i bet you’re on the pills again
cuz you’re still missing me
and your girlfriend she ended it
so how are you supposed to sleep

yeah i bet you’re on the pills again
your pain cuts so deep
tequila can’t fill the cuts
they’re everywhere you leave

i hope your daddy’s done hating you
i don’t know cuz he knows and won’t save you
explains how f-ed up you came to be
explains the ways you treated me

you’ve been sick and i fell for it
i’ve loved the sick since i could breath
thinking maybe i could save you
how hilarious of me
and i’m sick for kind of loving it
the way that you needed me
cuz the sick can be contagious
and you were contagious to me
i bet you’re on the pills again

Why do I fall for so many people,
But no one falls for me?
Is it just me not being able to express it,
Or when you see me you want to take the express way?
Is it me talking a lot,
Or you talking to others about me?
And not positively.
I may get portrayed as the crazy one,
But all I want to get portrayed as is someone's love.
Why am I so different? Am I undeserving?
Its not specifics anymore.
Is it just me completely?
Because you all have just completely ignored me.

that pretty girl
i kinda hate her
she took you from me
just like joleen

i tried to be her
but it didn’t work
so u left me
see what it did to me?

I trusted you
I trusted you

Still see the brand of your jeans
Your hands were cold as ice
And it still keeps me up at night

I wish I had the words to say
But I'm still working through the pain
It's killing me day after day
But I won't take it to my grave

I'm telling you
I'll tell 'em all, I'll tell the truth
Oh, just the thought of you
Controlling all I do
If I bury anything, I'll bury you

I wish I had the words to say
But I'm still working through the pain
It's killing me day after day
But I won't take it to my grave

Did you, did you
Think I'd keep our little secret?
I don't have any good reason
To not come clean from your demons
I'm damaged, I'm bleeding
Did you think I would stay quiet?
That I'd forgive and not fight it?
But the resentment is hiding
And you can't scare me to silence

I wish I had the words to say
But I'm still working through the pain
It's killing me day after day
But I won't take it to my grave

Still see the brand of your jeans
Your hands were cold as ice
And it still keeps me up at night

Those beautiful eyes,
That once contained happiness,
Are now raging with anger,
Clearly displaying that the flame within you is now untamed,
Taking over as if it's your master and you are its puppet.
The cuts on your arm,
Match the ones on your heart,
Leaving scars of remembrance.
The shadows you now live in,
Consume the new you,
Gradually crushing the source of life........the pulse of what used to be.

feeling fine
freely smiling
music in my ears
i’m jamming out
that one song comes on
i know it in three notes
i thought i deleted it
it stops me in my tracks
because now im reliving it