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Aug 2023 · 41
Me. (3-28-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
My mind is occupied lately
Of ******* that **** me up,
My inner demons are controlling me
They can’t shut up;

All the words you said
Keeps on running through my head
All the things we did
Cannot seem to leave my head

All the places we’ve plan of going to
Now I go visit them all alone
All my friends I talk to
Keeps on asking why you’re gone

Now I realize what you did to me
I know I’m no longer that fool
That will be easily fooled
Because baby, you cannot fool me

I am not a puppet on your strings
For you to manipulate me,
I am not a magnet
For me to stick around.

I have a pair of wings
But you cut it and stole from me,
I chose to live in regret
Now I came back without a sound,

The blood in my veins
It stains, remains and I’m in pain
It came from the blood of a sinner
He was once my lover,

Our relationship should be a two-way street
Cause we should take what we both give
And give back what we took
Oh, it is a two-way street.

Life’s not always well like this
Don’t just live in a world like this,
Don’t just give and give
You also have to take and take.

You don’t have to live in a cruel life
It gives you bitter strife,
Just don’t give and give
You also have to take and take;

He told me I was his everything
I was his happiness,
I treated him like a king
But I was only his temporary happiness.

I am trying to pick up the fragments of myself
That’s been shattered also by myself
And bringing back the pieces together
Now I don’t believe in forever

If what we had is already over
I just had the chance to remember
Oh, I’m already back to my old self
I built you up, you tore me down

I don’t want to give up, I ain’t going down

You can’t fix me
cause only I can fix myself
You can’t complete me
Only I will be responsible for myself

You no longer love me
Only I can love myself
If you can’t choose me
I will choose myself

If you can’t make me your priority
Only I can prioritize myself

I don’t need you
I don’t want you
I only need myself with me
I only want peace within me
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
What you’re doing to me
Will always be the opposite of what you are saying
You bet your heart to me
But you’re not even sure yet

Oh, don’t make me forget
Yes, baby never make me regret

How you mean so much to me
Will be useless the moment I’m leaving
You told me I was your happiness
But why have I felt loneliness?

You’re giving me the benefit of the doubt
Cause you made me feel doubt
If you’re busy to chat me
I will understand

If you don’t have the time to check on me
I will understand

But when you see me with someone else
I hope you understand
I have already loved you less
I hope you understand

I don’t have the time for people who have no time for me
Just because I’m strong enough to handle pain
Doesn’t mean I deserve it
A fracture of my heart always remains

I hope everyone sees
That I am worth it

And now I’ll do what’s best for me
With or without your presence is enough for me
I’m no longer your priority
Cause you no longer own me

With or without your presence
Will make me happier and better
With or without your presence
I don’t need you anymore
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
It’s hard to let go
When you’re at a crossroad dilemma
It’s hard to decide
You would ever go or never go

When you’re at a crossroad dilemma
I just wanna let you know

There’s no battle to compete
Nor a topic to be argued
Your presence can only be felt once in a blue moon
Oh, there is more to be told soon

No need to compensate
If it is what you have viewed

I don’t know which way to go
Or where I have been to
I don’t know why I am here
Sometimes I just wish I would disappear

Nobody loves me anyway
So, I’ll just go my own way
Where nobody sees or recognizes me
Cause no one is meant for me

Lost and jaded in the middle of the road
Got so depressed like my mind was gonna explode
I may be quiet but my mind argues a lot
So, what’s the plot?

You told me you love me
How come you left me unattended
You said you missed me
But you took me for granted.
Aug 2023 · 18
Sorry (3-20-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You’ve been so unavailable lately
Why’d you just took me for granted
You just said it yourself
That I am all that you wanted

You can’t catch my drift lately
So, am I making a fool out of myself?
Am I too much to be handled?
Is what I’m making you do

Hard for you to do?
So, am I just going to love with abandon?
The words I can’t say to you
Are the words you would hear in my song

Baby, I wrote this song for you
But still my feelings for you were this strong

Sorry if I overthink a lot
If I have been so emotional
If I mess up a lot
If I’m too sentimental

I just want you to know
I will never let go
I promise to hold on
Cause I don’t to go back to one

I’m sorry if I expect a lot of things from you
If I felt too jealous or disappointed
If I felt like I have trust issues
I just don’t want to feel like I’m avoided

I just need your time and attention
Ooh, I just need your love and affection

Maybe I just need a little bit of space
And keep myself busy all the time
Whatever it takes
I just don’t want to waste my time

I tried being so considerate and understanding
I want to give up already
Cause I’m super tired already
It felt like I’m the only one fighting

We’re going round in circles again and again
The pain always remains
But I don’t want to let you go
Cause I just want to stay with you
Aug 2023 · 26
Breakthrough (8-25-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Silver and Gold, that's what you are to me
Black and white, seems like hell inside of me
Red and Blue, peace and war are built in my mind
Oh, I guess I was rare enough to find

You need a target for you to pull the trigger
One bullet is all it takes
Whatever it takes
It makes me shiver

Make it rain
Let it rain bullets now
My life is miserable somehow
I am in so much pain

I am who I am (Fearless)
If I think I am (dauntless)
Then therefore I am (Oblivious)
And I am what I am (Dangerous)

It runs in my flesh, in my blood
Might wanna have a flash flood
My feelings, they are already dried
Like my eyes, they are already tired

I smile like a terror
I scare filled with horror
I grin like Nanno
I just have to let you know

Might wanna see me in the best angle
But you said you wanna see me in every angle
Everyone looks at me
And meets me in the eye

Oh, I cry, I cry, I cry
The way you pity me
The way you work hard to try
To insult me
Aug 2023 · 82
Babalik-balikan (6-29-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Hihiwalayan, babalikan
Bibitawan, Hahabulin
Hihilingin ka ulit na mapasa’kin
Hihintayin ka ulit na babalik sa akin

Hihintayin, Papatawarin
Tatanggapin, Mamahalin sa uulitin
Wag kang mag-alala
Huwag kang mangamba

Ikaw ay tatanggapin pa rin
Ang aking paulit-ulit na hihilingin
Kahit na isang saglit
Kahit na masakit

Dahil ikaw pa rin ay aking mahal
Kahit gaano man ka-tagal
Hihintayin kitang bumalik
Sa iyo pa rin ako ay nananabik

Ikaw pa rin ang babalik-balikan
Oh, ang aking babalik-balikan

Naghihintay sa wala
Umaasa pa rin sa wala
Di alam kung may pag-asa pa
Kung kailan mo ako babalikan

Ako ang naghabol kahit hindi naman ako Ang nang-iwan
Basta’t alam ko
Na hindi ako ang lugi sa dulo

At least hindi ako naging sakit sa ulo
Binigay ko man lahat
Kulang man o sapat
Sa aking piling naman ay
Nakita kitang sumaya

Bakit kinailangan pa na maghiwalay ?
Sana nga ay bumalik ka na

Naging masaya naman ako nang wala ka na
Nabuo ko naman sarili ko
Ng wala ang tulong mo
Pagkat mayroong puwang dito sa puso ko

Na ikaw lamang ang makaka-puna
Dahil ikaw lang langga ay sapat na

Nagbago man ang lahat sa akin
Ngunit ang nararamdaman ko sa’yo
Ay mananatili at hindi magbabago kailanman
Hindi ko na kailangang sabihin:

Na babalikan mo ako o huwag na
Basta’t hindi kita susukuan
Aug 2023 · 21
First and Last (7-14-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Our story was written somehow in the stars
Our plans can be viewed from afar
I have asked you to God
And He gave you to me

I guess we were written in the stars
Because you are meant for me

You are my prince
And I am your princess
I ain’t a damsel in distress
And that makes you my prince

You are my everything
That is why you are my king
For you are my beginning middle and end
I hope this feeling never end

For you are my love today, here and now
For you are the love of my life somehow
You are my past, present and future love
For you are my first and last love

I will never keep you like a secret
You deserved to be exposed
How much I have loved you so
How much I am proud of you

Oh, these memories are too precious to be forgotten
You would not be forsaken
Oh, let us not forget
I suppose.
Aug 2023 · 29
Thank God (12-27-20)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You are my favorite feeling
That feeling I'm longing to find
You're that feeling I'm missing
That feeling I'll never leave behind

I have come a long way just to find you
I have gone too far cause you're always on my mind
I hope you'll meet me halfway
And I'll wait for you along the way

I'll never want to forsake you
Cause you're impossible to find

If fate and time will only be by our side
My love for you will never be denied
If you'd only let me love you
Baby, I won't let go of you

You are all the thoughts in my head
And all the love in my heart
Baby, I'm yours for eternity
And you're mine for infinity

Ooh, you're always in my head
And you have forever owned my heart

Thank God, I have already found you
Thank God, you’re already mine to keep
Oh, you’re that man I’d always wanted to keep
Cause you are my answered prayer

Thank God, I already found you
And finally, I already have you
I already had someone to call my own
And I will never be forever alone

Come with me where dreams are born
And time is never planned
Come with me where our love is born
And our future is long planned

Take my hand
Yes, I'll take you to Wonderland
Take my hand
Since you're here with me in Neverland

Baby, you may not know it yet
But I have already loved you
Ooh, I already did the first time we met
Yeah, I do love you, love you, oh

We can make it through the test of time
You and me against all odds
As long as you’re here with me
Our future is secured and long planned

For more moments and years to come
You are the one I want to share my life with
For more ups and downs to come
You’re the one I want to build my home with

You will always be my favorite feeling
That feeling I'm always missing
Aug 2023 · 26
Favorite Love (2-14-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I know I have said it before
I know I’ve said it today
I won’t ask for more
I just want to say

My love, I love you
My love, I love you
Mi amor, Je’t aime
Mi amor, Je’t aime

I know I’ve said it over a thousand times
But I think about you all the time
I just want to let you know
That I love you, I love you

I had a lot of reasons to go
But I chose to stay
I had a lot of reasons to leave
But I remained by your side

There is no need to leave
Cause you made my day
I swore to be always by your side
There is no need for me to go

I’m yours and you’re mine
From today and until the end of time
You’re my hubby and I am your wifey
From today and until the end of time

Time has brought you closer to me
The moment I first saw you
I knew you were the right one for me
And I promise to love you

Till death we part
Till death we part

You run around like crazy in my mind
And I smile like crazy all the time
But do you know you’re impossible to find
But I find you all the time

You’re the reason why I could be this happy
Cause you always make me happy
I may have said it over a thousand times
You’re still the one I’d love to love all the time

Cause you will always be my favorite love
And you will always be my only love
Your love will always be my favorite love
And your love will only be my only love
Aug 2023 · 18
Selfless (2-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
If you love me
Just know that I love you more
If you miss me
Just know that I miss you more

If you badly needed me
Just know that I need you most
If you desperately wanted me
Just know that I want you most

You were my first at everything
From first dates to travel goals
You were more than just a fling
But without you, I am just a half of a whole

You were my better half
Yes, you always make me laugh
You’re the reason why I chose you
And you are the reason why I stayed with you

That is why I wrote this poem for you
To tell the whole world that I am yours
And that I was proud to be yours
That is why I love you

You are my best friend
And my lifetime lover
You will always be my forever
I hope this relationship never ends

I’d love to wake up with you in the sunrise
And watch as the sun starts to set
With you, holding my hand
There is nothing more I could ever ask

When I am with you, time flies
This moment is all I never wanted to forget
And right here we stand
I was born ready for whatever you will ask

Five years from now and I’m still yours
Ten years from now and I am still yours
Fifteen years from now and I am still yours
Until we’re old, I will always be forever yours

Three years ago, back to the moment I first saw you
At the back of my mind
I hope I will meet you
And after that, you never left my mind
Aug 2023 · 29
You (2-10-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You gave me limited time
They gave me unlimited time
You gave me love
They gave me lust

You gave me affection
They gave me attention
You showed me love
They broke my trust

But none of those matters
Because you matter most to me

Cause you are my cure
You are my pain
You’re the only reason why I remain
Because your love is so pure

You are my happiness
And my sadness

You are the love of my life
In every feeling of bitter strife
That is what you are to me
For you are everything to me

You are my hope when I had none
You are my strength because you are the one
Now, who strengthens me, who consoles me
Now, who loves me and supports me

And that is you
There’s no one like you

Let God be our foundation
And let’s be each other’s motivation
In my black and white world
You are my color

And days have passed as I have loved you
It has grown so much stronger
You are my world
I hope you feel the same way too

Let’s be lost in our own world
With your hand I’d always hold
And in your arms is where I belong
Even if this is all wrong
Aug 2023 · 30
Guilty Pleasure
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Kiss me baby, hold me, hug me
I’m all yours to keep
From nine up to five, no sleep
Come love me, love me

You were both good and bad for my health
And your love is my wealth

I long for your touch
I miss you so much
I crave for your taste
Come and be with me

Come and be with me
Never hesitate
Come, my new guilty pleasure
My guilty pleasure

I just want to be your favorite hello
And your hardest goodbye
Out of curiosity baby, I want to try
I want to know how you taste

I don’t want to see you go
And leave this bed
Just stay here with me, stay with me
And never hesitate

You are my sugar rush
My ******* blisses
My legal and illegal high
I just want to fly

My perfect kisses
You’re my ecstasy
Just please me
But honey, there’s no need to rush

You know I have a sweet tooth
And you are like a forbidden fruit
Provide me all the ways
I can take you away

I don’t know what it is that makes me want you badly
Even the way you stare drives me crazy
Cause every inch of your skin
Traces me back to where we want to begin

Let me worship you
A holy grail that’s hard to find
Let me be your daily grind
Let me take care of you

I just want you here with me
Please stay with me
You have loved me unconditionally
And I have loved you faithfully
Please be with me till the end
Until the end
Aug 2023 · 32
With you (2-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Come with me and close the door
Let's celebrate and live our life
I just want to have a private life
With you, I'll never ask for more

Let’s just keep it low-key
Though these setups never made easy
My whole world revolves again
My whole life started again

What I had with you, with you
I don't want to share it with everyone, pray tell
It’s a secret I’ll never tell
Oh, I just want and need you

What I had with you, with you
I just want to keep it to myself
Let’s keep them guessing
Baby, this feeling ain’t fleeting

No more, no less
I want you all to myself
I don't share you with everyone else
No more, no less

I'm bedbound with you
I ain't going to leave you
I'm never going to leave this bed
Just like the way you never leave my head

We'll make love as if it's always our honeymoon
What I had with you was over the moon
I'll never get tired of loving you
And discovering you

What I had with you is timeless
Whenever I think of You
I smile all the time
You are all I want and need all the time

No more, no less
My love, I love you

Let me take you away
Somewhere far away
Where no one sees us
In a place, where it's just us

Come and hold me closer to you
I just want you all over me
Whisper in all your intentions to me
I promise to never let you go
Aug 2023 · 40
Angel of mine (2-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I was meant to be yours before we met
It's your face I don't want to forget
I have felt your presence everywhere
As I have looked for you in everything

It's your voice I long to hear
There's nothing left to fear
And you never left me cause you're always there
And this is such an unexpected meeting

The butterflies I have felt inside my stomach
Oh, I have loved you from the moon to the stars and back
From the time I wake up, it's you I always think of
Up to the time I go to sleep, you're the last person I'm praying for

It's you I always dream of
To be with forevermore
No matter what I do
No matter where I go

There's a smile drawn on my face
There's a constant happiness painted in my gaze

You are and will always be my angel
You are and will always be my only love
You are and will always be my priority
You are and will always be my only choice

How you loved to see me in the best angle
I can see it in your eyes, love
That I am more than a fantasy
That explains why I became your first choice

Angel of mine, Angel of mine
I love you; I miss you
Angel of mine, Angel of mine

Distance is just a matter of challenge we face
But always remember that my heart only belongs to you
From the time I met you up to the time that you're already mine
Cause I knew this feeling is real the second I saw you

And everything fell in its place
The way our souls intertwine
I can't promise to solve all your problems
But you won't have to face them all alone

Even if your life has hit rock bottom
You'll never be alone

I can't wait to wake up next to you every day
Be with you every single day
Please don't forget how much I love you so
I just had to let you know

Even if I never let it show
I hate to see you go
I was meant to be yours even before we met
And you were an angel of mine I’ll never forget
Aug 2023 · 55
PALANGGA (2-12-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Look at me, stare into my eyes and never look away
Hold my hand and hug me close
Then hear what I have to say
Love, it’s you I couldn’t bear to lose

I've been waiting for a long time
To be somebody's prayer
I have looked everywhere for a long time
But here you are now and you have answered my prayer

I can't find the right words to say:
How grateful I am of having you
You are God’s blessing and a living gift to me
To have someone like you

Through our ups and downs, you have loved me
And I am glad that you chose to stay

Some people search their whole lives to find what I found in you
And nothing's ever going to change the way I feel for you
Cause you gave me feelings I cannot put into words
But as they say action speaks louder than words

Cause a glimpse of you is all I ever yearned
I know your love is earned
But thank you, for making me feel loved
Because for me, you are enough to be loved

I still love you
I still miss you
I still want you
I still need you

Love me and look into my eyes
Cause love, you made me crazier all the time
Touch me now as I close my eyes
Cause I miss you all the time

You made me choose
Don't worry, cause you're the one I'd always choose

You’re the missing piece who'll complete me
And I have already found a love for me
Look at me and stare into my eyes and never look away
Hold my hand and hug me close then hear what I have to say
Be by my side, hold my hand and hug me close then stay with me
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Singkislap ng mga tala ang iyong mga mata
Sa tuwing ikaw ay nakatingin sa akin
Sa tuwing tayo ay magkasama
Anong saya aking nadarama

Di ko maipaliwanag
Sadyang aking mundo’y lumiliwanag
Ibubulong ko na lamang sa hangin
Ang aking nararamdaman na hindi ko maamin

Aking mahal, sana ay ikaw na nga
Ang aking makakasama hanggang sa pagtanda
Sana ay ako lamang ang iyong mamahalin
Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
At ikaw lamang ang aking mamahalin
Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal, minamahal at mamahalin, sinta
At wala nang iba pa

Hindi man kita kasama araw man o gabi
Walang ibang papalit sa’yo dito sa puso ko
Ikaw lamang ang aking gustong makatabi
At sa iyo lamang umiikot aking mundo

Saksi ang Panginoon sa ating pagmamahalan
Dahil alam niyang sa iyo ako nakalaan
Ito ang iyong pakatatandaan
Na kahit ako ay magkamali man, pangakong hindi kita sasaktan

Singdami nang mga tala ang mga taon
Na gustong tayo ang magkasama hanggang sa huli
Kahit na tayo man ay magkalayo ngayon
Alam kong makakasama’t mahahagkan kitang muli

Sana ay pagbigyan ng panahon
Kahit sa gabi lamang ikaw ay makatabi

Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal
Mula noon hanggang ngayon
Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Mula noon hanggang ngayon

Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal
Ang aking minamahal
At aking pipiliing mamahalin
Sana ay ako rin
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
We never know the whole story
We knew they both had a history
I only know the gist of it
But the mariteses cannot get over with it

Feeling victim for clout
They probably know by now what it was all about

He was a charming young man
While she was a selfish and materialistic woman
He only wanted to give, to love
But he was killed out of mercy, out of hate or love

Saving yourself while killing someone you love
They both seem to know what they need to shove
Forget everything in an oblivious way
An unforgivable menace comes along your way

You should be careful by now about the way you acted or behave
But that doesn’t mean you will be saved
Your days are counted but out-numbered
But you felt guilty, feeling encumbered

Consider yourself lucky for making it out alive
Choosing yourself to be alive just to survive

Yeah, because you prolly should have known by now
It is not what god wanted, but something that evil allows
You are the bait in someone’s hook
I hope you let yourself off the hook

Your asukarera de papa is not almighty
Because shiny things are not all shiny
They might blind you; it was indeed too good to be true
Some are pretentious to reassure, while some are real and pure

You’re the prey of the hunter
Feeling like an undercover
Everything was yet to be discovered
Not gonna happen that a lifeless interest was left to be unexplored

You were the precious bunny in his tantalizing eyes
At that time, the spirit of jealousy was on the rise
They said he was in a higher-being position
He got a family, a wife and four children

Hence, He got distracted in the beautiful garden of Eden
But the mistress and the * were in an awkward juxtaposition

But he was not a god, nor was a saint
He was handling any issues like a brief feint
He blamed god for everything else
He was feeling blessed, no more, no less

He said god was on his side
But as far as it gets interesting, the devil was his bride

Now you’re the target of the killer
This phenomenon was an indestructible thriller
He may have pocket knives, guns, arrows, ammo, name it
Best for you to forget or believe it

He marks the X on the spot
He left you there, lying on the streets to rot
He grinned so much now you’re gone
The mission was accomplished and done

But I hope you listened to me, but you never did
You gained so much of what you want to benefit

Millions of blood money were used in the wrong situation
Now that she got her decision, everything is in transition
Now you’re six feet below the ground
Now she's playing like a victim, feeling depressed that you're not around

She may be spending a lot to compensate for the pain
The trauma and the blame have left there in your mind, they remain
To lessen the pain and the burden
It doesn't make you any less golden

To lessen the sins, you have committed
Since you're so selfish, your sins were never admitted

It doesn’t matter if you visit him, any day, any night
You killed an innocent life, that's not right
From your selfish deeds, knowingly you have needs
You only think of yourself, self

You never should have bothered him in the first place
Now he was in a better place

He believed he was holy
But your soul is agonizing, deadly, slowly but surely
Holy enough to involve others
Flushing everything down the gutter

Tasked others to do the crime
It was not god's timing, but the devil's time
He thought he was protected by the saints and the gods
For the sake of their bad blood

He made religion his shield
Everything will be revealed
But makes evil schemes behind the church’s back
Your body and soul, later on, will be the hell's snack

The mastermind was his lover
He said he'll leave his wife for another
Felt guilty enough to care for the dead
Now you're a famewhore, a memer, your issues spread

But it’s too late, stop pretending
You never loved him, you were only good at pretending
You used him many times, **** him all you want
But you were not so nonchalant

Clinging unto your asukarera de papa for money and fame
By simply calling and talking to him, he can sense you are no longer the same

Spoiling you for getting everything
He is such a scary thing
You even fooled yourself about him wanting you
He is just ******* you, getting your nerve out of you

You got the nerve to keep asking him
Singing him praises and hymns
Visiting his tomb, telling him, you'd wish him to be your groom

You never thought of him even once or twice
Now they've pressed you for charges, no running away now
It's time to pay the lifetime price
You've been a spoiled brat, somehow

They said you keep buying him useless things
Now, seeing him in a tux, lying in his casket, unattached strings


But later on, when you feel sad and depressed, it gets funny
You traded his soul for the money
Don’t you know what power it will bring to the world?
Chaos and death are unfurled

You may be pretty and angelic
Being a ****** suit you but not being dramatic or sympathetic
But whom the **** knows what your mischievous attitude and behavior did to him
You were the best actress in the show, trying to fit in the show to look like a film

His worth never meant something to you
Now that you got the best view
His worth is just a dime that fell on the floor
You are not that worth it anymore

A lot of people believed though
You kept on faking it though
You got the nerve to chill and swim in the sea
They labelled you as the pokpok ng *
*, you see

You got the audacity to sleep, eat and work
Well, the best reaction is just to smirk
After the incident, after what you’ve done to them
Now you've got the hellish realm, to protect yourself from them

After what you’ve done to the bereaved family
Until further notice, you were no longer in fantasy

What lies ahead, what lies behind and what lies beyond it all
They will surely blame you all
You never deserve the best girlfriend award, wildcard
But she was ignored, they implored

They only want to give you the trophy you deserve, it was a catastrophe
She treated his family nastily

He was never released or in peace
But let's pay our respect to the deceased
His soul was in misery, in restlessness
I guess you seem relentless

Say your comforting and doubtful prayers
Come and show everyone your crocodile tears
Telling everyone your lies and faking a smile
Just before everything was settled, even the error and trial

Though reminiscing those memories, he left behind
But everyone seems to turn an eye so blind
Your eulogy was only a show
Everyone knows the truth but still, they went to go on with the flow

Whereas hiding your true feelings, feeling glad
Behind the curtains, you tell everything to your sugar dad
While everyone cried their heart out, their eyes were bawling
Got no sleep, tired of overthinking

What do they call you?
You’re a ******* *****, home-wrecker, concubine
Mistress, *****, *******, harlot
That is what they call you
I mean, now that's a lot

Pretend to your daddy, and tell him your intention
Your soul is hungry for love and attention
You're no brainer, just a dummy
Whose soul is thirsty for money

Your soul started agonizing in pain
It is nothing that your self-gain
You are alive but felt hellish guilty as ****
Wait till god plucks your life like a wasted duck

You mask your motives
Thus, everything in this issue we bet seems explosive
You ask for sympathy to gain self-esteem
**** your life, your dream

You do not want to 'fess up to yourself
Hiding the truth like a book on its shelf
You always mess up with everyone’s family
Your foul words are profanity, what you did was an act of inhumanity

You are the mastermind from the beginning to the end of time
You came to his tomb, confessing and repenting your sins from time to time
He keeps visiting you in your dreams
Quit that routine, you're no longer his queen

Asking for mercy and peace of mind
But you never mind
You never thought of loving him was the best thing you ever did
You're a one skilled ***** after all, as fulfilled

How come you **** up and never listened to your conscience
Now you have to face the consequences.
The most trending ****** case in The Philippines
Aug 2023 · 32
Two-faced bitch (8-29-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
There is always a different side to every story
But this one's an interesting history
This story was no allegory
But a fact-based tell-tale to tell up until century

It was made up by these maritesses
Feeling inspectors, judges and witnesses
As if, they saw the scene of the crime
Blabbering about nonsense things at that time

Just like the issues fade, people fade
It might take us all in a decade
But they revealed everything
And it gets interesting

We go round in circles blaming everyone
Some scattered hearsays and hoaxes are on the run
Trying to please everyone
That ***** sure had a lot of fun

Who among these people are deserving to be blamed?
Yet, we can't even point fingers or name names
How about a rain check on the situation
Let's ask her for her true intentions

Now you try to walk around losing your head
I heard, the devil is off with your head
But have you seen your head in that silver platter
There's no need to flatter

Now you're everyone's talk of the town
All of the rumors were spread in your town
You let everyone down
In your sorrows, you drown

Well, let me tell you the story of the couple from *
I know you were either interested or intrigued to hear it too

Little did everyone know
She felt guilty, went to his grave and pleaded to him to forgive her
The deceased's kin were too angry to face her
Vengeance will be served, and so is justice too
Karma is already on the upper hand's menu

Moments are capsulized that turned into memory
A congratulatory address turned into an unforgettable eulogy
Beauty sleeps turned into "in the loving memory"

Even my wounds that cut so deep can’t be healed by a band-aid
**** up and forget the promenade
Let me take you somewhere to juggernaut down memory lane
Every grain, every salt, you’re no saint

You’re the mastermind of everything
Every time the pendulum swings
Karma is already knocking on your door
I hope you rot in hell, down to the core

Time flies by so fast, the moment you broke his wings
He can no longer fly away with his broken wings
Sometimes clock ticks’ life away
Whenever we were unaware, it goes to waste or fly away
Aug 2023 · 24
Paradise (2-4-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
What I see is my lifetime paradise
That's what I'm sure of
What I have now is my blessing in disguise
And he's one thing I'm sure of

What we had was a rollercoaster ride
You and I collide through the good times and the bad
I just could not take for granted what we had
You're my groom and I'll be your bride

Baby, you're the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with
You're the one I want to be with
I might not give what you wanted
But I got what you needed

Baby, hold my hand and we'll make it through
Cause I still love to love you

I know what we had was meant to be
And our relationship was tested through time
But the moment I saw you, I knew that you're the one for me
I hope it's your hand I'd end up holding till the end of time

I may not be a perfect lover for you
Although I make mistakes, I promise to never break your heart
With or without my presence, I will always be here for you
But I hope we never part

Your voice calms me like the sea
After a long and tiring day
Your angelic face is all I needed to see
And I can rest my worries with you

In your arms is where I wanted to stay
Cause I never want to let you go
You're that guy I never expected to have now
Now, who is willing to have me now.

Baby, you are my best view
I cannot take my eyes off of you
Ooh, you know how I loved you so
Hey, I got my focus on you
Aug 2023 · 25
Waiting (2-4-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Why does it always pay to wait?
If I get all impatient, would I be too late?
I can't understand myself lately
It seems like I want to stay

Fell in love with a man who has it all
Loving me perhaps was his call
Ooh, I would love to let him know I'll wait
No matter how long I would always wait

You are all I ever needed
And all I ever wanted
In this world filled with lies
You’re the only thing that’s right

So, I’ll love you with all of my might
Every time I look him in the eyes
It feels like I love to stay
Every time you look and come my way

You are my lover and my everything
You are my forever king
You are mine and I am yours to keep
That’s why I fell in love too deep

You’re the reason why I keep smiling all the time
You’re the reason why I always cry when I miss you
You’re the reason why I could laugh all the time
You’re the reason why I became so happy every day

Because you’re the one I love
You’re the reason why I believed in love
You’re the reason why I chose to stay
You’re the reason why I chose you

My heartbeat is a melody I always hear when I miss you every day
My mind was always filled with thoughts of you every day
I hope you would still love me the same
I hope you'll never change

Because my love for you never ages
And I will always call your name

I will be waiting patiently for you
I will still love you
And right by your side is where I’ll stay
No matter how long or short the days
Aug 2023 · 115
LAGING IKAW (3-19-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Puso ko’y umaapaw sa tuwa
Sa tuwing ikaw ang kausap buong magdamag
Na para bang sa bawat minuto ako ay napapalundag
Dahil sa ako ay iyong napasaya

Kaya’t sana ay huwag kang magbago
Huwag kang mag-alala nandito lang ako
Naghihitay palagi para sa’yo
Kaya’t walang susuko

Laging ikaw ang nasa isip
Ang nasa aking panaginip
Laging ang pangalan mo
Ang sigaw ng aking puso

Laging ikaw ang gustong hanap ng aking mga mata
Pagkadilat ko pa lang sa umaga
Laging ikaw lamang ang gustong makatabi
Mapa-umaga man hanggang gabi

Laging ikaw lamang ang magmamay-ari ng aking puso
Pangako, mananatili akong sa’yo
Basta’t laging ikaw lamang
Laging ikaw lamang

Malayo man tayo sa isa’t-isa
Hindi man tayo laging magkasama
Basta’t iyong tatandaan
Ang puso ko’y sa iyo lamang nakalaan

Pangako, mananatili tayong buo
Hanggang sa dulo
At kahit saan man mapunta
Ako’y ‘di na kailangan mangamba

Sa iyo lamang akong talaga
Laging ikaw ang nasa aking isip
Laging ikaw ang nasa aking panaginip
Ang puso ko’y sa’yo lang talaga
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Mananatili akong sa’yo hanggang dulo
Kung hindi man maging tayo,
Hanggang sa huli
Kahit ang Panginoon, ang mga tala at buwan sa kalangitan ang saksi;

At hindi ko kailanman maikubli
Kung ano ang nararamdaman ko para sa’yo.

Mananatili akong sa’yo, sa mga oras na kailangan mo ako
Sa mga araw na wala kang masasandalan
Ako ang kanlungan mo
Ang iyong maaasahan

Mananatili sa iyong tabi
Kahit sa mga gabing hindi ka mapakali,
Sa’yo lang ako naging sigurado
Sa’yo lang ako naging kuntento,

Mananatiling sa’yo
Sa’yo hanggang dulo;

Pero hindi payapa ang aking mundo kung wala ka
Mahal, ikaw ang aking pahinga, ang aking payapa,
Sa mga panahong ako ay pagod at gustong mapag-isa
Sa iyong piling, ikaw ang aking tahanan

Ikaw ang aking magpakailanman
Ang aking tahanan
Ang aking masasandalan
Ikaw at ako’y nasa kanluran

Ang iyong mga kamay ang aking gustong hawakan
Ang iyong tinig ang aking gustong marinig
Ikaw ang aking kasiyahan sa mga araw na ako ay nalulumbay;
At ikaw lamang ang aking mamahalin habangbuhay.

Hindi kita papalitan
Hindi kita bibitiwan,
Hindi kita susukuan
Mananatili akong sa’yo,

Hindi kita iiwan
Dahil ikaw ang aking ligaya,
Ikaw lamang ang nag-iisa
Mananatili akong sa’yo.

Huwag kang mag-alala
Hindi ako mawawala;
Sasamahan kita kahit saan man tayo mapunta
Basta’t ikaw ang aking kasama.

Ikaw ang natatangi
Ang kailanman na hindi ko kayang itanggi,
Ikaw at ako’y isinulat sa mga bituin sa kalangitan
At dahil sa ating wagas na pagmamahalan;

Hindi kita ikakahiya
Ipagsisigawan sa buong mundo
Kung gaano kita kamahal sinta
At dahil ang puso ko’y sa’yo.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Kulang ang mga bituin sa kalangitan
Na kahit minsan ay kay sarap pagmasdan
Kung mawawala ka man ay kulang rin ako,
Ikaw ang nagsisilbing aking katahimikan

Sa aking maingay at magulong mundo,
Para kang isang tanawin
Na kay sarap titigan
Sana nga ay makuha ka sa tingin,

Tayo ay may walong planeta
Ngunit sa iyo lamang umiikot ang mundo ko
Ikaw ang aking paboritong pantasya
Na ayaw kong kalimutan

Ikaw ang paborito kong panaginip
Na kahit minsan sana ay hindi na ako magising
Makasama ka lamang kahit ako’y naka idlip
Pero ayaw kong mabuking

Na ang talino ko sa klase
Pero pagdating sa’yo nabo-bobo at nata-tanga ako
Alam kong wala kang pake
Dahil bihira naman na ako ay magugustuhan mo

Ang isang tulad ko
Nakakasagot naman ako sa oral namin
Pero pagdating sa’yo nata-tameme ako at ‘di maka-amin
Dahil suntok sa buwan lamang ako pagdating sa’yo

Ka-babae kong tao
Pero kapag ikaw nababakla ako
Hindi ko alam bakit nagkakaganito ako
Pagdating sa iyo nagiging abnormal ako

Ikaw ang ilaw
Sa madilim na landas na aking tinatahak;
Ikaw at ang pangalan mo ay sa aking puso't isipan nakatatak
Wala kang ibang kaagaw
Aug 2023 · 26
I miss you (2-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I wish you were here by my side
So that you can hug me closer
Cuddle with me and let us stay in bed
Oh, darling I will never leave your side

I hope we will stay like this forever
Cause I can’t seem to get you off my head
Cause, I miss you love
Oh, I miss you love

I miss your eyes, the way they stare at me
I miss your lips, the way they smile back at me
I miss your voice, the way it calms me
I miss your face, the way it relaxes me

I miss your hands, the way I used to touch them
I miss your hug, the way it keeps me sane
I miss you, please stay, remain
And never listen to them

And how I miss your presence, it feels like home to me
And I miss you, the way I fell in love with you
The way I am crazy in love with you
I know you always think of me

All I ever dreamt of was to be right next to you
How I wish I could be this close to you
We’ll talk and plan of things we could ever do
And go to places we love to go


With you, right next to me
There is nothing more I could ever guarantee

Your smile is all I wanted to see
The way it bright up my day
For you are enough to me
And right by your side is where I will stay

Through the good times and the bad
I’ll remain right by your side
I swore to never leave your side
Even if I am both mad or glad.

Because I dated you to marry you
I vowed for Commitment
I vowed to be your lifetime partner
I want to be yours

Because I do cherish you
I want to be your fulfillment
You have also vowed to be my lifetime partner
I want to be yours

I miss you
You want to be mine
I miss you
I want to be yours
Aug 2023 · 19
Never Knew (04-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I never knew when my pounding heart started racing
Every time I see you walk around the place,
I never knew when I first fell for you
But it was when, I first laid eyes on you;

It was as if I can hear angels singing
Every time I see your face.
Every time you walk in the room
My mind was imagining that someday you’re going to be my groom

I never knew when my mind started thinking of you
Or when did your name started to resound on my mind,
You were too hard to find
But now that I have you,

I wish you would look my way
And let me hear you say;
Don’t run away, don’t walk away
I hope you would want to stay,

Dear love, I don’t even know your name
But you’re still the one I want to aim,
Only your eyes and mouth, they smile
Oh, I love to see them just for a while;

My feelings were like lightning
It came too fast but we’re not rushing.
This feeling is not fleeting
I never feel like reeling,

Hit the vibe and come with me
I was too scared to talk to you,
But come here and sit beside me
I just want to let you know;

That I never want to let go
I just want to stay here with you.
I never want to see you go
I just had to let you know,

The way you move makes me fall
Fall harder and deeper into you,
The way I tried to never fall
But I caught myself falling for you.

But you weren’t even there to catch me
I was kept on falling,
And one day I’ll be crawling
Next time, I’ll be walking;

Another day passes by
Didn’t know what time is it,
Feels like time flies
Every time you look into my eyes;

I hope you feel it
Cause I don’t want to say goodbye.
Say your sweet goodbye
I hope it’s worth it.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Time once told me, that he alone, is karma
He alone will come along and hunt us all down
He will soon partake everything you did in my town
Time is tired from all of our drama

Time indeed tells when I will be able to forget you
It took me time to realize how blessed I was when I met you
It took me time to savor the love you have given me and made me
felt
I admit it, I was once held captive in your arms and it made me
Melt

Therefore, I conclude, it took me time to digest those flowery
words of yours
It came from that intoxicating and disgusting tongue of yours
Hence, time is always on riptide
My time has come to tell you this from the bottom of my heart
Time is indeed the truth teller of all liars

The universe, the spaces and everything in between conspire
Time always told me the truth you could never tell
Time has always been on my side
In the slightest touch of your fingertips

I have forsaken you amidst the troubles and woes you have given me
You gave me nothing but pain
You gave me nothing but heartaches and misery
You let me slip, away from the tip of your fingers

From every word I hear coming from your foolish lips
Everything still keeps on staying, it lingers
Though it was already in the past, but the pain still drips
It still drips in the back of my mind

Thinking why you left me behind
I wrote you poetries in exchange of your betrayals
I wrote you songs in exchange of your lies
I loved you right in exchange of you, leaving me behind

It’s true when Miley Cyrus tells that “Misery loves company”
But I pity you as I envy the girl you replaced me
How come you tell me things and repeated those mere words to her
You chase me now without forgetting you worship me instead of her

Can you not feel déjà vu by remembering your first compliment
I admire the confidence and I judge the poor sense of character
development
I curse you from now on until the day you rejoice on your deathbed
Get that **** inside your head
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Time will only tell
When I will be okay
Time will only tell
When I will be able to forget you?

It took me time to understand why we have to let each other go
It took me time to move on, it took me time to let you go
It took me time to hold on, it took me time to forgive you,
It took me time to accept the fact that you’re no longer mine to keep
It might take me a lot of sleepless nights counting sheep
It took me time to be happy

It took me time to accept and move forward
It took me time to stay in one location
It took me time to slow down
It took me time to resent you

It took me time to think it through
It took me time to ignore you
It took me time to decide
It took me time to let things go

It took me time to master everything
It took me time to rest on love
It took me time to smile
Until it was now my turn to smile
To laugh, to be happy and everything

It took me time to socialize
It took me time to adjust
It took me time to smile back at you
Until I learned to smile back at me too

It always took me time to love myself first
And never entertain any suitors yet
Before forgetting you
It took me time to talk to you
And ask for closure

It took me time to heal, it took me time to feel
All the pain first before moving forward
No more walking backwards

I’m not going that way, I’m moving forward this way
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Pretentious. I was never that type of person
Liar. I never lied about it, but are we in unison?
He told me already yesterday
He had unclear explanations, faulty reasons

I admit it, he is a walking red flag
He might not admit it, but he cheated on me
Caught him red-handed, put him on a pedestal
I might **** him in a heartbeat, no tag

Got no label for that, you see
Who wouldn’t believe such a loser like me?
When he ended things on purpose
He said, he got nothing to lose

My life is a bit candid
I never caught him red-handed
Those moments were unforgettable
True, but lies were unforgivable

He is indeed a wolf in sheep’s clothing
He put himself up in everything
With all the lies, betrayal, and tricks
Let me tie him up in a joystick
Aug 2023 · 33
Rebel (3-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Can’t keep up on my level
You created a monster out of me
That makes me a dauntless rebel
Soothing affairs and comforting lies, they got me


Ready whenever I like to buzzkill
Don’t be such a bitter pill
I’m one to talk, I thought it would give me a rain check
Fooled me once or twice

But I once returned to 2021
Back to where and when you first met me
It caught me reminiscing on something that was already gone
Though everything has been said and done

It was treacherous and killing me
A global pandemic arises
I regretted every moment slowly fading
Slowly turning into a reality of memories

Heard different sides of the stories
It seems tempting, too unrealistic to believe in
It took me back to when you first loved me
It was heaven, but it felt hellish too

You were kept on love-bombing me
I highly doubted it though
Told me comforting lies and unbelievable truths
Yet you made me rot in hell, like my dignity and worth

But now, you keep coming back
You keep wanting me back
How do you sleep at night?
Do you still think of me?

Do you have any right to keep me?
I think not, I want you out of my sight
Aug 2023 · 27
Ghost of you (12-18-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
They say you cannot be a prisoner of your own past
But mine became a habit that last
I remember when you called me mine
Asked me if I was doing fine?

I bought a couple ring for us
I remember those times we had, I missed us
I still hope one day you will remember me
You will talk to me and apologize to me

I was handcuffed by your presence
You seem tormenting me
It all made no sense
You keep haunting me

But you lied to me, you used me
Fooled me many times
You have committed a crime
You broke my heart

You broke my heart apart
You tore us apart
But I still am hoping for you to come back
To come back home to me, to come back

Now I am still here, here, waiting for you
Dancing on my own with the ghost of you
Reminiscing of our glorious past
Leaving me all alone miserable in the past

I still am, caught in the glimpse of us
Thought I’d die for you, for us
Aug 2023 · 35
Verity (8-3-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I hid everything from my friends
They told about how our relationship ends
I lie low and lived a peaceful life
Away from everyone just to forget this bitter strife

Back to when you first met me
Everything runs smoothly
I was once the apple of your eyes
Now you’ve contaminated my life with white lies

Maybe I needed an anesthesia for this pain to numb
I hope you would think where this was coming from
I’ve had enough of everything
Am I not suitable to your liking?

I am not totally healed yet
I am not yet finished loving you
When you left me, I can’t forget
Those footprints of you

It was tormenting to watch
I throw any bullet for you to dodge
It felt like that, you see
How you walk away from me

I called your name, yet you never looked back
You did not mind coming back on your own track
You left a fragment of you deep within my heart
I was in pain, bruised and hurt

I felt it deep within my heart
When you told me, “I want you to be happier”
But you regretted seeing me happier
It breaks your heart
Aug 2023 · 36
Closure Pt. I (7-28-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You saw me once when we parted ways
You saw me once again as I look away
I wore my blue shirt and black jeans that time
I saw you coming towards me, one time

You asked me to forgive you, I already did
Hey, it’s an all or nothing at all, right?
All my life, I’m like a deer in the headlights
Shouting for help, running for my life, I forbid

I know you’re not the one
Everything is all too well and done
You made me believe in your empty promises
Wearing thy masks as disguises

You’ve been so unfaithful in a different corner
We were never meant to be together
But I’ve been missing your beautiful soul
It felt like falling on a bottomless pit or in a rabbit hole

Waiting patiently for someone’s wings
No attached strings
I don’t kiss and tell
But does it ring a bell?

I guess my pretty boy is no longer available
When everything is unthinkable
I hate it when my heart bleeds out of love
Is there anything else to prove?
Aug 2023 · 57
Anecito (7-28-2023)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You met me at a perfect time
But we both fed up in such a worst crime
Sadly, there is no more words to rhyme
Losing you is much better than losing myself for a lifetime

Been bruised, been scarred for life
Got pointed with a gun and knife
Thank God, I barely made it out alive
Barely kicking just to survive

I thought there seems to be no life after you
Seeing myself miserable over you
For a long time, I hated you
Forgetting everything about you

When it seems that life is just a ride or die
You can’t even look me in the eye
How come you always lie
Everything is already said and done, goodbye

Stop trying so hard for things to work out for me
For the both of us, for you and me
You said you loved me
But time never lead you back to me

Two hearts still beat on with different rhythms
Collated on the different sides of every prism
Like the fragments of my broken heart
Everything fell apart

I hope we should let it go now
Letting go of all the hurts and pains now
I poured my whole heart out for you
But you hated yourself for letting me go

You gave me only a 3-month trial
Hopeful enough we would reconcile
Time was never on our side
Hope you float on it, life is a tide

Love seems too splendid
Then, like a call you left me unattended
But I don’t mind
Time alone cannot erase the memory you left behind

Hour glasses and stopwatches are all useless
Hoping for you ‘fess up, I’m breathless
Asking myself why’d you run away?
Runaway far away from today

Maybe you changed your mind approaching me
Instead, you chased and approached other girls
Why would I bother force you to stay with me?
I know my worth is weighed in gold and pearls

But you played me like a doll
Bounced me back like a ball
Guessed me like a mind game
Whispered in your name
Aug 2023 · 23
NIGHTMARES (8-30-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
How will I ever let you go
If I still remember the things we did
How will I ever forget you
If I still remember the words you said

All the things you said are running through my head
Please leave me alone, get out of my head
All the memories we did, are all in my head
Please leave me alone, stop messing inside my head
Aug 2023 · 34
Powerful. (8-30-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I’ll try to wipe away my tears
And conquer all of my fears
No matter how many times I fall down
Stand tall and wear thy crown

Stand tall and proud
In front of the huge crowd
Chin up and smile
This nervousness will only take just for a while

I am not a toy for you to play and own
Cause I am born royalty to sit in my own throne
I am not a puppet on your strings
For you to do your ***** things

Since I am she
And she is Queen
Since she is me
And I deserve to be my own Queen

You cannot control me
I am my own Queen
I don’t need a King
Cause baby I can do anything

I have everything
I am everything
That you are not
That you are not

You cannot manipulate me
I am hidden and cannot be seen
Cause I am one in a million
One, one of a kind

Yeah, I don’t mind
Leaving you in oblivion

I can just watch you fall
Like a domino tile
It’s a wakeup call
But keep running for a mile

Cause Karma is going to chase you
Guilt is going to make you regret it
Arrogance is what makes you not worth it
Don’t wait for the day that I’m going to end you


I still stand on solid ground
And I am hell-bound
Cause a Queen like me does not need a King like you
So, it means Goodbye cause we’re through

I got my own name
I know I will never be the same
I never play games
Cause I know I can never be tamed

Oh, pick up the cross you carry
Even though it’s too heavy
But start walking again
Even though it stings and you’re in pain

One day I will rise up
And let all the crowd shut up
I didn’t need a pair of wings to fly higher
Cause I was born a fighter

I just need to raise my heads up to the sky
And let them hear my battle cry
No matter how hard we try
I still believe in You and I

You let me rise up
Just to drag me down
You stack me up
Just to let me down

How come you build me now
And destroy me once and for all
And let me fall
But I’m unbeatable, unbreakable now

Bury me alive
I will be back before you know it
Please let me be alive
I will behave like you know it

Curse me on my coffin
Say your prayers to my grave
I’m six feet below my grave
I despise you deep within

Go and run away
Hide where your guilt feelings haunt you
Escape where your conscience bothers you
Go and hide away

Sleep and let your nightmares seek you
Let them visit you
Go and vanish away
Go and stay away
May 2021 · 178
Paalam
yndnmncnll May 2021
Isang bukas na sulat para sa aking minamahal:

Hindi ka niya kayang palitan
Pero kaya niyang higitan ang pagmamahal mo
Pero kaya niyang punan ang mga pagkukulang mo
Binibigay at pinaparamdam niya sa akin ang mga bagay na gusto kong sa'yo galing
Ang ngiti mo, ang pangalan mo, ang tawa mo, ang hugis ng mukha mo di ko malimutan kailanman
Ngunit siya na ang nandiyan para sa akin
Na kailanman ay hindi na ako sa iyo ay babalik pa
Apr 2021 · 918
IKAW
yndnmncnll Apr 2021
Kulang ang mga bituin sa kalangitan
Dahil kung wala ka ay kulang rin ako
Ikaw ang nagsisilbing aking ilaw sa aking madilim na landas na tinatahak
Ikaw ang nagsisilbing katahimikan
Sa aking maingay at magulong mundo
alam kong masamang gawing mundo ang alam kong tao lang
Huwag mo naman sanang nila-Lang ang isang katulad kong nilalang
pero hindi payapa ang aking mundo kung wala ka
Ikaw at pangalan mo ay sa aking puso't isipan nakatatak
Mahal, ikaw ang aking pahinga, ang aking payapa
Sa mga panahong ako ay pagod at gustong mapag-isa
Ikaw ang aking kasiyahan sa mga araw na ako ay nalulumbay
At ikaw lamang ang aking mamahalin habangbuhay
Mar 2021 · 92
My Suicide Note
yndnmncnll Mar 2021
Prison of Hell
Try to free from the chains,
Cuffed around my neck,
Bound are my feet and hands.
Trying to free myself,
How long will I last?
This indicipherable torture,
Imprisoned by my past.
How long will this pain last?
Burn my soul,
With this addicting ache I lust,
Shackled by the ticking sand–
But how long will I truly last?
Unless you wish me well,
Bound are my feet and hands,
Carpe Diem,
Save me lest I end, by my two hand.
Mar 2021 · 109
This girl
yndnmncnll Mar 2021
This girl is rare, This girl is one of a kind
This girl only has you on her mind
This girl is still under your care
Oh, but this girl is hurt
And has no more time to flirt

This girl’s already all alone
She’s no longer in your zone
This girl has already cried enough
But this girl’s heart’s too tough

This girl no longer owns you
This girl is no longer your priority
This girl’s decision is never made easy
This girl will never listen to your lies anymore
Cause this girl can’t hold it any longer
This girl still loves you so
But you see, this girl has to let you go

This girl no longer believes in you
This girl no longer misses you
This girl no longer trusts you
This girl is no longer coming back to you
This girl already gave you the freedom you deserve
This girl has a lot to observe

From your words of wisdom to lies
She can’t see it in your eyes
But she feels it inside her
You never deserve to keep her

This girl loves you more than you ever know
She’s just too shy to let it show
But she needs to love herself first
This girl already found you
But you let her go
She chose you for a reason
But this love is already not it’s season
But she needs to find herself first
This girl misses you like crazy
But she misses herself more every day
This girl gave time to you
But she needs to spare herself some time

This girl already forgave you
And hopes to forget what has been said and done
This girl  will still treat you as her only one
But she needs to give you the freedom you deserve
I hope one day we meet again
Where this pain no longer remained
I hope you find the happiness you deserve

One day, this girl will look at you
Like I no longer have feelings for you
One day, I will find time to see you
But I’m no longer coming back to you.
Mar 2021 · 356
Breakup lyrical poetry
yndnmncnll Mar 2021
Yung di mo pa naririnig ang mga kataga
Ngunit ramdam na ng puso **** wala na talaga
Kayat huwag na nating ipilit pa
Dahil mas lalo lang tayong masasaktan
Pagkatapos mo siyang mahalin ay iniwan ka niyang luhaan

Kaya’t wag ka nang umasa pa
Na babalikan ka pa niya
Dahil kung talagang mahal ka niya
Di ka sana ngayon nag-iisa

Hindi ikaw ang may mali kundi sila
Nagmahal ka lang naman ng tapat
Pero bakit ka nila iniwang nag-iisa
Kahit ibigay mo pa lahat
Kung iiwan ka, iiwan ka talaga
Kung manloloko yan, magloloko yan
Kung sabi niyang mahal ka niya
Bakit ka niya sinasaktan ng ganyan?

Siguro may rason kung bakit tayo umabot sa ganito
Kung bakit nagwakas ang pagsasama nating dalawa
Ngayon ang puso ay nalilito
Kaya’t wag nang umasa pa
Na balang araw ay babalikan ka niya
Dahil kung talagang mahal ka niyan
Hindi ka niya iiwan nang luhaan

Hindi ikaw ang may mali kundi sila
Nagmahal ka lang naman ng tapat
Pero bakit ka nila iniwang nag-iisa
Kahit ibigay mo pa lahat
Kung iiwan ka, iiwan ka talaga
Kung manloloko yan, magloloko yan
Kung sabi niyang mahal ka niya
Bakit ka niya sinasaktan ng ganyan?


Walang magagawa kundi gustong ibalik lahat sa dati
Kaya’t inuungkat ang mga pangyayari
Ngunit ang alaala’y babalik pa
Kaso ang mga taong naging parte nito ay hindi na

Hindi ikaw ang may mali kundi sila
Nagmahal ka lang naman ng tapat
Pero bakit ka nila iniwang nag-iisa
Kahit ibigay mo pa lahat

Kung iiwan ka, iiwan ka talaga
Kung manloloko yan, magloloko yan
Kung sabi niyang mahal ka niya
Bakit ka niya sinasaktan ng ganyan?
Mar 2021 · 95
tired.
yndnmncnll Mar 2021
Loving someone who has no time for you? Wow. How incredible.
Jan 2021 · 299
Pag-Ibig
yndnmncnll Jan 2021
Isang salita, pitong letra
PAG-IBIG na mas mahirap pa sa Math Equation
PAG-IBIG na mas kumplikado pa sa Logical Reasoning
PAG-IBIG na mas mahirap sagutin kahit OO o HINDI lang ang isasagot
Ang utak kong ito na kahit ilang beses kong pigain ay hindi kayang sumagot

Na  kahit naipapakita ko na sa'yo na ikaw ay deserving
Ngunit di mo pansin ang aking naibibigay na effort and attention

Oh well, singtamis ng kendi ang salitang I LOVE YOU
Ngunit di mo feel ang aking love towards you
I have been praying that I hope you feel the same way too
Pero di ko pa alam kung kailan ito magkakatotoo
Jan 2021 · 98
Prison of Hell
yndnmncnll Jan 2021
Trying to free me from the chains that they cuffed around my neck, feet and hands
Trying to free me from the pain that I could never understand
Here I am imprisoned in the distress of my past
And burning my soul in hell
But how long will the pain last ?
Unless you wish me well.
Oct 2020 · 69
Blessing in disguise
yndnmncnll Oct 2020
One-sided love, he ain't my first love
I'm the devilish one, he's the angelic one
We're different yet the same
Every time he calls out my name.

It must be bad karma
What I did to every one,
That's why I'm all alone
But I ain't lonely,
I'm super happy
I guess this is good karma,
I bet he's my blessing in disguise
And maybe he's the angel in the skies.

I've got no horns
I ain't crowned with thorns
I've got no halo
Maybe I'll just say hello

I've got no wooden staff
I ain't worshipping a golden calf
I had no wings for me to fly
But I'm pretty sure I'm happy enough to cry

I can't part the sea
I can't reach the shore
I can't cross the ocean and walk on the water
I can't perform miracles.

I hope you would see
That I ain't like this before
I drifted like the wind after
It was then told in the oracle.
Sep 2020 · 79
feeling sick
yndnmncnll Sep 2020
Water alone cannot suffice my hunger
Food alone cannot withstand my thirst
I was drowning in fear and running for my life
I feel like lying in deathbed all my life
Sep 2020 · 77
Feeling like hell
yndnmncnll Sep 2020
He made me realize that I was living in a house filled with demons
Their bad habits are quite common
If you could compare it with anything else
I only want nothing more, nothing less
They are quite cruel
They only wanted to conquer and rule
Conquer and rule the world and own it like it's theirs
But they aren't the heirs.

I have a mother whose like Beelzebub
I have a father whose like Beelzebul
I have a sister-in-law whose like Lucifer
While my siblings were the accuser.

How I wonder, my home no longer has love in it
How can I feel it?
My heart is already numb
And my mind is super dumb.
How can I call it my home
If I feel hopeless and alone,
Where shall I locate my house?
Well, Hell is already my house.
No wonder, I have been feeling like hell
Every time you try to wish me well.
Sep 2020 · 497
My Galaxy
yndnmncnll Sep 2020
Take me to Wonderland
Leave me in Neverland
Hold my hand
And come with me where dreams are born
And time is never planned
So come with me where you and i are born
And our future is long planned.
Sep 2020 · 67
Far Away </3
yndnmncnll Sep 2020
I'm letting you go
I'm setting you free,
It's not you because it's me
I love you but this is goodbye;
I just want to let you know
I love you goodbye.

I never stopped loving you
It was you who chose to walk away,
I never stopped aporoaching you
It was you who went away;

I am so confused
Our set-up was so infused
That's why bridges should be burned
And tables should have turned

I am way too good for you
You are no good for me
You will just take me for granted
And then leave me unattended

Do I have to notice you first and aporoach you
Just to let you know that I will be here for you
But I won't be that girl any longer
Who would stay by your side forever

That's why I need to let go of your hand
I hope you understand
As i walk far away, I hope you close your eyes
And wipe away the tears falling from your eyes.
Sep 2020 · 2.0k
Selda ng Kahapon
yndnmncnll Sep 2020
Ang Kalayaan na ipinagkait sa akin ng tadhana
Ang Kalayaan kong gumala ay tila naglaho ng parang bula
Ang Kalayaan na singlayo ng mga tala na kailanman ‘di ko maabot
Nang dahil sa isang pagkakamali na minsan kong nagawa
Hindi ako tinigilang parusahan ng dahil sa isang pagkakamali na ‘di ko sinasadya
Kaso ang isang pagkakamaling iyon ay nauwi sa paulit-ulit na pagkakamaling namimihasa
Ngunit dalawampung taon akong nabuhay at nanirahan dito sa mundo na walang natatanggap na tiwala sa aking mga magulang
‘pagkat ilang beses nang nagbabakasakali na ang aking katanungan ay mahanapan ng sagot
O kalungkutan! Ako ay iyong lubayan na! dahil ang mga ulap ay nagsisimula nang umiyak at pumatak ang mga luha nito.
At dahil sa ako raw ay isang walang kwentang nilalang na nila-lang lamang nila
Ilang taon kong hawak ang katotohanan
Ang katotohanan na alam kong balang araw ay tatawagin akong salot sa lipunan
At milyon-milyong mga mata, tenga at bibig ang mga nakakarinig at nanghuhusga sa akin na parang alam ang tunay kong kwento na binabalot ng misteryo sa aking buong pagkatao
Tila ako ay aalis at babalik sa paaralan upang pumunta at umalis sa klinika ng aking espesyalista
Limang taon kong hinintay bago natupad ng Panginoon ang aking dalangin
Ngunit kahit nakakulong ka na, ‘di ko pa rin magawang maging masaya dahil pagkakamali nating pareho ito ngunit ikaw lang ang kanilang pinarusahan
Ikaw ang nagsilbing katahimikan sa maingay at magulo kong mundo
Pero nang ikaw ay aking nasilayan nang harap-harapan ulit sa presinto  ay tila umulan ng apoy sa buong kapaligiran nang dahil ako ay nagtanim ng poot at galit sa iyo
At sa aking pagtulog ay rinig na rinig ko ang tiktak ng aming relo
Ni minsan nagawa akong paglaruan ng aking panaginip at kasama raw kita
Kung minsan man ako ay natulala sa lalim ng aking iniisip nang dahil sa ating nakaraan
Nang dahil sa marami ang tumatakbo sa aking isipan
Pero ako ay naniningalang-pugad at nakaupo sa aking kama
Dahil Buhay ay parang gulong, minsan ikaw ay nasa itaas, minsan ikaw ay nasa ibaba.
Sep 2020 · 1.5k
Nagmamahal, Mahal.
yndnmncnll Sep 2020
Hindi ko mahagilap/ ang tamang mga salita/ upang masabi sa iyo ang gusto kong sabihin,/ ngunit oras na pala/ para isumbat ko na/ ang mga paghihirap/ na dinaranas ko/ sa piling mo/ noong mga sandaling pag-aari pa kita,/ noong mga araw na ako pa ang kasama mo/ at noong mga panahong may tayo pa./ Hindi ko inaasahan na magbabago ka,/ na magsasawa ka,/ na mang-iiwan ka at ipagpapalit mo ako sa kanya.// Pero ang hindi ko nauunawaan ay/ bakit mo nasabing ayaw mo na/ at pagod ka/ na noong araw na tayo ay unti-unti nang nagkakalabuan.//
Bakit mo nasabing pagod ka na?/ Pagod ka lang ba talaga?/  O Napagod ka na sa sitwasyon/ nating dalawa?/ O sa mga pagtatagu-taguan natin?/ O sa mga araw na muntikan na tayong mabuking?/ o sa mga araw na may nakakita sa atin?/ O napagod ka na sa atin?/ Sino nga ba ang nagbago?/ ikaw ba o ako?/ O baka/ tayo?/ Pero bakit ang tipid mo nang magsalita?/ At parang  wala ka ng gana/ na kausapin ako?/ Na mahalin ako?/ Na bigyan ako ng halaga?/ O na unawain ako?/ Bakit bigla ka na lang sumuko/ sa mga oras na ipinaglalaban ko ang ating pagmamahalan?/ Hindi ko napansin na ako na lang pala/ ang lumalaban ng mag-isa/ habang ikaw ay binitiwan na ako.//
Bakit mo nagawang balewalain/ ang relasyong binuo natin/ ng magkasama?/ Bakit mo nagawang tapusin/ ang ugnayan natin?/ Ngunit ngayon naiintindihan ko na/ kung bakit ka nakipaghiwalay sa akin:/ dahil nakuha mo na pala ang matagal mo nang hinihingi sa akin, dahil nakuha mo na pala ang gusto mo:/ ang sirain  at iwan ako/ pagkatapos **** pakinabangan at gamitin.// Noong araw na hinatid mo ako hanggang sa dulo ng kalsada,/ lumingon ako sa direksyon mo/ at nagbabakasakali/ na baka,/ sakali lang naman/ lilingon ka pa/lilingunin mo pa ako/ at tatakbo ka papunta sa akin at yayakapin ako,/ susuyuin ako na huwag kang iwan pero hindi na pala dahil mas pinili mo na lamang na maglakad palayo sa akin/ ngunit hindi na pala./ Kahit gulong-gulo ang isip,/ napag-desisyunan kong/ huwag nang bumalik pa/ sa piling mo.//
Pero nararamdaman ko na lang/ ang mga hawak mo/ na para bang namamaalam ka na,/ ang mga yakap **** dahan-dahan nang nanlalamig,/ ang mga titig **** unti-unti/ nang umiiwaas/ at lumalayo/ hanggang sa nawawalan na ng liwanag ang dati **** kumikislap na mga mata/ at para bang ito na ang huling araw nating pagkikita,/ ang mga ngiti ****/ pilit mo na lang/ na nginingiti,/ ang mga salita **** ang tipid at ang ikli na,/ sa daan na aking nilalakaran palayo sa iyo ay kumipot at biglang umikli,/ ang mga paghawak mo sa mga kamay ko/ na para bang gusto mo nang bumitaw/ sa aking mahigpit na pagkakakapit sa iyo/ at sa mga daan/ na aking nilalakaran papunta at pabalik sa iyo/ ay biglang humahaba at nililigaw ako.//
Bakit ko pa ba pinaniwalaan/ ang mga matatamis na salitang nanggaling sa iyong sinungaling/ at hindi mapagkatiwalaang bibig/ gaya ng “mahal kita”,/ “ikaw lang”/ at “hindi kita iiwan”./ Ganun ba?/ Alam ko naman na parte lamang iyan ng mga gasgas na linyang iyong binitawan/ at aking pinanghawakan noong mga sandaling ikaw ay akin pa,/ noong mayroong ikaw at ako pa,/ at noong mga araw na mahal pa natin ang isa’t isa./ Pero ngayon ang salitang ikaw at ako ay marahil naging bulong na lamang pala sa hangin/ at pati ikaw ay tinangay na rin sa akin./ Kaso Tanong ko lang,/ kung iisa tayo,/ bakit mo nagawang pagkaisahan ang damdamin ko?/ Saan nga ba ako nagkulang?/ Saan nga ba ako nagkamali?/ At bakit mo ako iniwan ng ganito?/
Oo nga pala, bigla kang Nawala nang parang bula at nagmumukha na akong tanga kakahanap sa iyo kahit saan,/ at ayun! Nahanap nga kita/ kaso nasa piling ka na pala ng ibang babae./ Sobrang saya mo nga noong kasama mo siya,/ tila ang iyong pagngiti at pagtawa ay nag-iba,/ iba noong ako pa ang kasama mo at noong mga araw/ na nakikita ko pa/ ang mga ngiti’t galak sa iyong mga mata./ Ngunit pinilit kong lumayo/ kahit na alam kong mahirap,/ sinubukan kong palayain ka/ kahit na alam kong hindi ko kaya/ pero ginawa ko para sa ikakatahimik nating dalawa./
Hindi na kita hahabulin pa/ dahil alam kong matagal na tayong wala,/ dahil matagal ko nang kinalimutan ang dating ikaw at ako/ at ang dating tayo./ Ngunit, mahal batid kong hanggang dito na lamang tayo/ dahil susubukan ko nang ililibing sa limot/ ang lahat ng mga nangyari/ at mga pangyayari sa Buhay natin./ Paalam,/ Nagmamahal,/ Mahal.//

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