radiating love body
light being
form flowing
flavorlessly
as if needed,
expected in order
to sustain life
it is quenching
a thirst, it fills
your lungs with
life, breathing, it
pulsates, it rocks
back and forth, it
goes in and out, it
spirals all about and
it takes its time because it
loves its time because time
is all it has and all it has is all
it is and all it is, is all it feels
and all it feels is all it knows.

I have this dream of a,
blood orange sky rippling
Down through the cracked window pane,
Of this crumbling house.
The faint sigh of faded beauty
Resonates among these chipped walls.
We walk there down
the boulevard from when we were happy.
Yet all I can feel is the fleeting feeling, I felt when
your lipstick stained
my cheek for the
final time.

the girl staring back at me,
standing tall trying to keep the tears back,
as she stood disgusted with her body.
she didn't have visible scars,
she had mental scars.
she covered her body as much as she could so that no one could see ,
she believed she was overweight,
she didn't tell anyone that she starved herself
or that she throw up to make it go away,
because she keeps her secrets locked away
for no body to see.

Another waste of space
Another knot
Another fake face
A smile beginning to rot
Another reflection
On a cracked and dusty mirror
Another unlearned lesson
Through trail and error

Another grain of sand
Swallowed by the sea
Another wilting ****
Bowing to a tree
Another planted seed
That will never be

Another worm
Devoured by a bird
Another melody
To never be heard
Another gem
Vehemently deterred

"How do you cut?"
You know when you were little and you ate those pop rocks, and you'd place them all at once on your tounge.
That feeling whe they go down your throat, it hurts but you love it. The tingling deep down , seconds later it was gone?

When the cold razor touchs my pale warm wrist and thighs, I feel it pericing my skin. First you'll tear but as soon as the razor goes deeper the pain will drift as the blood slowly rushed out. You'll clean up and you'll walk back out and smile like it never ever happened.
Like the tingling its all over after a few

I should have been there,
to talk you out of it
but instead I wasn't and
you did what you regret
I should have been there
this mistake i will not forget
how can i earn forgiveness
for not talking someone
out of taking a blade to
their precious skin.