"collasped" poems
do you still despise your father
because he had another woman,
& left you & your brother for her?
"oh no, now, no one will ever care"
do you still resent your mother
because she turned a blind eye
& collasped with shame when it came to light?
"oh no, I'll be more unyielding than that"
& so it is no small wonder to me
that when you gaze at yourself
you must see the ***** that you are
you still take his money after all.
that sort of self-disgust must be
pretty hard to swallow, digest.
no wonder, you're always hungry & hollow
oh you'll consume anything he pays for
(I, myself, must admit I made the mistake of
finding an abyss inside a void)
but spaces are not always places
aches are not always pains
I loved you once
May 22, 2013
May 22, 2013 at 8:14 AM UTC
She crept through the bedroom
and tip toed down the hall
carrying a secret
no one knew at all
When she saw result
hands trembling
she began to sulk
wasnt ready
Feeling hijacked
and at an end
her morals collasped
beliefs shaken
In a twilight she woke
having to face the day
Knowing deep down
nothing would ever be the same
Oct 20, 2012
Oct 20, 2012 at 2:18 PM UTC
My daddy was a woman beater
But she didn’t care as long as he didn’t cheat her
She valued that hit
Like it was twist of that good kush
On some cloud nine, Heroine Ish
After every episode
She’d still move with such grace
Pleading things, like
he’s just sick
He’s really a kind man
He’s not cruel.
Just sick!
She believed so much in his lies
Her nightly cries became uniform
As he.....
Mutilated her pretty face
Leaving battle scars
Some verbal, without a trace
Those cries became her lullabies
I remember it like it was yesterday
Until one night she stopped putting up a fight
Her lungs collasped
Causing a vein to bust
And people always said you can’t die from heart ache and mistrust
But I watched him
as he watched the spirit from her eyes disintegrate
he placed his peace sign
Over her like it was his final goodbye
Ironically
He simply smiled and said until next time
Then he took a dramatic pause
Kissed her forehead
Thanked her even
I continued to watch him, conflicted and confused
I watched him **** my mother then thank her
I saw him **** my mother
The one who loved him like no other
I pondered. . . Why did he thank her
It wasn’t until his stature blocked my light
My bulb went off
Remember I said. . .
My daddy was a woman beater
He thanked her cause I was next
Back then was when I was 5
You can celebrate
‘Cause I just turned 30
I survived.
Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 10:07 PM UTC
No words can explain how I feel if you
I try to do all I can to make you smile
And every since the day I accused you of using me
We been fighting for a while
I know were both far apart
I know your life is harder than mine
You ve always had a broken heart
That hasn't fixed overtime
Why I made you my bestest friend
Cause you were always there
When I was lost in this world
It seem like your the only one who cared
You've given me words of encouragement when I was sad and down
that why I've dreamed of you being my queen
But trust me your more royal than a crown
I'd rather see you in a white gown
Everything used to be good
But good has its wrongs
Everysince last night
When u said u wanted to die my heart collasped
So I'm no longer strong
Everyday I feel guilty
And sorry no longer works
I'd rather die right beside you
Cause how much our love is worth
I feel you probably hate me
And its killing me inside
And since our old times will never come back
I cry with my eyes open wide
Dear Ariee
I know in wrong for what I said
Everyday I question myself what have I done
And now its all got me in stress
Without you in my life I ll just be a mess
Dear ariee
Being close again is what I hope
Cause arguments are gonna leave us broke
No its not a joke
Its hard to think at night when your feelings try to cope
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 8:21 AM UTC