I came back to my genesis
Back to hazy house of my past
Where my family still grows
And mem'ries still flow
Many strong and fast

But something's just not right
In this place I should belong
Every "familiar" feels so different
Like hollow, empty imprints
And on top of all the wrong

Here I feel claustrophobic.

What a sad thing
That she fears compliments from men
Because one or more of them
Made her feel unsafe
For all they said she was

You will never find a simple person
They simply don't exist
Everything you learn
Adds another turn
To the maze of their subconscious

You can never adore a simple person
For contrast is reality
It's the victories they've squandered
And the way they've pushed onward
That makes them truly lovely

He wanted to prove his love
So he shot down a star for me
But it must have fallen far away
Because I waited a long time
In the darkness he left behind
And now? I only wish he'd come back.

Why are you hollow
If you love me?
                                              
                          Because you'll never        
                             love me equally

Why leave if you
really want to stay?

                          Because I need you to    
                                fade back to 2D

Why do you not
want our reality?

                           Because you're just    
                                  a beautiful
                                     fantasy.

.....Do you really
think this will work?

                             .....I don't know,
                              but I have to try  
                                   something

Oh how, how can I help you see?

That you were never a bucket full of holes
But a watering can

That you never dragged me down
You were my anchor

That you weren't spinning out of control
You were a compass

That you didn't fail because you fell
You were a shooting star

And you were everything I wished for

You called for me, asked me to find you

and I looked

But I never found you

Because I was looking for the man
you told me you were

Too bad he doesn't exist

This moment I wouldn't change,
Is worth all the moments I would change
And I'd keep every one of them
And live the awful all over again
For just one more moment like this

Yellow coats and squeaky shoes
Butterfly nets and umbrellas blue
These are best for hunting frogs

Quiet giggles and smiling friends
Tall water reeds and river bends
These are best for finding frogs

Slippery mud and misty rain
Grassy tumbles and many stains
These are best for catching frogs

Slimey fingers and careful grips
Awed, sweet glances and grinning lips
These are best for holding frogs

Happy tears and soft goodbyes
Brand new name and darkened sky
These are best for freeing frogs

Death is like the wind

Unexpected, shocking every time
Cold to the bone, affecting every life
Quick as a flash or slow as a sigh
Brings tears to stinging eyes
Always there in the fall
Bound, in the end, to freeze us all

I don't know what to write today
I didn't do anything

Well, then go do something
That's worth writing about

So I lived a life
Worth remembering

Sometimes

Questions clog the air
Suffocating hard truths

While

Silences waits for you
To be ready to speak your mind

Crazy     Sick
Struck   Blind     
Madly   Falling

Terrible to imagine until we look again
Through rose-colored glasses

Kindness silences suffering
It binds up the untrusting heart
And sings hope back into life

What are you waiting for?
Life changers, society shakers
Don't need to wait for something more

Strike that match and start a fire
One that catches in everyone's hearts
One that lives to inspire

Don't wonder any longer
Just jump and ***** the warning label
You were ALWAYS stronger

Bold colors fade, not disappear
Bright lights go out,
Long before their glow clears

Let the next generation
Grow up in a world where they
Never knew the absence of your creation

I have to stay awake


While my eyes stay open

I am in control

But when my eyes close

My memory is maestero


Right now she's in a rage

Drowning in the sorrow

Burning in injustice

Unwilling to wait 'til tomorrow


But I have to wait because

Right now if these memories play

My demons will win

And I'll waste away


So I have to stay awake

I know you're hurting
I'll take it all, tell me everything
Every scar, every terror
And we'll cry together
For every bleeding wound

You worry of ruining my life
By pulling me into the night
But I walk in willingly!!
For the world without you (truly)
Would be one of shadows anyway

You said, "I love what you wrote"
But they were more than words

They were my apart of my soul made visible
A corner of my mind made accessible

So I heard, "I love your soul"
And my heart felt full

if every moment is a chance to create
a time to grow, a moment to make
then why do I wait for another time
to make the dream me truly mine

He had the sun in his smile
And a black hole in his heart
And you never knew which would win

He wore the stars like a sweater
And their heat kept him warm
In place of all the people he never let in

He laughed with the northern lights
And sung as they danced
While you thought him again

Phasing through life like the moon
Waxing, wanning, full, and new
With a cratered mind within, because

Loving him is like a shooting star
You wish with hope for a chance
Knowing you'll fall and burn up in the end

A woman sat here,
To ponder radiation

A priest sat here,
In prayer for his congregation

A soldier sat here,
Cradling ammo and gun

A knight sat here,
His maiden's hand finally won

A Roman sat here, proud
Of building this wall

And I sit here, watching
Past and present revolve

Pondering how this wall
Stood here in every story
As a silent sentinel

The sky cried
The day I realized
With all the goodbyes
I'd lost my will to rise

All I'd trusted were gone
Three had moved on
Two had withdrawn
One had played me like a pawn

I began to rome
Soul broken and alone
Heart as cold as chrome
Realizing I had no home

A Fairytale Opening Of perfect Love
All Forgiving Offenses, Opaque Lenses

Until

All Fault On me, Offering peaceable Lies
And Feeling Outcast as Opposed to Lover

So I leave broken, having learning a lesson
I was A FOOL for loving you

Sometimes I walk by the world
Every note-worthy thing left unsaid

Until I remember it costs me
Nearly nothing to brighten someone's day

You must be an angel or a miracle

'Cause you're always there when I need you

You don't know how loved that makes me feel

Our moments are places
That belong to you and me.
Ones hidden better
Than any treasure

For only you and I
Can ever come back here
And relive this world
We built together

I drank the ocean,
Down to the very last drop
But I still feel empty

I stand on the sun
Blind and burning
But the shadows inside remain

I watch the stars turn
In the black of the night
And see my heart reflected

I pick up my brush
to a paint a master piece
I work on my art
While my art works on me

I paint a women on white
While outside of my focus
The paint holds the brush
And stains me into a canvas

●●●●
There are too many darks clouds today
●●●○
So I turn on sunny-sounding music,
●●○○
Close my eyes,
●○○○
And dream of summer
○○○○

I feel therefore I write
Write until I understand
It doesn't turn the wrongs to rights
But peace is the ink that stains my hands

Maybe I can't change the world
But I can change how I see it
And no one can take that from me

So I choose to see the good

Perhaps I am a victim of circumstance
But then why would I give away more
And let another decide how I will react

So I choose to laugh in the rain

Instead of adding to it

Ready player one?
Hit start, the game has begun
Taking every shot
Anxiety on the rocks

Getting tired of beginning
Favorites are boring
Color, season
Music, the reason

Until that lucky jump
Finally leveling up!
And then talks get deep
And every fall is steep

Every tiny victory
Building false security
Three lives left, failure far
Talking of houses, kids, and cars

Standing at the threshold
At the final stronghold
Armed with a ring
Fearing nothing

Then he pulls the cord
The connection felt goes cold
Hope without substance
It's just you and the ashes

Robbed of even a game over
You restore the game's power
As a level one encore
That still dreams of the highest score

I thought I was smart enough
Not to fall back in the same hole
So why am I here again? Why,
Do I keep ripping up my own soul?

"Have hope, don't give in"
but here I am again, burned
Stop telling me you care,
I'm tired of watching your back, turned

I'll never belong with you, that's the lesson
Maybe this time, I'll have actually learned

Nobody wants broken people
Their cracks keep them from holding
A job, a love, a life together

Their sharp edges
Hurt the ones who try to hold them from
Giving in, giving up, falling apart

And while they try to fix themselves,
The world moves on, holding its head high
Missing the misery at its feet

Do you think it hurts more
To suffer in silence,
when an answer is possible?

Or to finally speak up,
to not be understood and
return to a quiet sigil?

I stepped away from the world
To fill the holes in my soul

Only to come back to find
Your life in ruin and strife

I tried to help but you
Couldn't comprehend where I'd been

...So we parted ways...

But sometimes I wonder
How you'd have fared, if I'd been there?

If maybe...it was my fault