Gentle fingers that touched me from bottom to the top
trying to ******* to you without a slop;
inch by inch.. moment by moment...
not worried if I am committing a sin that has no atonement..
my eyes yearning for your mesmerizing hazelnut eyes;
my nose trying to sense your manly cologne,
and my heart surreptitiously trying to listen to your breath..
a moment that I can die for or the only reason to live for..
Everything disappeared, when I regained my senses
to realize that you are miles apart with someone else..
And here I am still struggling to be not myself..

I am the star that you can admire but cannot reach,
I am the flower whom you can adore but not beseech;
I am the shadow that follows you, but cannot live with you,
I am the 'touch me not', come near me, I will withdrew;
Because I do not know who you are, I do not trust your avatar,
pardon me, I still live with a broken heart from my past
haven't gotten over all the harass;
Still cannot feel love, sorry for being stoic,
but I can come out of the cave, can start my life with you as a Novick;
Not hungry for money or power or position
will sincerely abide by all your traditions;
Just tell me that you love me till my wrinkles,
will share forever my giggles, jingles, and dimples

I counted seconds, minutes, hours, days and months since the time you left..
I wished every morning to become evening and every evening to become night..
I started reading zodiac signs and crystal *****..
Now...
I am a firm believer of life after death..

Red roses everywhere,
Valentine messages are in the air;
Wrapped presents are catching couples glares,
Don’t you worry
Your memories are safe in my tears
wish you were here and not just in my prayer

The road I take no more matters
world drowned in silence with no more chatters;
what's the point of picking and choosing,
when every moment with out U is only bruising.

I no longer yearn for your broad shoulders hug when someone hurts me,
I don’t look for your caressing words which used to give me the strength to fight the world;
When I am upset, I don’t look forward to hear -‘are you okay?’anymore..
Yes, I am learning to live without you..

I don’t want to smile
I don’t want to laugh
Because you are no more with me and without you all smiles are lifeless

I don’t want to drive
I don’t want to listen to music
Because you are not with me and I scared that every song that I will listen to, will remind me of you

I don’t want to talk to people
I don’t want to make new friends
Because you are not with me and I am scared that they too will leave me like you..

I don’t want to travel
I don’t want to go places
Because you are not with me and I am scared of replacing your memories with new ones

I don’t want to drink coffee
I don’t want to make that cold brew anymore
Because without your company, no amount of caffeine can give me a kick

Not sure why, without you nothing seems to be right, nothing seems to be good.

When I walk in the sun, you come to me like a cool breeze
When it is night, your memories are the that appease;
Your preaching's stand strong with me in hard times,
All I ever wanted to achieve is to follow your paradigms;

When you smile, the whole world stops to stare at you..
When you talk, universe just stands still to hear you..
When you walk, whole crowd just moves apart to give you a way..
You are special and you are amazing, just the way you are..

I will not let a tear roll..because I know you will never be mine
I will not show my feelings ever.. because I don’t want you to surrender

I will never call you.. because I don’t want to know that I am ignored
I will never text you.. because I don’t want you to feel obliged

I will never miss you.. because you were never forgotten

Need no riches, nor mansions;
can sacrifice happiness for life;
I am a simple person; All I wish to see, is you smiling back at me

I can see your face even in a large crowd,
can hear your voice,when the music is loud;
so ran distant miles from your memories to live in an exile,
but failed to realize that my soul itself is trapped in your smile;

Cheeks turning pink to red and vine
gasping for breath with a blank mind;
smearing dried lips with my tongue,
hearing songs that were unsung;
forgetting what to vocalize,
unable to hide the reactions of the surprise;
experiencing stunning silence amidst crazy talks,
unable to **** the crazy gwak,
this is what your touch does to me,
a feeling that I never want to flee;