Things happen
In mysterious ways
Like what had happened
Just earlier today

When listening to
The Stickers
Live
And upbeat

I felt this
Muse
That made me
Complete

It has been a long time
My dear friends
But I still have some things
That have to be said

Shout out
To the lead singer named Joe
Who said follow your dreams
Because anything is possible
As long as you believe

I'm like a present- on Christmas
Only good for a month or two
What were you thinking?
Pretending-that I was wanted
Toying with my emotions

I am done-
Hiding
I am putting everything
On the line

I'm tired
Of being put last
So tired
Of being thrown away

I am not
Some piece of trash
I will be rebuilt
Ash by ash

God is in me
and he will never leave
because anything is possible
as long as you believe

"Stay joined to me,
and I will stay joined to you."
because God's love
is unconditionally true.

His love-
a crystal spring
bigger and brighter
than any other thing.

A necklace
I hold close and dear
In memory
Of someone I lost last year

Beautiful
As far as the eye can see
But it means
So much more to me

Appreciate
Every second of life

Because

you never know
when you might die

Our bodies were close to touching;
but to some that means nothing,
he looked in my eyes,
and I quickly realized that time easily flies by

this weekend wouldnt have been the same,
if their wasn't a flame,
got his digits on Friday,
we were bestfriends on Saturday

as we walked and talked about our latest regrets,
and told eachother about the times we thought we were done,
but now we collide as one

sentences we could not finish on our own,
the other finished,and we knew we were never alone

picked up and thrown away,
those things damaged me day by day,
but I am reminded to stay strong,
and hope that nothing else will go wrong

I was told to let go,
step back and go with the flow,
I will get my chance in the spot light ,
but for now I will continue to fight

show people who I really am,
show them that God does have a plan,
I know I couldn't do this on my own,
I look back on the past and saw my growth

but for now I- let go

It seems like just yesterday
That you left my life
But this is the second time
But I guess I am satisfied
Since you at least remembered to say good bye

Now if only some one would tell you
How much I miss seeing your name
Pop up on my computer screen
At any given time of the day

I guess things are never
Meant to last forever
And I guess that it is a little too late
For closure

Since you deleted me
From your precious life

the words I speak,
rose up from their grave,
tonight they became my slaves,
I used to think that I was just so week
Now I let my soul pour out

the words I write,
they might not make everyone happy,
I used to feel ******,
I'm not holding back tonight

I will release the wind with-in me,
tonight I will stand my ground,
through this I will be found,
these words set me free

No words to explain,
what poetry is in anyway,
the thought trapped inside,
you are the only one that knows the reason why

Poetry comes from the heart,
it is a unique piece of art,
Different than another,
Poetry un-wraps what is hidden underneath your cover.

I was looking forward
To be in your arms again
But I guess things don't always go
How they are planned

But I always-look forward
To tomorrow
Because things happen-
Almost Instantaneously

The way you pulled me
Into you arms- that day
You put me in a trance

I can't wait to tell you
How much you mean- to me
When I am in your arms again
I will get the chance

I don't want a
diamond ring
I don't care
about the bling

all I want
is someone
that could
hold me close

I go to sleep
at night
with no one
by my side

when the
Sun rises
I am
still walking alone

what I would
do
to have you
here

when I
need you the most
and when
you need me

my insecurities
keep creeping
In
and keep
tearing my heart
into pieces

until there is
nothing
but ashes
left
of me

I had your back
Through it all
I was blinded
When you let me fall

What kind of friend were you?
What kind of friend were you?

A knife, in the back
Is all you'll ever be
But you
Will never get the best of me

Another chapter of my life gone
With no regrets-
Because who knows
What I'll find

He sits there and tells me that he needs me,
But the way he acts at times. I would have to say that I disagree,
Says he regrets the day when we broke up,
The fighting begins to erupt

He still means the world to me,
But even after all of this I dont know what we will end up to be,
I really miss the guy I once knew,
Hidden behind the covers . i am hoping that he will shine through

I don't want anything for Christmas,
as long as people show happiness,
that will be just fine with me,
as long as there is a present under every child's Christmas tree

I don't want any child to be left behind,
baby you never know what you might find,
my biggest wish might come true,
because what am I without you

I can't wait to be in your arms at night
Kiss with every goodbye
Can't wait to look in your eyes and say
That I want to be with you every day

The day when you get down on one knee
And slip on a ring
Will be the best day for me
The day my soul was set free

Thank you for everything
You mean everything to me <3

You are beautiful,
Incredible,
You came in to my life,
And i finally thought that I could survive

with out him I'd feel useless,
And stupid

but baby he isn't like every other guy,
And I won't ever let him say goodbye

Broken heart repaired once more,
Whether or not you find it again I cant say for sure
but the day you find someone that will change your life,
You feel suddenly alive

friendships come and go but this will always stay,
I cant say  that everything will be okay,
Things do happen and hearts do get broken,
Reality hits and you are suddenly awoken

the truth behind love lies within,
Where it all begins,
It doesn't matter who you are,
It never really is that far

a window
sealed
by a wall
of bricks

there is
no means
of escape

I am
surrounded
by strangers
who haven't bothered
to find out
my name

I have tried to
escape
but I won't accomplish
anything
that way

I will
prove you wrong
I am worth more than this

I deserve more
than this
you just watch
and see

what I'm
capable of

sitting here in the depths of dead silence,
want to cry but reply with kindness,
waited for so long,
waiting for you to come along

we talked about it a long time ago,
as you get older you learn to go with the flow,
I sit there and look into the distance,
and wonder if he even knows of my existance

he knows that something is wrong,
he tells me to be strong,
as he slowly wraps his arms around me,
I know where I belong

a guy
I thought, I knew
but it turned out-
that I never had a clue

thought that we
could stitch up
the broken pieces
but who was I kidding?

glad we
moved on
you were-
the reason
things went so wrong

and

it was time for you-
to get gone

A break
From reality
A step
Away from insanity

Peace and quiet
A healthy state of mind
I'm not missing
What I've left behind

A quick glance
At the scenery
I am finally aware
Of the world around me

"I am sorry"
are nothing but empty words
that mean nothing at all
to me

it is the same ****
every day
nothing will ever change
you will always be
the same

why do I even try?
You will never see
the fault in your ways
you will always be
the same

no matter what
I say
it never gets through
to you

you know how
it makes me feel
like I am
all alone
like I am
second

you will always be
the same
so
get out of my way

They light up when you look my way,
And when you come closer they fade away,
Knowing that you will never see me,
I walk away and let it be

My eyes change colors from bright green to gray,
Knowing that in the end I will be the one to pay,
If only you would take the time to look into my eyes,
You would know that beautiful girls never tell lies

Do not expect me
To do your job for you
You have two capable hands
You have two capable feet

So walk yourself over there
And do it yourself

It is one thing
If you are busy
Another thing
If you are just being lazy

I have things that
I need to get done
And I won't be letting you
Have any fun

They say
"let there be light"
but all I see
is darkness

corruption
in the hands
of those
I was supposed to trust

now I know
that they
are no different
than anyone else

they will
discriminate
just like the rest

but I
will not stop
until I am
the very best

clouds swirling up in the sky above me
depression
like a funnel
waiting to devour me

to conquer me
to finish me off

in the end
would it even matter?

A waste
of precious space
Getting in
your way

Although a
Part of me
Wishes you would ask me
to stay

I don't want to fight anymore
why should i even try?

but
I am not fighting
this alone

I have to
remain strong
for all the people
I love