Decades have
Flown by
Where’s thee proof
Hindsight’s twenty twenty
Help me escape
Ashamed I couldn’t
Have done better
Defeated nothing new
Body traced
Where I lay
If only these walls could talk
Cold bones
False hope
As the lights gone dim
All secrets come to thee surface
Hearts in the flames
One eyes open
Thee others shut
Divided in half
Right down thee middle
Spiritual warfare begins
Spiraling tailwinds
Evil versus good
No neutral ground
As a tug of war ensues
Right and wrong
I’ve always known thee difference
Yet here I am
Maybe the part of me
That stopped caring long ago
Is too blame
For all this
But I point thee finger at others
Always will
This is what they helped create
Caving in
Not knowing which way to turn
A life not lived
Leaves one feeling empty
An impossible mind
Too decipher
Running ramped all over my soul

A never ending
Voice demons
That took over me
Tossing and turning
Stuck in a trance
Biting thee hand
That feeds
Thee lower I went
Thee hurt
Never seemed to fade
It fell continually
Buried me alive
Self inflicted
How thee hell could I not
After all I’d seen
I didn’t know
Any other way
Wanted to mask my pain
Numb to thee core
Afraid to face myself
In thee mirror
Straight insanity
Was unleashed
A dog that wouldn’t stop hunting
For peace of mind
A calming place to lay my head
Finally hit rock bottom
Awoke and fought an uphill battle
Years later reflecting
On living sober and clear headed
How refreshing
Realizing that I’m a survivor
Of a tragic past I didn’t deserve
I almost gave up on life  
But glad I didn’t
Thee almighty one
Had other plans in store for me

Hijacked
Irrational thinking
Heaven forbid
Kinder gestures
Sweet amazing grace
The uninvited guests
I surrendered too
This bloodsport has
Spilled enough blood
Taken enough prisoners
Evading
The trenches
Collapsed doom and gloom
No more harvest moon
Having it’s way
Time to rewrite my story
Alleviate the anxiety
Soften the blows
Make the lyrics
Speak quieter
Soak up my soul in sanity
Soil me in effervescent sunshine
Unpolished I have been
I don’t shine like gold
Few truly do
All the chitter chatter
Has gone to my head
In the smallest of increments
It doesn’t necessarily obliterate
Me to the core
Simple known truth
Behold the changing of thee guard
Maybe finally in progress

Because
it's invisible
it is indestructible -

because
it's metaphorical
it blunts the literal-

because
it's beyond words
it is indescribable -

because
it's boundless
it is immeasurable -

because
it's seamless
it's unstoppable -

because
love is mysterious
poets find it undefinable

One minute your here
At any moment your
Name could be called
Today is all we truly have
Tomorrow is a gift
Not a promise
Watching thee sunrise
And set is a blessing
Everything in between
Is a process
Life is what we make of it
A celebration like no other
Never forgotten
Every single moment
Of every day
You can’t put a price on it
Kindness genuine
Comes in many forms
Goes a long way
Has a everlasting affect
Better then most loved by many
If only you were still here today
A well that never runs dry
Thee impact you had surly was felt  
You’d be happy
Knowing just what a difference
Your time here truly meant
To others
You never know who or what
Might come along
Stop you dead in your tracks
And touch your heart
A like mindedness in this life
Deeply have an impact
Help alter your course
The little things are what matter most
That’s what life has taught
Me through the many trials
And tribulations
Who’s still standing by your side
Speaks volumes of who you are
Lend me your hand
And I’ll show you thee way
When someone speaks
All you’ve gotta do is listen
If only only for a moment
It may help lift your
Spirits up to greener pastures

I see that girl every day on the street,

Always laughing and jumping on the beats.

But no one knows what lies behind,

That smile that never reaches her eyes.  



She wishes one day someone asks,

How she is, instead of their burden of daily tasks.  

That smile behind that mask,

Wait, that's not a smile I see.

Maybe the smile was always a task,

But no one cared what was underneath.  

Maybe because the girl was me.