starchild

Jan 2018

Jae Elle

all ******* in a
gaze of satin
my god, does he know
what's happened?
& the tide is
rushing in

am I the sea or
the one who
waits beside it?

hell and heaven both
know that I'd
rather be a siren
dancing with graves
& secondhand glances
as I sing him toward
my waves

perhaps I was not meant
to save

so to hell with the sea
it's his fire that
I crave

Jan 2018

blushing prince

this is not a poem about lost friendships

I drink pink grapefruit flavored drinks
my face smells like the citrus
when I lose things and people
I change my hair
it helps me cope with the idea that I can never finish a stick of lip balm and most of the people I've known only yield disappointment
no one is at fault here
but the blame is usually pushed into my intestines
and I spend five days throwing up
I used to be afraid that I would never see the entire world
now I'm afraid I'll never spend enough time in a place I can call home
every morning the smell of grapefruit grows stronger

this is a poem about grapefruits

#tough #luck #love #ideas #thoughts #emotions #feelings #prose #friends #sick

starchild Jan 2018

Pain makes a monster

Every school is a top tent circus
everyone competing for a little fame
and at which I'm a freak
me and my friends were freaks
Were maniax

but everyone who is truly insane
has felt the true meaning of pain
we all have something that turned us into a monster

Sally she was *****
she was convinced it was a good thing
and she was used
to this day she still collects dolls
And she became a monster
and the man who used her never to be seen

Toby was made fun of and abused
he had these ticcs the mental disease
and kids at school always made fun of him
and his parents werent so nice to him either
he became a monster
And now everyone wished that they didn't mess with
Ticci toby

Jack was forgotten
he always wanted to make people laugh
and make them happy
but people were just mean to him
and he tried
but soon no one loved him
and everyone forgot about him
he became invisible
he became a monster
And everyone who made him forgotten
were only remembered as dead

jane was decieved
and alone
she was loved by a lot of people
but she lost everything
her parents
Her family
Her friends
And now she's our friend
And she's a monster
And everyone who took everything from her
Is long gone

hoodie was always stressed
people surrounded him
called him names
and made him sad
he always wore a hoodie
And now he goes by that name
He's no longer stressed
and now he's our friend
And a monster
And those who made him stressed
were no less alive then when hoodie was stressed

And those are my friends
I have more friends
each one just as diferent as the examples
I have given

What?
what's different about me?
Ooh well that's a fun story

Me?
I used to be a good kid
very nice I had friends
then everyone turned on me
Everyone bullied me
Everyone made fun of me
called me names
And so everyone made me a monster
And all these freaks are my friends

Were all freaks I this circus
And when the world gets a load of us
They'll look back and think
"Wow"

See all the freaks
Monsters
Crazy s
Maniacs
Were all like this
because others made us this way
They inflicted there
Pain
so we built up our walls
and our horns
Our claws
Our personality
And we became a monster

That others fear
Because they made us feel pain

And were all monsters
That are in pain

=)

starchild Jan 2018

Happy ending

I've been told to get over it
to just ignore the bitter hatred
to be happy
and I guess its about time

I've finally escaped the darkness
but I haven't been happy
I be written plenty of things
and none of them have been happy

I've been told to be happy
but how can I be happy
when all i know is sorrow
and heartbreak

but now I've realized
it is time to be happy!
I'm tired of letting them get me down
so now I'm getting told to be happy

and I say
"YES."

I have a small feeling it wont last long. =)

starchild Jan 2018

Staples

The other day I was told to stop throwing staples
       when I wasnt throwing them
                  they were falling
                          falling out of my skin
                                      Once they were all down my legs
                                                all along my arms around my waist
                                                     and all over my face
And most of all they kept me smiling
        and when someone hurts me they fall out
               I stapled my mouth so I could smile
                 and now they have fallen out
                        I'm afraid I won't smile
                              and everyone has turned and gasped in fear
                                     and I look in the mirror and my mouth
                                             its bigger and black and scarier
                                                 and everyone screams
" STOP SMILING!"
  "PLS STOP! YOUR SCARING ME!"
    and I look at all of them as the look away
           all the people who have bullied me and harmed me
                now screaming in fear... but I don't feel joy
                        I run and hide because there scared
                          and I sit in a dark corner and cry
                                 and I cry. not because I look like a monster
                                        but no one loves me for me
                                              that I'm alone in this dark world
                                                  and I look at all the staples
some blood stands and bent
          but I notice there are two staples remaining
                two staples struggling to hold together my broken heart
                       but suddenly I realize..... that I'm the way I am
                             and I pick up the stapler and say
                                    "its those who were mean to me who needs a    smile."

=) We don't need staples or stitches to help us smile. Just smile in the faces of the people who doubts you or bullied you and called you names. And you know that you get the last laugh.

starchild Jan 2018

Blind Love

There once was a blind girl who hated herself
because she was blind
she hated everyone but her loving boy friend

He wanted to marry her
but she said only if i could see you
and one day someone donated a pair of eyes so she could see

Then he proposed to her
but then she found out he was blind
So she said no

He ran away in tears
And he left her a note at her house saying
"Take care of my eyes dear, i love you."

So she ran back to him
but found out that he was already on a train to new york
she knew she couldn't get back to him

So she wishes she was blind
so she didn't have to see this awful world without him.

And they both never stopped loving

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