THE ALLAN FAMILY STORY, THE MESSIAH SAVES BRIAN



YOU SEE BRIAN FIGHTING WITH DAD WAS WEARING THIN, AND BRIAN WANTED TO

GO ON HOLIDAYS, HE STARTED OFF GOING TO THE BEACH WITH OTHER MENTAL HEALTH

GROUPS, AND THIS IS WHERE HE MET THE MESSIAH, WHO WAS A STRUGGLING POOR PERSON

LIVING IN ****** NEIGHBOURHOOD AFTER ****** NEIGHBOURHOOD, AND BRIAN FOUND OUT

HE WANTED TO BUILD A TEMPLE IN ISREAL, AND DIE THERE, AND I SAID, THIS GUY IS CRAZY, SO

I DON’T WANT TO GO ON HOLIDAYS WITH HIM, BUT DUDES, MY LITTLE SHY BOY KEPT OF CREEPING BACK

AS I DIDN’T WANT TO UPSET HIM, AS HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND, I LIKE HIM HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND, BUDDY

AND THEN AFTER I TOLD HIM THAT, AFTER HE HUNG AROUND AT THE MENTAL HEALTH DROP IN CENTRE

KICKING A BIG BALL, AND MAKING THE BOSS SAY, STOP THIS IS DAFT,

AND I GOT INTO A FEW PROBLEMS WITH MY GAINING WEIGHT, MAKING ME FAT AND ON DEATHS DOOR

AND THE MESSIAH, WAS HAVING A FIELD DAY TEASING ME, I CAN TAKE IT, BUT HE JUMPED UP AND DOWN

HAVING FUN, BUT THE JOKE WAS ON HIM, WHEN ALL THE ADRENALINE, WORE OFF, AND HE LOOKED

NEGATIVE AGAIN, AND I FOUGHT MY DEMONS, THINKING HE NEEDS  SOMEONE TO GO ON HOLIDAYS WITH

BUT WHEN I ASKED HIM HE SAID NO, BUT I FELT AWFUL, CAUSE I WANTED TO GIVE HIM A MATE FOR A WHILE

TO GO ON HOLIDAY WITH, I WENT TO ADELAIDE ON MY OWN, IN 2009, AND THE MESSIAH RANG ME UP, AT NIGHT

AND I TOLD HIM ABOUT MY DAY, AND AFTER I GOT BACK HE STARTED TO TALK ABOUT, WANTING TO GO TO

AMSTERDAM, IN HOLLAND AND BARCELONA, BUT I WAS VISIONING, THAT THE MESSIAH WAS A BIT TIMID TO

GO ON HOLIDAYS, SO I KEPT ON PUSHING HIM INTO GOING ON MANY HOLIDAYS, BUT HE JUST DIDN’T BUDGE

SO I WENT TO BATEMANS BAY ON MY OWN, AND ACTUALLY, I TOOK THE MESSIAH ON A FEW DAY TRIPS DOWN THERE

AND DUDE, I REALLY ENJOYED THAT, AND I WANTED TO TAKE HIM TO OTHER PLACES, BUT BECAUSE WE WERE DIFFERENT

BUT REMEMBER WHAT PAULA ABDUL SAID, OPPOSITES ATTRACT, BUT I AM NOT GAY, OK, I JUST WANTED TO SHOW

THE MESSIAH HOW TO ENJOY A GREAT HOLIDAY, AND FEEL BETTER ABOUT STANDING ON HIS OWN TWO FEET

THE MESSIAH HAS MORE CHANCES OF GETTING TO AMSTERDAM RATHER THAN BUILDING A TEMPLE, WHAT BOGUS CRAP

LATER ON, ME AND THE MESSIAH WENT ON A HOLIDAY TO MERIMBULA, FOR 6 NIGHTS OVER THE NEW YEAR PERIOD

AND IT WAS FUN, WE WENT TO TURA BEACH AND WALKED TO THE OTHER BEACH, WHERE THE NYE FIREWORKS AND CONCERT

WAS BEING HELD, AND I WENT TO THAT, CONCERT WHILE HE LAID ON HIS BED, WATCHING TV AND SWIMMING IN THE POOL

WHICH IS FINE, THE MESSIAH WAS ONE DUDE, THAT WAS FINE WITH ME PARTYING, BUT WHEN IT WAS OVER I WAS TOO

WORRIED THAT I WOULD WAKE THE MESSIAH UP, SO I SAT IN THE BATHROOM GETTING RID OF MY GREAT POPULARITY

CONTEST WITH ALL THE YOUNG DUDES, EVENTUALLY THE MESSIAH WOKE UP, AND I SHOWED THE MESSIAH THE PHOTOS

OF THE COOL DUDES I PARTIED WITH, AND ALSO PHOTOS OF THE BAND AND THE FIREWORKS, YEAH THIS WAS RADICALLY AWESOME DUDES

AND THEN ME AND THE MESSIAH WERE GROWING AWAY FROM ONE ANOTHER, BUT THAT IS FINE, BECAUSE, I ACTUALLY

HELPED A POOR MAN, GET BACK ON HIS FEET, THEN I WENT TO THE GRAMPIANS AND ALSO MELBOURNE ON MELBOURNE CUP DAY

AND I WON $72 ON PICKING THE WINNER ON THE MELBOURNE CUP, GREEN MOON, AND BACK TO ADELAIDE AND SYDNEY

AND I WENT TO A BASEBALL MATCH, AFTER GOING TO BONDI BEACH, AND I HAVEN’T GOT A JOB AS SUCH, WELL I HAVE GOT

A JOB AS AN ARTIST AND A WRITER AND A YOUTUBE ****** ENTERTAINER, YOU SEE, LAST YEAR WAS DIFFICULT, CAUSE I LOST MY DAD

BUT, THE LAST TIME HE PICKED ME UP, WAS THE TRAIN STATION AFTER THE BASEBALL

I DON’T SEE THE MESSIAH MUCH NOW, BUT I REALLY HELPED THAR GUY, UNDERSTAND, THAT YOU SHOULD PRACTICE WHAT YA PREACH

I WANNA GO TO ADELAIDE ON NEW YEARS EVE, AT THE END OF THIS YEAR

GOODBYE MESSIAH, THANKS FOR LETTING ME HELP YA, GET A HOLIDAY

In the darkness I feel the cool comforting embrace

the reality is I invited the demons that I chase

over grown with the thoughts of days gone by

the dove of peace can no longer fly

the moon beams have become my sun

all good things left undone

living just to live another day

all the dreams I had, now given away

on my face a smirk apears

amidst the lines from all these years

I worked hard to get where I am at

no suprise I feel like a tire gone flat

I will always be the awful taste that never leaves

the lurking doubt that confuses and decieves

you know me all to well and it's not by coincidents

I am your lack of self confidence

Self- confidence is not something so easily obtained .
These negative remarks , opinions  and thoughts remain.
Stabbing at my self-esteem.
Its original state would never be redeemed .
Self-confidence seem only like a dream.
Society and these unrealistic expectations work together as a team.
Bringing my Self-Confidence to its knees .
Trying hard to win against societies'  high  expectations.
But it is a battle I cannot win, just need  a little demonstration .
That shows your skincolor , bodyshape doesn't define you.
That thinner or whiter is better isn't true.
Just give us a clue .

I burned my fingers
On you
But more than that
On how much I trusted you

Hell it wasn't just the fingers
It was fingers all the way
To my elbows
And my bare feet
All the way to my knees

Such was my trust in you
And in my own estimation
Of who you are.
There's never just one to blame
It's always the two

I guess I trew myself at you
And that's fine
But it would take forever
For me to do it again
With full confindence
That you'd catch me.

The first time you unsewed your lips and smiled at me I knew I would never be able to find anything on earth as beautiful as you.
When your melodious laugh bubbled up from your lungs and out your newly freed mouth I discovered that every composer and musician that will ever live has been trying to capture that sound.
When you began to direct your words at me I felt like I had just encountered the most gorgeous intellect a human brain could offer.
Your words were poetry and the conviction in your words could convince any dying man there was hope to live another day.
Your shoulders pushed themselves back and you displayed a confindence in yourself that was unrivaled by any kings.
You choose your words carefully because you knew the power they had.
You could start a war or bring world peace with a flick of the tongue and one look with your beautiful blue eyes.
You put every great speech of histort to shame with a simple hello and brought more hope to my heart with your sewn lips in a half smile than any inspirational speech ever given.