I feel my bones shaking,
My heart sinking.
I feel my entire being collapse.
No longer able to support itself.
Feeling as if the whole world is upon it's shoulders.
There's a pit where my heart use to be,
Now a bottomless void lives there.
What is my purpose,
What is my meaning?
Why am I here,
Why am I alive?
I ask myself this every morning as my eyes flutter open.
I ask myself,
What's the point?

I wish I savored those moments
where my lips danced upon your skin,
tracing your ever so delicate body,
creating a map I'd follow forever.
I wish I savored those moments
where I could gaze into your mossy eyes,
falling deeper in a trance,
engulfed by the love you give so effortlessly,
knowing that you are the one who holds my heart.
I wish I savored those moments
where your hands caressed my entity,
bringing me reassurance of the good in this world,
giving me the hope I needed to not only survive, but to live.
I wish I savored those moments
where we laid there intertwined,
our body's connected in more ways than one,
feeding off each others energy,
always craving more.
I wish I savored those moments
where "i love you," fell from your lips,
to the "kiss me," that followed,
to the "beg for it," that you enforced,
and to the "in perpetuum," that we said so lovingly in unison.

from now on i know, that any moment with you, is worth savoring.

My tears christen these sheets as my eyes stain these sleeves. The heart that was once part of me, lies on the frigid floor, beating it's last beat, desperately holding on. Your absence is felt throughout my body, my skin crawls and burns, my muscles ache. All life is being drained from my being, this temple is crashing. The one goddess I worshipped, taken away. The tremors, the pains, the pulsations, everything was happening, everything was ending. Everlasting euphoria that you so graciously gave me, slipping from my mind, being drowned out by this suffocating sadness. I grow weak in the knees, hearing them shatter as they hit the floor. My eyes wide, begging for help, begging for love. I can't go on without you. I glance at my heart, with my last breath I wish myself a goodnight as my heart suddenly stops.

Worship me with your tongue.
Allow every syllable to be pronounced by your luscious lips upon my body, my entity.
Let me feel the love coursing through your veins, as your delicate fingers transfer it inside me.
Make me scream.
Make me moan.
Make me burst into moments of pure climatic bliss.
Play with me.
Make me beg.
Make me crave more.
Pin me.
Choke me.
Please me.
Make me yours.
Treat me like you own me, as I am forever yours.
Your touch is tantalizing, it's truly hypnotizing.
Put me into your trance, let me fall for it.
Fall in love with me, as I've fell in love with you.
Kiss me,
And never let go.

This violent hatred seizing through my body,
completely engulfing my structure.
Devastating destruction ahead,
a reoccurring horror.
Falling fast,
Falling hard.
Monumental moments pass,
feelings of apathy control me.
Torment fills my head,
heart heavy with sorrow.
Tainted entity,
dishonest thoughts.
Pain courses through my veins,
fueling me with agony.
Abstaining from recovery,
for I deserve this discomfort.
The inevitable night grows closer,
the choice still stands.
What will I choose?