The picture in the mirror,
what do you see?
The anger pain and scars,
revolving around me.

A friend who knows the truth,
but she always goes against.
When I ask her one thing,
she goes around the fence.

I'm shaking and crying,
but she doesn't seem to care.
When I need to talk to her,
she's hardly ever there.

She makes me question words,
and her every action.
Was it really meant?
or for his satisfaction?

How can I even trust,
someone who goes behind.
My back is bleeding buckets,
he carries a heart that's mine.

But it doesn't seem to matter,
and no one seeems to care.
They merely look away,
as my "best friends" stand a tear...

My pretend smile hides a lot of my pain....so no one knows how much festers up inside...destoying my brain..,
It works well so know one knows all of what I hide.....sometomes it seeems like my whole world is about to colide.
Like tonight....I was twenty mins. Late to get home.....so I'm locked out..forced to spend the night inside my car all alone.
I don't get why she treats me so bad.....but if I even argue....I am told to be quiet *** I just make her always mad....which makes me sad *** I don't know why.....why do I even care or why so I even try...
Like today I steam cleaned the dinningroom floor.....its so much nicer now....no dog stains left on the carpet like before.
She didn't even say thanks or give me a hug......it bothers me when she treats me like this.....its reallhy starting to bug..
So for now I will fight back these tears wanting to fall.....can't let that.                                                       . happen...since its so cold out here.....teafrs will start but end up as ice sicles once they start to fall.

When you've  run out of tears to cry,
When you want to speak but your throat feels dry,
When every step you take feels like a mile,
When you've lost the will to even smile.
What do you do?

When you wish you could sink into to the floor,
When you feel you can't take anymore,
When you're tired of hearing, "Are you ok?"
When you've drained your stack of lies to say,
What do you do?

When you thought you were done but the feeling comes back,
And slowly your world starts to fade to black
When you just want to stand still in one place
but you're swept into Life's ruthless race
What do you do?

When you feel your emotions taking you for a ride,
When you've  exhausted all your places to hide,
When you itch to bang your head against the wall
or sit in the corner and do nothing at all,
What do you do?

When you can't be free of that throbbing headache,
And sleep seeems like your only escape,
When all you want is to be okay
but Life doesn't really work that way,
What do you do?

Everybody  is  going  somewhere, it  seeems  that  i'm  going  nowhere  only  to  the  places that  lie  still and  resting  in  my mind. Trouble  knocking  on  my  door , crying  and  to  scared   to  answer  hiding  in  the dark  shadows.  I can't  take  this  life  that  i'm   any more, won't  somebody  help me  please?  Each day that  i  wake  up,  and  stare  at  the  clock  on  the  wall ,time  is leaving  me  here ,watching  spring quickly  turning  into fall. I   tried to earn  money  every  way  that  i  know  how , but debts and  bills  like  leaking  water  are going  out  of  here  real  slow. Won't  somebody   help me  please? I  believe  that  somewhere  maybe  far  away  waits  a  better  life. God's  is  leading  on  to  a brighter  day. Lord, look  down  and help  me  please.

3:30 alone in my bed
thinking over what i said
my thoughts on repeat
like a song i can’t skip
wondering if i’m gonna slip
up in the air
but somehow still on the ground
it doesn’t feel fair
seems like i’m bound
to **** it all up
no matter what i do
so why does it matter
what path i choose?
if i always come back to
“what the hell did i do?”
why does it matter
what path i choose?
all i seem to do
is lose
i always end up back here
all ******
and bruised

this seeems to be
the only path i choose