I saw death before. It isn’t still. It’s intense.

So yesterday when my stomach built itself into a sinking ship,

And my fingers were colonized by earthquakes,

I realized what you meant by “love hurts”.

My strong sea, my sweet spring,

I now know the ashy taste of your kisses, The salty reek of your definitions,

You read love poems just to read their ends.

Smiling for the screen,
my disguise held tight.
Hiding cracks
beneath the light.
Inside, I break,
worn and bare.
A fragile truth
too hard to share.
Drowned in the tide
of distant stares,
A sea of strangers,
unaware.
The real me crumbles
beneath the weight,
A soul adrift,
Resigned to fate.

It’s moving on
But not really
I’m looking back
If you called
I’d be there in a flash
Gotta sorta give up
Little by little
Will it ever be gone?
I’ll probably always answer your song
But you’ve  known that all along
Just another groupie
Battle scarred hoopdee
Halfway gone to loopy
Tryna sparkle in the crowd
Teeny light held up to blazing sun
Glowing maybe differently
But the sun cannot notice me
Either by design, or willingly
It is a possibility
To sparkle invisibly
And apparently
The kind of magic to get noticed
By you  
Is not in my ability

if i were to die on each evening tick
i'd save the air i would expend
to fill your room with bubbles; ideas
naked under liminal clothes

with you, i live between each heavy second
between each slow degree we turn
we could hold our weight with just a gaze
the weight of withheld gasps for words

I once was a fierce warrior
I would have given my life for yours
I remember fighting back-to-back, side-by-side
I would have given my soul for yours
I no longer have anything to fight for
I am free

   --- Magi

as a kid
i built my wall with lego's
then later on
i finished it with stones

I wanted to explore your mind
When all you wanted was to explore my body.  
Was it even real?