I don't want to go
to heaven.
I just want to see
the sunset
reflect in your eyes
one last time.

Night scares me
It's full of memories
I hate the past
It reminds me of the death  
I remember the day she left me
It was so harsh
I hate the might
I want to forget
But, I can't
She was a part of me
She loved me
But,  now she becomes just a memory
I hate the night
I want to forget -not she of course  -
But, that she left me
I will never forget you

Maybe one day we both online and you actually text before me,
Maybe we'll cross that bridge when we come to it,
Maybe one one day i don't have to intrigue you to talk to me,
Maybe one day you will talk to me when you ain't just free,
Or maybe one day i fall out of love cause you aint even trying a quarter as hard as me
They say she is online but not for you.And I try to fool myself that she is just a tease

I keep wondering why
it’s so hard to be human
happiness is fleeting and
we can’t win against time
we chase after the sun only
to burn at the last second
we get attached to what
we will inevitably lose
we’re already at the mercy
of our own minds yet
we keep hurting each other
it’s so hard to be human and
I keep wondering why

I keep writing about you
day in and day out
I can’t help it
the words possess me
then keep me up at night
I’m jolted out of bed
just to breathe life
into these blank pages
now tainted with your name
verses about the way
you made me feel
stories about the love
that never existed

But what is it all for?
I look up and only your
o b l i v i o n
stares back at me