"In the wake of the late night when you think I'm doing something, often times I'm staring out of my window at the world, coming up with ways that I could possibly defeat immortality."
                                  ~ Vinnie Brown

There's an invisible line
Where the waves conspire
To come rushing back again
And perhaps we shall meet again someday
A long long time from now
A little older
And a little less selfish

I don’t really want this song to end
I’m sort of addicted to this endless waltz
That you and I have been locked in
It’s not everyday
You get to dance with the devil
Eloquently chained to one another
Flowing heavenly towards sin
I’m held hostage
By the desires you possess
With fire eyes
All the shades of past lovers
Found in one ball room
Up high, snuck past the gates of Heaven
Where we’ll dance
Till the world tears itself apart

I sorta liked the taste of my blood
When you bite my lips
She said it’d be fun to **** in the shower
It wasn’t that great burning alive
It seems one-hundred degree water
Doesn’t wash off the sins we have

Still looking for our innocence
Lost in the number of sins
As the hour meets the minute hand
We'll keep dancing in each others land

Noticed a couple hours passed
Watching as we sift through the hour glass
Started off nothing, but friends
A kiss on the neck is how it all ends

Refusing to give up our fight
The soft patter as it rained all through the night
Falling into each other's body well
We warm until we went to hell

The puzzles finally been pieced
It's like our bodies are seeming to cease

Fire to Ice
Heaven to Hell
Summer to Winter
Hope to Despair
Needs to Wants
Chaos to Clarity To Chaos
From left to right sounds like breaking a heart
From right to left sounds like you’re learning to love
How curious that must be.

The world’s not so subjective
It’s just so critical
And we’re falling a part at the seams
When yesterday’s sins
Are tomorrow’s dreams
Running in never-ending circles
Pushed along with unbalanced chemicals
Skin stained with glorified imperfections
When the secrets tiptoe around your name
While the rain clouds are catching up
On our run for sunshine
Oh, what it means to be human

And lately I've felt like I'm on fire
You just sit back and smile
My brains screaming that you're running the show
I'm feeling fine almost everyday
Except for all the time
Don't have enough energy to even go outside
I've dropped my insecurities
I've left my dignity on the floor
But, you'll pick it up again for me
Allow my humility's to catch up to me once more

Rainy mornings waking up with you
We have no plans, we have nothing to do
White holy angel with a devil grin
Asking when I want to start the sins
Telling me all the ways that you like it
Biting lips in silence, fighting to deny it
Out of all the chokers that you own
I’m just trying to be your favorite
Cause’ you’re the sunshine
And
I’m the hurricane
Tangled up in these sheets

Pretty sure I was doomed from the start
Everything in the world seems to fall apart
So, quickly...sort of love having a broken heart
Even all these drugs can’t fix me
Unless it’s mixed with whiskey
I’m not even sad, sort of just bored
Nothing can excite me anymore
The coast has lost all of its allure
New York use to be so pretty
Now it’s just a city
And all of these people
And all of their friends
Look so good together
And I don’t fit in
Cause’ they’re picture perfect
And I’m on the end
Cut me out the photo
So, they can pretend

Like I don’t exist.

Been praying to a God I have trouble believing in
God,
        Watch over her in these times
Shine a light wherever she seems to go
Hug her in an embrace and show her she's never alone. Lighten her eyes on days the sun refuses to shine, and on her darkest days let her glow. She thinks she's an absolute mess sometimes, but she's a mess I want to call home. I'm asking you to help her along a path I can't take, and I'm begging you keep her safe. She's going to stumble and maybe even fall, please be the help she needs to stand tall, it can't be me, and so I need you now.

The news came out, and the world is ending
Tonight is our last night and it's just beginning
Our hands entwined and spinning
The beautiful music just keeps on playing

Just tell me where we need to start
Let me put my hands on your heart
And even if tomorrow doesn't come, we won't be far apart
As for us, only minutes to depart

So, stay right where we are
We've only ever come this far.

To not know who I am, but still know that I'm still good for somebody
Just want a love that I can say I found impossibly
Cause you know I have my many convictions and they're stronger than any addiction
I'm really hoping this won't keep me awake
Cause, I honestly feel like a sunset just about to fade
The greatest violence that I've seen is our recent silence
Reading my mind just as if we were naked
Painted in one another such beautiful art permanently imprinted forever on my heart
Always trying to find my way back to the start
Because it seems to be every time I try and fall in love it falls apart

Looped into these last days of eternity
With all the heavenly unseen
Billowed and plowed in dark crave
Lost in a sea of diluted voice
Becoming and unbecoming just that

Eternity

Where small memory and blank pages
Define the parameters where nothingness
Disappears into the palm trees
And the first symptom to surface is desire
Denounced to the many hands
Following the map of keys
Tethered to the piano
As sun soaked faces trace contrails
With speckled eyes
We find ourselves in grievanced turmoil
Amongst such lush life

-Don’t do this
-You just have to make it to daylight
  -And we have a chance kiddo

A couple dabs of honey
Pinch of salt
A little bit of vinegar
Just a touch of blood
Maybe a smidge of sugar
Teaspoon of red wine
Don’t forget a moan or two
A hint of selfishness
Make sure the sear is just right
Yeah, sounds a lot like what love would be
At least to me
Anyways

I have tattoos without ink
White and filled with scar tissue
Just as beautiful as can be

I hope that you’re the inspiration
To these words that caress my thoughts
Lost to an endless sea
Of what I wish I could say

I want to run with you
Through backyards
Filled with tripwires and clothes lines
Into war zones of innocent love
Where the night sky is alight
Fire stricken with dying stars heartbeats
Where your eyes scream my name
Visible by lightning bug flames
Where hand grenades
Are scribbled letters
Of future desires
Where were battling the summer’s thirst

I don't really know where I belong
And you are the light burning in my heart
And I am the storm bringing the shadows
Dancing in the memories

I am the cold, catching all of your breath
And you're the rain, battering my windows
We all have deals made with the devils inside
Saints and sinners we are, clothed in beautiful cages

There's a fire, raging outside
I can't seem to find my way through these busy sunset lights
There's a love burning inside my heart
A nightmare stuck and it's attempting to tear me apart
These troubles in my eyes, and the worries in my room
The nights fallin all around
I'll be waiting without a sound
I have trouble making smart decisions, caught up waiting in the rain, the unsuspected part is to see you waiting there with me

My throat's burning
I can't see straight
I hope I can breathe again
I can't seem to sleep


Can you hear my voice through the storm?

And she said some pain feels good
I suppose that’s why I wake up
For some days the pain is inviting

Why do I write? It's not that I want people to think I am smart, or even that I am a good writer. I write because I want to end my loneliness. - Jonathan Safran Foer.

Drop of *** on my tongue
I'll be a better man today
I'll be good
I'm trying to love the world like I should

I'm trying to run from my pride
You set fire to my atmosphere
Chasing that sundown so far east I'm west bound
Feeling like the edge of the world is near

Sunset high and our bodies low
Blood rush in your hazy glow
Heart clapped we skipped a beat
Don't stop the music

Just take a lovely walk with me
Give me just a moment, let our bodies be
See if you can get lost in we
Find a place and lose it, you can do it

Take this new start of us, make a spark
Who you were from the start
Find the light in me
Break the dark

Won't you just dance with me?

-Even surrounded by friends
-Traveling for adventure
  -You’re still constantly on my mind

It has been a while
Since I saw insanity
It's been a while where I couldn't sleep
That I was chased by nightmares
A wise man once told me that you are as insane as you believe you are
That there are natural born disasters and things in this world that will **** your dreams
Horrors no one should face
I learned that those horrors are us
Us as people we are destroyers of life but also its givers
Horrors as simple as our minds
She told me the other day "I love you."
Her soft whispers caressing the folds of my desires tell me I am not insane
And so it has been a while since I have felt like this
It has been a while truly that I feel I am not insane
Its been what feels like a life time to hear "I love you."
It'll be a while till I can say I am a giver as I have yet to learn not to destroy
But she yeah she...well she's a wondeful teacher.

There was a couple times where I needed you the most
Getting lost in cruising down that gorgeous east coast
The problem is, I'm just so in love with pretty things
I've cared for a girl once or twice, probably a few too many times

I asked myself a thousand times for just one reason
Tell me who he is, I'm wondering if I can be him
The man in the mirror is just lying wide awake while I'm still sleeping
Both of them can't hide their faces they're just liars
Someday's I just can't feel forgiven

If this is what it means to be in love
I've never felt the ground feel quite this rough
Let's not revel in the not good times
Cause' I don't know love
I'd like to think it involves you though

-The year is 2050 and we're on route to the year 2017.
-Time travel has been invented for around 12 years.
-Captain Elsen Decker of the USS Apathy is our commanding officer.
He's a man of 57 and decently handsome, a scar through his right eyebrow and a smirk you'll never forget, his most notable feature although is his stark hazel eyes. Always gleaming and curious through any event we encounter, he's a hard man and almost seems heartless at times, as if some great divide has clouded his heart, seeing  him at times you could even say there's regret.

-I'm not sure our mission objective, although considering we are using time travel I assume it's of some importance. Capt. Decker was chosen specifically for this objective as he is considered to be one of the only people who can change the outcome of the scenarios that unfolded that day.

-We have arrived in the year 2017.

-Capt. Decker stands alone with a young man of the age of 24, he doesn't release any information to us of the man.

-He pulled a stool up to the man alone at the bar and proceeds to whisper softly into the mans ear, gently squeezes his shoulder and leaves.

-We have arrived back in the year 2050, and after our initial screening to see if we have altered the present time, it seems we're in the clear, except Capt. Decker his eyes are gleaming more than before and as we go to depart from such a short non-invasive mission I'm struck with curiosity.

-The year is 2051, a year has gone by and I'm still not sure our objective of that mission, and it haunts me. So, I've found Captain Decker and pleaded with him to tell me everything.

-Captain Decker at the age of 24 could be found in a bar alone, confused and heartbroken. The woman he thought he loved was no longer his to love he recalls, and anger and chaos had consumed his every being. Until one day a man approached whispered sweet nothings into his ears and said "Fear not, for there are a many great loves in life, and she will forever remain one of them, but have faith in love for it is real, and it has taken me till now to believe it."