One in a Hundred


What if I am just a psychopath with a god delusion?
(Do psychopaths have a conscience?)
Because I need a secret
I can’t live without a secret
Something has to be MINE
But I can’t even be MINE
Because I am YOURS
And I just want to be me,
But I am you
And I can’t be YOU
Because you are so BIG but
That is ok because I’ll never be like you
Because I am not you
Because I am me
(Is that even supposed to be comforting?)

You are my fortress wall
With room enough to sleep
Strong and solid
You are my fortress wall and I will scale your height
You help me reach the top and from there
I can see the world
You are my fortress wall and on your shoulders I can swim in the clouds
You are my fortress wall and you keep my garden safe
I know every stone and from where I stand there are no
Weak spots


Sun Kiss
Because you make me feel like I’m living on a beach
The same kind of happy as sundresses and
Bathing suits
The sun
As yellow because Yellow is my happy
You are my favorite color
My Yellow

Of white and yellow

You make me think of white
Of being fresh and clean
I’m still so ******* high on you
Of white because you make me think
And see and plan. White because
You’re so **** fancy

They aren’t listening
You could find it if you looked, but
Just because someone hasn’t proven it doesn’t mean that it is not there
Hey, even the animals have same gender ***.
why shouldn’t the humans?
because I only think of santa clause one time a year
And how my parents lied to me
So what if I like when my celebrities run for office
It means someone with money cares
Someone young
Someone who probably knows what it is like to hit rock bottom somewhere outside in an unfamiliar place with the stench of the night lingering into that sudden clarity that makes you scream at the top of your lungs
WHAT THE **** AM i DOING WITH my LIFE?!!!!?
And why am I still awake?
Define Improvement
So what if our stomachs were made to eat plants
We eat meat now.
Can you imagine if we started shooting our dead into the sky?
I could say Granpa was in the stars
That everyone went to heaven when they died
And about the Arc
Maybe they didn’t have to. Maybe they
Were where they needed to be all along

My thoughts are
TOO BIG!!
for your mini post-it's

How do I live
Let me count the ways
happy
lost
lonely, ecstatic
fully, intentionally, drifting, wandering
am I wasting away
this gift
that was ****** upon me at birth?
Oh, to remember
the conversation God and I had before
before I was made flesh and birthed
that ending conversation
Did I even know what I was saying?
Lord, remember me
and change me so I can return
I pray.
I prayIprayIprayIpray
So be it.

Is she special
before you kiss her, or
does she become special
because
you kiss her?

They
are speaking God's language
and they don't even
KNOW it