Tell me - What's actually going on between us ?
I'm not sure whether I like this or not
It makes me so happy but I lose my focus
There's something strong but it's not my fault.

Tell me - What's the nature of our relationship ?
I'd like, just for a second, to get you out of my mind
It oppened my eyes and now I can't blink
There's something strong that I can't define.

Tell me - Do you believe in love at first sight ?
I know I do, it's happened to me
It's going on inside of me, an internal fight
There's something strong and I want to break free.

Tell me - What are your feelings towards me ?
I don't think they're as true as mine for you
It really is going to drive me crazy
There's something strong and nothing I can do.

Tell me - Is that what they call 'Love' ?
I am so scared and have so many regrets,
It became the only thing I can think of
There's something strong that I can't forget.

Tell me - Why do I act so shy around you ?
I am so open and talkative with other people
It's weird how a simple feeling can become so deep and true
There's something strong but it's drowning my soul.

Tell me - How exactly would you describe us together ?
I can't say what I think, all my thoughts are gone
It has been chasing me since a tuesday in September
There's something strong but I want it to leave me alone.

Tell me - What's about you that makes me forget the others ?
I'm really confused by all those different emotions
It is gonna **** me if I don't find answers
There's something strong and I can't find reasons.

Tell me - Why do I miss you so much when you're not here ?
I always feel hurt, but I don't know who to blame
It better go away, let me live, disappear
There's something strong that's causing me pain.

Tell me - Why am I pretending that everything's fine ?
I still remember holding your hand through the whole night
It was cold and your fingers were slowly caressing mine
There's something strong but it's killing my heart.

Tell me – Do you think I have wasted too much time ?
I've been wondering for too long if you'll ever be mine
It's hurting me now, I think the time has come
To reveal my feelings to you, and maybe we will share some...

And here I am, waiting for your answer
Shaking in the dark, eyes wide open with anxiety
Will you say ''no'' and try to forget me ?
Or will you say ''yes'' and be mine forever ?

I forget
That random acts of kindness
Make a difference.
...
I go to work,
And all of a sudden one of the workers
Goes up to me and says
"Because I appreciate our student workers"
And hands me a small box.
I give her a pout and say "thank you so much!"
I oppened it
And it had a hand made shawl with a beautiful letter.
My gods
I felt my tears rise up, and
My chest swell.
Her kindness
Has made my whole entire life so much better.
I forgot,
That kindness is such a beautiful thing.
Thank you.
Thank you for reminding me that kindness goes a long way.

Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because of where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever and ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best and brightest.

These enemies repaid my good for evil destroying the precious character integrity of my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, my dead silence.

Despite their greed and malice I feel sacred in the motherhood
department.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accept her benefit the treasure friensmdship she crowned me with
for all eternity for every lifetime.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious and mine Mom again.

For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
a great family made of true love for true love, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i gound in you for me,
I love you , not in a time sensitive matter but forever.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways attempted nor steal my children so the enemy I did not linch waited.
This horror true story i hid fed culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the 11 winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me- my children

my chikdren the object of their evil obsession never ended..

You beloved were all my heaven sent the forces of good and understanding.

Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this lifetime ever again.
I have lost my children relationship  my only treasures, assimilated by my deadly enemies.
and their hate crimes isolated me from  my grandkids too.

"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling. How i love you.
Infinite love,
All the days if my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, I worship my belived children..
---
By Karijinbba
home less without you 50 years.

Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because of where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever and ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best and brightest.

These enemies repaid my good for evil destroying the precious character integrity of my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, my dead silence.

Despite their greed and malice I feel sacred in the motherhood
department.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accept her benefit the treasure friensmdship she crowned me with
for all eternity for every lifetime.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious and mine Mom again.

For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
a great family made of true love for true love, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i gound in you for me,
I love you , not in a time sensitive matter but forever.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways attempted nor steal my children so the enemy I did not linch waited.
This horror true story i hid fed culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the 11 winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me- my children

my chikdren the object of their evil obsession never ended..

You beloved were all my heaven sent the forces of good and understanding.

Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this lifetime ever again.
I have lost my children relationship  my only treasures, assimilated by my deadly enemies.
and their hate crimes isolated me from  my grandkids too.

"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling. How i love you.
Infinite love,
All the days if my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, I worship my belived children..
---
By Karijinbba
home less without you 50 years.