,
Always be sure to
Sparkley

I wish I didn't wonder
Didn't always wander back over to the feeling
But when will someone really love me
Again.

But here I wander back over
In the faint light of the lamp by my hotel bedside table
After a day, an evening
Of beautiful conversation
New atmosphere, new connection
Ending and cultivating with a warm bath
I haven't had in ages
Picking my face apart in the mirror
And yet I wonder
When will someone love me again.

I reveal secrets and I reveal truth
I don't have time like I used to
I'm gone and then I'm there
I long and I wish
For someone to often care.

I hold more than one man
In the palm of my hand
When I speak of them
I refer to how the past has been brutal
So I keep my options always
Fairly open.

I love myself and yet it is never enough
The moments of glamour
The coffee cups
The dresses I wiggle in and out of
I gaze in the mirror thinking how I need more time
To get my body into tick top shape
I fear lipsticked teeth
I fear living a life with no companion
And no companion to call me theirs.

I scroll through aesthetics hoping for a sense of relief
I take a cute but not too **** but **** video
And hit send send
We dream we make big plans
I think and I hope for money to come in
Knowing I only have so many
Many hours of the day.

My nails shine like diamonds
He said my eyes were sparkley
It bumps me up into a dose of happiness
It all does for a moment in time
Sometimes I wish I could keep it just at the peak
Never to falter
Like the moments I've snorted *******
Even though I didn't really want to
But did anyway among the height of Chicago sunrises
And fast furious dances.

I'm tired most of my days
But I've found a way to survive it
As a troop of filmmakers surround me
Their faces old and their voices wise
I want to feel and be youthful all of my days.

And yet
I still always wish
When will someone love me someday.