"seeems" poems
My pretend smile hides a lot of my pain....so no one knows how much festers up inside...destoying my brain..,
It works well so know one knows all of what I hide.....sometomes it seeems like my whole world is about to colide.
Like tonight....I was twenty mins. Late to get home.....so I'm locked out..forced to spend the night inside my car all alone.
I don't get why she treats me so bad.....but if I even argue....I am told to be quiet *** I just make her always mad....which makes me sad *** I don't know why.....why do I even care or why so I even try...
Like today I steam cleaned the dinningroom floor.....its so much nicer now....no dog stains left on the carpet like before.
She didn't even say thanks or give me a hug......it bothers me when she treats me like this.....its reallhy starting to bug..
So for now I will fight back these tears wanting to fall.....can't let that. . happen...since its so cold out here.....teafrs will start but end up as ice sicles once they start to fall.
Dec 31, 2013
Dec 31, 2013 at 3:20 AM UTC
The picture in the mirror,
what do you see?
The anger pain and scars,
revolving around me.
A friend who knows the truth,
but she always goes against.
When I ask her one thing,
she goes around the fence.
I'm shaking and crying,
but she doesn't seem to care.
When I need to talk to her,
she's hardly ever there.
She makes me question words,
and her every action.
Was it really meant?
or for his satisfaction?
How can I even trust,
someone who goes behind.
My back is bleeding buckets,
he carries a heart that's mine.
But it doesn't seem to matter,
and no one seeems to care.
They merely look away,
as my "best friends" stand a tear...
Aug 2, 2010
Aug 2, 2010 at 11:29 AM UTC
When you've run out of tears to cry,
When you want to speak but your throat feels dry,
When every step you take feels like a mile,
When you've lost the will to even smile.
What do you do?
When you wish you could sink into to the floor,
When you feel you can't take anymore,
When you're tired of hearing, "Are you ok?"
When you've drained your stack of lies to say,
What do you do?
When you thought you were done but the feeling comes back,
And slowly your world starts to fade to black
When you just want to stand still in one place
but you're swept into Life's ruthless race
What do you do?
When you feel your emotions taking you for a ride,
When you've exhausted all your places to hide,
When you itch to bang your head against the wall
or sit in the corner and do nothing at all,
What do you do?
When you can't be free of that throbbing headache,
And sleep seeems like your only escape,
When all you want is to be okay
but Life doesn't really work that way,
What do you do?
Sep 16, 2016
Sep 16, 2016 at 2:59 AM UTC
In a sea of problems
...
Sometimes
It seeems
Like I’m the only one
Trying to swim
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 10:53 PM UTC
Everybody is going somewhere, it seeems that i'm going nowhere only to the places that lie still and resting in my mind. Trouble knocking on my door , crying and to scared to answer hiding in the dark shadows. I can't take this life that i'm any more, won't somebody help me please? Each day that i wake up, and stare at the clock on the wall ,time is leaving me here ,watching spring quickly turning into fall. I tried to earn money every way that i know how , but debts and bills like leaking water are going out of here real slow. Won't somebody help me please? I believe that somewhere maybe far away waits a better life. God's is leading on to a brighter day. Lord, look down and help me please.
Apr 16, 2013
Apr 16, 2013 at 7:03 PM UTC
3:30 alone in my bed
thinking over what i said
my thoughts on repeat
like a song i can’t skip
wondering if i’m gonna slip
up in the air
but somehow still on the ground
it doesn’t feel fair
seems like i’m bound
to **** it all up
no matter what i do
so why does it matter
what path i choose?
if i always come back to
“what the hell did i do?”
why does it matter
what path i choose?
all i seem to do
is lose
i always end up back here
all ******
and bruised
this seeems to be
the only path i choose
Mar 30, 2020
Mar 30, 2020 at 3:47 AM UTC