You are perfect, a sunlight beam.
Still in disbelief, this might be a dream.

How can this gloomy cloud attract a ray of light?
I am a storm yet you fearlessly flew a kite.

It still doesn't make any sense to me.
Like magnets, I am negative, you're miss positivity.

We're polar opposites, night and day.
I am darkness, and you, brought light to my way.

You're an anomaly 'cause you're too good to be true.
I won't give you the same mistakes you had to go through.

You're my sunlight, my brightness, my day.
I might be gloomy but I'll make that smile stay.

I am the moth and you are the flame.
Bodies dropping and you are to blame.

You attract us to your hurtful light.
All of us burning, oh so bright.

Everybody wants a piece of you.
Beautiful light left us to fume.

I want you all for myself.
But this pretty little flame can't help herself.

Sometimes I wonder what I could be?
If not this person I'm obligated to be.

Could I be enjoying myself right now?
Have choices of my own, somewhere, somehow.

I don't want to end up stuck like this.
Chained in mediocrity. I'm better than this.

I want to go places and buy things for myself.
Not count down the days on thoughts I just delve.

But its the right choice, the right thing to do.
Stupid of me, thinking not, what went through.

I'll never be wrong of choosing what's right.
Even if what's right is what I'll forever fight.

I was never the period to your story.                                
A pause, a storm before your glory.
                                  
Our part now history,                                                         ­   
the ifs to our theory.

You’re what a woman should be,                                      
No shamelessness, no indecency.                                      

But I couldn’t give up my religion.                                      
We knew the risk, ‘twas my decision.  
                              
I’ll forever cherish our time together.                                
The nights, days, drives I’ll remember.                              

Months felt like a lifetime with you.                                  
A life we both outgrew.

What a lucky guy he is.
Tying the knot is what you wished.

I’m happy for you.  
You deserve happiness, it is due.

You’ll never get to read this,
But if you somehow see this..

I want to say that I’m glad you’re happy.
Wish you the best, a life without worry.

This is the last poem for and about you.
Best wishes! Goodbye and thank you.

Don’t want to see new pictures of you.
‘Cause in my head I still own you.

I hated your plans without me knowing.
I still feel like I am deciding.

It slowly ended with how less we  connected.
No us, our paths now cemented.

But I still have you as an obsession.
Rid me of your thought, you’re not my possession!

Woke up early.
Slept so poorly.

Got up to make tea.
3rd straight day my cup's *****.

No time for breakfast.
Errand's need to be done fast.

With no concrete information.
"Just this house", no direction.

I hate spontaneity. No plans? It's a biggie.

Ain't the day I listen to rants.
Got no time for my big boy pants.

Flaunting your assets. Drools dripping like faucet.

Is the skin for attention? Parts of you’s all they mention.

Do you want some cover? Eyes exploring you all over.

Kids please don’t imitate. You’ll end up as sorry bait.

It’s hardly admiration. Time ticks for damnation.

Nakalimutan ko nang makinig.
Ngunit boses mo sadyang tinig.

Aking puot, galit,
unawa ang ipinalit.

Salamat sa pagtanggap,
Sa buhay kong mapagpanggap.

Ako’y “ako” sa piling mo.
Isang taon, ikaw parin hanggang dulo.

I used to look up to you.
In awe of your actions, in what you do.

Used to be happy with us around. Your hate was nowhere to be found.

I wanted to be like you. A superhero uncle, that’s what I knew.

But something wasn’t right. While I grew, you’re in a lot of fights.

You drank a lot and had no job. The missed opportunities you let others grab.

You’re full of flaws. Where was this superhero? He looks lost.

Your life’s still a mess. Whole life’s a mishap, old and stressed.

The hero I look up to is human. Full of flaws, does he do what he can?

I grew up idolizing you. Now I’m old enough to be grateful I didn’t become you.

Ever seen a racist blind man? No, they don’t see no tan.

Why do you hate small asian eyes? You’re no superior with a bigger size.

Hate the tone of our accent? Stop whining, be decent.

What makes you think you’re on top? Your ideals full of crap.

Why do you hate other culture?
You’re way worst than a vulture.

We live on one planet.  We’re the same, don’t you get it?

Im tired of this hate. Please, people, relate.

Stop looking at the eyes and the color. We need to end this racist dishonor.

We breath and live the same. You’re making the issue so insane!

They built a barrier. Intensions scarier.

Tall as their pride. We and them, divide.

Clear as their eyesight, their only side is they’re right.

Gave them leisure & peace, for us was unease.

With two sides of a wall. Separates from us all.

You don’t show affection neither rejection.

Your words are simple but I can’t decipher even a little.

Not sure what to do. Should I take the risk and continue?

Or just give you space. I’ll forever be stuck in this neutral place.

Provide me a signal, for the last words you read was final.

Hey, you! Its been 28 years and now look at you!

Still searching for your purpose, taking chances without knowing repercussions.

You’ve been through a lot. Made lots of mistakes but lived through that.

You’ve wasted money, you’ve wasted time. You didn’t do justice for your crimes.

You made your mother cry.
Don’t you know she’s your only ally?

But im proud of you for not leaving her. She raised you better.

You grew up with a selfish dad. Im not saying sorry, he’s that bad.

He always thought about himself first before you. You lived together but he didn’t get to know YOU.

Your parents always argued. You heard hurtful words, everyday it continued.

They were the ones fighting but their words kept your heart hurting.

You were weak, you were sad, you were hateful, you were bad.
But when he left you felt glad.

You hated socializing, you hid in your room, thinking..

When will I overcome this? Will I be able to live like this?

You skipped classes, you were afraid of your classmates.

You never really knew how to mesh, you try to act friendly ending up in a mess.

But somehow you graduated. All those years you wasted.

Then what do you do? Look for jobs that might get to feed you.

You were so dependent. You wanted to grow you needed to end it.

You went away, worked somewhere, built yourself from there.

You matured, you grew, im proud of you. It was late but you found yourself, you were You.

You were a useless parasite. Now you can soar high as a kite.

You believed in yourself im proud of you. You were stained, just like a tattoo..

But it was a battle scar. It shows you’ve gone so far.

Happy 28th! This is a time where the only thing missing is some kissing.
Im kidding...

You were happy and contented when you wrote this. Life was a mess but its starting to be bliss.

You need to read this after a decade. Reflect on the choices you then made.

I wish you happiness. I wish you health.
I want the best for you. Please live your life to the fullest.

See you in 10 years!
From your 28 year old introvert self.

Kinamumuhian kita.

Hindi dahil nagsisisi ako, dahil sa mga alaalang binuo mo.

Kasalanan ko din naman ako yung sumuko. Kinabukasang walang itutungo.

Ba’t ba napakaperpekto mo? Sa aking buhay tila ikaw ang bubuo.

Pero anong ginawa ko? Sinayang ko. Mga luhang sayang ang pagtulo.

Masaya ka naman ba? Meron na bang iba?

Ako, ito, naghahanap. Pero sa huli nag-iisa.
Mga oras na napupunta sa ‘di ko kilala.

Kinaiinisan kita. Mga sekreto **** di ko nasagot, naaalala sa oras na ako’y nababagot.

Bakit ba napakadami **** lihim? Mga bagay na iyong kinikimkim.

Nakakamangha kasi pinipilit kitang magtiwala. Pero sa tanong ko’y sagot mo’y “Wala”.

Mahal mo ko pero ba’t tiwala mo hindi buo? Mga sagot mo tila may lihim, hindi totoo.

Nakakabadtrip ka. Gustong gusto ko malaman nasa isip mo. Sana nagtiwala ka ng buo.

Ito na sana ang huling liham ko sayo. Lumigaya ka sana at matupad mga pangarap mo.

Mga planong napako ‘di na magbabago.
Mga buhay nating nagkasalubong pero magkaiba ang dulo.

Salamat, patawad. Ngayon malaya ka nang lumipad.

Tahanan.

Why do people criticize everything? All we have to do is nothing.

Even small things need to be perfect. How do these critics even detect?

Do they get validation from noticing all the holes? Or its that simple that they’re just a’holes?

Lets say they criticize to make things better. So things get smoother later.

Can’t they see that our leader tries his best? Its taking a toll on him, it manifests.

Can’t they just obey this simple instruction? Or they’re just too good that they want perfection?

Every word coming out of his mouth gets highlighted like its what the speech is all about.

Do you guys even hear or read the entirety of the news? Or just want to be highlighted for the views?

What happened to unity? All you leftist want mutiny!

On our most critical battle to date, all you people want is debate.

I wish we could just for once agree. Trust our leaders in our community.

All they ask is to stay at home, stay indoors and never roam.

It should be us against this plague. Not people fighting for the throne to take.