Susulat pa ba ako?
Naubos na ang laman ng puso
Nailahad na ang bawat laman nito
Ang sakit, ang kaba, maging ang saya ay naging pinta ng tinta

May hahahanapin pa nga ba?
Tila yata ang inspirasyon ko ay gasgas na.
Wala ng maidulot na saya
Ang pagbaybay ng ngalan mo'y pinagsawaan na

Pasensya na
Ngunit tila naubos na
ang lahat ng nadarama ay nabuhos na
sa pamamagitan ng tula

ang may akda ay naghahanap ng inspirasyon
saan pa nga ba lilingon
nakakapagod din pala
yung ikaw lagi ang inuuna

It has to be better than this
The lemonades are turning to dust
Silverlinings have all rained down
Life's got to be bigger than this
The flower that once was
Now a thorn sharper than dead dreams
Stabbing all hope
This dark vacuum is ******* me in
I'm holding on to the last beam of light
But my grip is slipping and I'm scared
Aren't things supposed to work out?
Well begun is now all undone
(Los Angeles, Aug 22 2017)

in this poem I remember how it happened
how the sky broke over our backs and
how we kissed the rain instead of each other

we live in this story
because I know of no other place to put us
except fiction

we belong here

in this poem all the pieces come back together the way they got undone
in this poem you and I become whole again

I'm keeping this promise to you
even if you forgot about it
and I know you did

and I know you also forgot my birthday
or my number
whichever hurts less when I have to explain that you didn't call on my 18th

in this poem I finally understand
you cannot fill a body riddled with holes
you cannot love a heart that beats for another

in this poem I lie about the way we touched each other
in this poem I tell myself it went deeper than skin

I did not know how to fix you
and in this poem I apologize for it

in this poem I pretend you loved me back
but only in this poem

It's been a while since my last sight of you
You were doing good before I flew
Not literally, internally rather
I thought things will finally get better

Yes, I did became better
Healthier, stronger
I felt there's nothing I can't conquer
Just then I started to wonder

How have you been?
Have you become the same thing?
Did you went for your dream?
Or did you just stay the same?

Weeks pass by since that thought of you came to my mind
A beep from my phone froze my smile
I'm not sure what it says
But it's your name that displayed

A story that we already ended
Is once again renewed
Another chapter of another book
Same characters but changed outlook

Not so sure if this will bring up the past
Or things will come fast
This chapter started just as before
If the ending is the same, I don't want to go on

I love you, you love me
Is love enough, for you and for me?
Or is it too much to once again damage our feelings?
I'm not sure if it's right, but I already set you free

Without the expectation of you coming back