You look like five heartbreaks
A million forced smiles
A thousand sleepless nights
A few broken promises
A hundred pounds of tears streaming down unhealed scars

You look like a victim of insecurity
Running away from your own identity
Cheating on happiness with with lack of confidence
Your last lover force fed you pain and you accepted it
thinking it was the best it could get
Dated too many bad lovers, you now break cupids arrows
Been fooled too many times you can't tell what is fake or real

I write poetry
To make sure I still have feelings
Living in a numb world
where all of our emotions are hidden
While being force fed other people’s insecurity
No matter why normal feels like insanity
And real seems fake
I pray that my words save me

I know deep down she still has a heart that beats
But lately love feels so strange
cold and numb are her feelings  
beyond all the scars is a beautiful smile

her last lover buried her heart
he left her with a wrist full of signatures and a body full of insecurities
she is a product of failed relationships and broken promises  

If only she can let me love her
the way I know how to
if only she can let me heal her insecurities
if and only if she can let me in
then for this love
I am willing to give up all of me to gain all of her

But lately she feels distant
Every kiss misplaced
as if I am not her one and only
This feeling of numbness
leaves me feeling lonely
Wondering what happened to my lover
Is her heart being shared with another
Am I a victim of love or a hopeless romantic holding on to promises laced in beautiful kisses
Fake smiles, and cold hugs, counting down the time till she unwinds, walking on eggshells
Wondering when do I get to in hale while in hell
If only she knew how I feel

Emotions burning
heart pounding
as your fingertips leave mine
I hear your voice calling my name
in shock I am
last words that left your lips were "I am sorry, we cant be together"
I muster up the courage to tell you that "it's ok"
but deep inside I felt poison enter my veins
suffocating my soul were your words
as I was introduced to a new kind of pain
choking up on all the emotions I stood on weak knees
Feeling the sea breeze, as I felt my heart being squeezed  
Flashes of our sweet memories attacked my mind
I fought back the tears as the pain began to unwind
this is the beginning of the end and the end of the beginning

Written poetry on ***** walls
Cleaned by tears of critics views
who choose to destroy your existence
by breaking down your words
stealing your flow while sleeping with your metaphors
destroying your credibility
while attempting to darken your ability
hungry ego's seeking compliments
starve when you pay them no attention
causing tension due to starvation
power is never in the eyes of the writer
it lives in the imagination of the readers
perception filled minds clouded by emotions
thirsting for your reaction, while choking on your analogies
hungry egos must be fed or else.....

Cold nights
Souls drifting
Hearts beating  
Dream chasing
Echoes of wolves speaking
My ears listen while my hearts skipping
Fear befriends my lonely soul
It holds me hostage
As I sleep with these wolves
I remember the touch of sheeps
In pain I dive deep
Giving sorrow my soul to keep
Seeing that love is as sharp as these wolves teeth