left to my own devices
taking not a **** word
of any good advice
my mind can get absurd

I think you scare me so intensely
because you flow so smooth
I can't think of you lightly
because you are all I have to lose

surprising me like no other can
the way I feel I just can't get a grasp
but I wish you would take a stand
for my patience never lasts

cautious to lay bare my thoughts
encumbered in my awkwardness
like molasses,* you thicken the plot
simply making this version of me the best.

Sometimes I still feel like that little girl
Who felt so alone on the top of the hill
Quiet as she watched his fury unfurl
As the snow fell not letting him ****
Himself to finally purge his sins
Thought he had the answers,
He could leave with pride
But with a kick start surprise
Her eyes are where this begins
Just a little sigh, the tiniest whimper
She cried "what about me?"
If she had killed you this might be easier
But love is love, and never that simple
It's bigger than us, so we have to make way
To the questions before us, every new dawning day.

I thought I knew once what I wanted
but then you went away
all I can do is keep moving, try my best
but confusion is all that's left

Why do you have be so enticing

as if no time has passed at all

almost like here I am to wait for you

it's not fair, but I'll ******* fall

Missing the daisies between my fingers
kissing the static that still lingers
happy and tortured of the unknown
terrified yet completely bold

No one can blame you

but my heart is all your fault

coming to life with a tick tick tick

the treats or trick will be soon found

That secret smile betrays its hiding place
twitching the corners of my lips
the back of my mind screams no sound
my patience drip, drip, drips...

Let’s dream of a place,
In between spaces of space
In this whimsical hour
Watch how time devour,
Our lyrical tryst
Amidst the winter mist

Sharing dream amid the flowers
for a couple of hours
The dreams in which I'm dying
Or rather just denying
Deluding the petty mind
Of the worldly grind

It’s a beautiful day
So dazed, we just lay
Birds and bees won’t disturb us,
While our thoughts turn incongruous
We’ll forget that we are even real
It’ll all be too surreal.

You open your eyes to say
Out comes only a pray
Slowly the dusk beckons
Breaking your heart it’s gone;
Gasping desires
Dreams on a pyre.

You try to act all tough with pride
Yet what you are is dead inside
These little things they shouldn't matter
But they will leave you bruised and battered
Smelling the threat that leaves you strained
All the while messing with your brain
Telling you a million lies
Making you wish you could still cry
Blaming the world and not yourself
Leaving your worries on a shelf
The secret is it's all your fault
Never thought you would get caught
Your insignificance, fear of rejection
Then you stop to look at your reflection.
You are what I am.
I am what you are.
We are one and the same.
You can't run that far.