as the bullet pierces through
the love for you spills out too
thoughts unsaid
prays unheard
what drips from my writ once was love.

I want to live my best life;
Getting back up, after I fall.
Forgiving myself, after I fail.
Laughing, when I make mistakes.
Being patient, when things take time to re-learn.
Because I have time;
To fall, fail, learn and get back up again.
I have time to live my best life,
Every day.

Relax, says a voice,

and menacingly: one two --


she starts to count down.

Don’t cry for me
enough tears have been shed
an ocean filled
with the salt of regret
the pains of my past
can’t ruin you too
the tide is coming
just not for you…
Don’t carry my pain
you have your own
no one needs
the weight of two worlds
you’re still standing
I’m learning to carry
my burdens and traumas
enough for a century…
Don’t focus on me
that’s my job alone
I’m painting my mural
yours already on the wall
you need your energy
I’m finding my power…
Don’t let my pain
let you devour.

I will let
the little lies lie
if you will too
just can’t take
any big ones
don’t surprise me
it will end
me and you.