Well I'm crashing, barely breathing
The feeling I've lost all control
On the driver's seat, but who's driving?
I'm sitting slowly losing my soul
You told me it would get better
Told me to give it some time.
Is it time enough now though,
Now that I'm bleeding out in rhyme
Flipping over and over again
While broken shards of memories lost
Burn through my bleeding brain.
Crashing and turning over again
While sounds of sirens drown me out
Driving me insane
Yet the impossible promises never stop
"You're going to be okay"
I'm gasping and drowning for air
While you're begging me to stay
So close to the end
And I never felt more alive
I just took a shortcut out
Of this never-ending drive
"...in a major accident..."
And the voices are drowned out by chimes
Because the only mistake I ever made
Was struggling to live all this time
So what's so bad about that?
I'l never see the finish line
But there was nothing waiting for me there anyway
Except a simple "dead end" sign
A poem I dug up from about a year ago but still gets my feelings right today
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