It's after the magic happens.
It's our own personal time, when time stops,
When our eyes make four, and in that moment my heart drops.

We understand that no place is better than here.
Where love in our hearts is the only imperative thing,
Our fingers entwine, I'm your Queen and you're my king.

Everything about you seems different, yet somehow still the same.
Here you have my heart, you can be the  puppeteer,
I don't mind the submission, I'll gladly volunteer.

You have my undivided attention because the look we're giving each other cannot be divided.
Your body is warm like a summer's day,
I can't for the life of me explain this feeling in my chest, not even in the most simplest way.

I'm speaking but your eyes are focused on my lips.
Forgetting what I said, I'd rather not bother,
It's probably two minutes, maybe ten, but it feels like forever.

The emersion of the sun breaks our gaze.
Now it's that time again to cut our ties,
It's unfortunately time to say our goodbyes.

I yearn for our time once again.
With an aching heart I give you the final kiss,
You leave and the sweet smell of your perfume is stuck on my body, that I'll truly miss.

I look through the window.
You open the cardoor.
"Wait", I silently say, but you could hear me no more,
As you go to put one foot in, an abrupt pause I saw.

It's like your heart heard mine.
A sharp turn and there you run,
The sound of the door open proves that both our hearts beats to the same drum.

I stood there, and multiple the emotions hit me all at once.
You were like a cagged animal being set free,
Fright, happiness, excitment...all rapidly came over me.

In your arms you held me, as we manage to make it up the stairs.
The atmosphere is silent, cool and absolutely beautiful,
Your skin seems to glow more, I could see into your soul, it's wonderful.

Back to the bedroom we walked.
For after we made magic, we would pillowtalk.
                     ~Gabbriella with 2 b's~

Where there was once peace
Now there is malice
Where there was once calm
Now there is only reason to form a fist
Instead of extending my palm

I have tried so hard to sit and let it pass
To watch and to wait like the ghost of Christmas past
But slowly it seems in my waiting the situation only gets worse
And I'm coming to believe that this straw I've reached is my last

I cannot seem to keep peace in my own room
The specific portion of my home
where me, myself and I were able to coexist
And that was good enough
I now have to add a fourth person to that list
That despite my efforts to believe he does what he does out of love, all I ever see is him doing things for his personal benefit

No eye has seen and no ear has heard
The sheer suffering I have lived with since his arrival, seeing as for the most part I have kept it a secret from the rest of the herd

I was always taught that you can't wait
for the world to solve your problems
so I didn't, I took angers bait
Because I tried so hard to shake away the pain
In every other way that would keep the rest of the herd unaware

Compromise never seemed to suffice
I gave him an inch and he took a thousand miles
Talking never worked, reason never worked
It seemed talking to the heard never worked
Everything I tried didn't work so I gave him his inch

But that wasn't enough, so he took a yard
And I said I can live with it
Then he took another yard
And I ****** it up and dealt with it
Then he took a mile and though it shook me
I tried to just live with it

Because in my mind
There was and is nothing I could do
To end his advance or at least ease the pain
Because everything I tried ended up amounting to cow poo

So I'd **** it up
And try to live with it
But the more I ****** it up
The more he'd push buttons and ask for it
The more rope I gave him
The more he demanded of it
And the little I did to push him back
Only strengthened his resolve to go for it

I would put my foot down
and he'd tear that down
And I would just take it
And turn my situational frown
Upside down
Because in my mind, it would all be over soon, and things would calm down

But then a month passed
And then another, and another
And slowly my dealings with my brother
Got worse and worse
Ad he collected more and more dirt
To throw on my head

And when I ask why he kept on his advances
He replied you have your strength now I want and advantage
And when I handed him compromises
what I got from him was something that in my brain sounded like this

I will settle for nothing less
Then your complete and utter obedience
Because no matter what you did for me
In times past I will never accept it when you say you love me so your useless
I will treat you like you're worthless
Because that's how you treat me
Because the amount of good you do for me
Will never compare to the bad things

I will not even consider your good works
Or your peaceful intentions
I want you to hurt  like I hurt
And feel my pain which was your creation
You are the architect of my suffering
So now I shall the be the devil that makes yours
Because it's only ever fair when I win
If I don't win the whole systems rigged
And instead of solving my own problems
I'll  enslave you, make you fix in
And then call you worthless in the process

Yes, I'm  supposed to believe this is false
And it's true when they come I am told to banish these thoughts
Because I'm supposed to believe he does these things out of love
But there is no love in being treated like a slave

I've fought for him more than I've fought against him
Burned my pockets to save him and never used a cent to hurt him
I've have tried to be a bridge before a hindrance
Tried hard to build his character and confidence
Tried to advise him that he doesn't fall into the hole I once did and yet every time we fight all he ever says to me

Is I hate you
I can't stand the sight of you
And you're human yes it's true
But no man can fail the way you do
You never do enough
You'll never be enough
You're a failure and you ****
To everything you build I say ewww yuck
And no matter what you do for me
You'll never do enough to please me
Because you're a worthless slave whose
Only real place is in miseries cave

I want the absolute worst for you
And I wish you the worst of luck
in the dreams you wish to pursue
Support I will not give to you
Love I will not show you
And when you die and no one mourns you
I won't even give you the honor of going to your funeral

This is what I hear every day and night
Evil glares and constant dares to bring on my doom
Millions of attempts to put me in my doom
This is all I hear
Caged In my own room

Into a dark place thy descend
The woes of ages absorb the mind
No light, no laughter in the air
A cold lair all your own
Where the broken mind calls home

The den thine iniquitous self hides
Ones darkest corners in a fractured mind
No place to wantonly go there
And yet dragged  with no hope at all
Trapped within your twisted soul

As evening comes, darker still
Cagged by your minds ill will
Tortured by the very consciousness
The rage and fears that you possess

Release from this is all you seek
Some solace no more to weep
Light to lift you from the depths
To be yourself and not a shell.