Tammie K: Poems

Sep 2016 · 582

Writing

Tammie K Sep 2016

Writing

The visuals in my head
Are too messy
Seeing it on paper,
Makes sense

I don't trust my heart
Not until it splatters its colors
All over my paper

Because until I put it on paper
I will hide it behind boxes
Forget me nots
Forevers

So I write

Sep 2016 · 3.9k

Girl

Tammie K Sep 2016

Girl

GIRL,
Your skin sings tributes to your ancestors
Those that even through noose
Fought for their freedom
Each vein and stretchmark
A tribute to the stripes of each whip

Your smile sings a sweet song
Of him who on the cross ended all struggle
Him who through lovingkindness, draws you in.
Girl, if only you knew, how more than enough you truly are!

Girl
You matter.
Because by the stripes of him that healed
You were made whole
Made anew.
And thus the debate ended,
you matter.

Girl.
Don't succumb to what society asks of you
Be it thick or slim
light as day nor
Dark as night
In Christ you are enough

Girl,
you are icecream on a sunny day
You are tender and brave
Redeemed and free
You are a mother of nations
You are God's beloved
Girl, you are everything.

#redeemed #girlpower

Jun 2016 · 346

Testament

Tammie K Jun 2016

Testament

I remember a time

I WAS the one being ******
I WAS the one who THREW the stones
I WAS even the Stones that were thrown

I WAS my own Judge, Jury and criminal

So I SKIPPED MY BAIL
RUN into his arms
SEARCHING FOR A PLACE TO CALL my Home
IMAGINE my surprise
WHEN In HIM I am no longer condemned
In HIS sacrificial love I have been bound

A 21ST CENTURY Saul to Paul
Through Christ's blood I am transformed
Reborn, ReWORKED by HIS WORKS
My story a new testament

And to this world I stand OUT

BUT In his arms I am the perfect FIT

In HIS arms I am HOME

Redemption feels like

May 2016 · 337

You

Tammie K May 2016

You

Round
And round
This cycle is an abyss

Falling
And falling
Pick me up
Make me smile
But I know better

Running
And running
From freedom
To captivity
Then back again

Chasing
Always chasing
A dream. A fantasy.
A happy ending for me and you.

Apr 2016 · 568

The fixer

Tammie K Apr 2016

The fixer

Put the pieces together
Glue them up just right
Stitches and bandaids
I can mend your broken heart

I won't cut myself on your jagged edges
I won't bleed out on your wounds
I won't run from your issues
I will fix your broken smile

I won't feed you empty truths
Won't tell you I'm not like the rest
Even though that is true
I won't tell you this won't hurt
Sometimes it will

After all
Chunks of your space have to fall
For you to see my shooting stars

Apr 2016 · 308

He

Tammie K Apr 2016

He

He has big dreams
big dreamy eyes
big dreamy lies
He has gold mines

He has issues
battles he is yet to overcome
steaming piles of baggage
He has dark sides

He has the gun
the bullet to start the war
the foolish heart from my sleeve
He has blurred lines

He has the buttons
pushes them with no secomd thought
takes it all and leaves me sore
He has many times

He has no control
it's all madness
complicated madness
He has it all

Thankfully, I have ME

Apr 2016 · 1.1k

**Trapped**

Tammie K Apr 2016

**Trapped**

I wasn't looking when you came around
Fingers crossed would you stay?
Letting life take its course
Would our paths cross again?
Only exposed to wasted time
Oh dear would you waste mine?
Very slow our pace
Good things come from the wait

The challenge left me breathless
Could I make you mine?
Rarely one to stick around
This time wasn't the same
Even through your storm
A little rain wouldn't ruin our parade

Over the hills and across the puddles
Was I in too deep?
But slow and steady you won my race
What more could I do?

Every single day bringing me bliss
What more could I ask for
Even the pain worth my while
**Oh boy was I trapped

#trapped #exes

Apr 2016 · 303

Enough

Tammie K Apr 2016

Enough

Tricky little thing
Oh but not too little
For that wouldn't be enough
And yet not too much
Lest we end up with more than enough

Such a thin line

So I find myself tiptoeing
And still,
Ending up on the wrong side
Too little when I try
Too much when I don't

I try too little
I trip too much
Don't pray quite as I'd like
Yet trust too much
Never quite in between

It's like enough cast me away
Decided to have nought to do with me
For enough I just don't do

Apr 2016 · 914

Hope

Tammie K Apr 2016

Hope

Substance of things unseen
Of children's dreams
Those believed for
Secretly yearned for
That of my beating heart

The hand that wipes these tears
Stills my ranting fears
Locks the monsters back in their closet
Rocks me back to sleep
That of my lonely whisper

The voice of lovers missed
The dancer with broken bones
The caged bird that still sings
The broken girl that still dreams
Keeps calm and carries on

Hope,
The lonely voice inside my head.

#poetry #words #hope #believe

Apr 2016 · 1.7k

If soulmates exist

Tammie K Apr 2016

If soulmates exist

If soulmates exist
I think it's an awful thing
How one person can own me
And have me know
There is no other
That fit quite like them

That every embrace
Just won't do
Not quite like theirs
And every breath I take
Without them
Is not quite the same
Not as full-filling

I mean think of the horror
Of comparing each moment
To each shared with them
Each laugh not quite as hearty
Each kiss not quite as breathless
Each encounter just not enough
For you could have more with them

I just can't comprehend
How nobody else will do
Not quite enough
So in everyone
I spend the moments
Looking for them
Waiting for them
Wondering if I passed them
Maybe in the street
Or in a bus somewhere

So if soulmates exist
I am afraid
I don't want to meet mine

#soulmates

Mar 2016 · 472

Oh East her

Tammie K Mar 2016

Oh East her

I struggled
I hurt
I put on a brave face
I pretended
Carried my burdens
Boy were they heavy
I could carry no more
Reset button

I found peace
I find it everyday
Unconditional love
Wrapping it's arms around me
It conquered all
I never fear
Grace is here

So I believe
Eyes on the promise
How ever foggy it may be
To some I seem blind
But the visionless will not see
That HE lives in me

#christianity #easter #helives

Mar 2016 · 287

Familiar stranger

Tammie K Mar 2016

Familiar stranger

I am every beautiful sunset
I am that awkward first kiss
I am that sweaty handhold in the back of the movie theater
I am that first glance
the one that steals your breath
trapped in time
I am that shy giggle
I am every love story

I am that steamy night
gasping for your breath
screaming more
I am that perfect symphony
every note from your body
a perfect tune
I am that echo
That silence
That beautiful peak
I am that ******

I am the one you never forget
the one you never met
I am the one you believe exists
I am the one that keeps you awake at night
I am the one of your dreams
The one in your dreams
I am the one you wait for

I am the one you look for
In every gaze
In every kiss
In every touch
In every embrace

You haven't met me
Yet
I am the one you long for.

Mar 2016 · 545

A little something on forever

Tammie K Mar 2016

A little something on forever

I used to believe in her,
Forever
Until life through her tantrums
Left me sore
It couldn’t possibly exist

After all
Who could bear it
Such commitment
With no life boats in sight

Half the planet seemingly oblivious
Unheeding vessels
The other half simply not worthy
Such imperfect vessels
None a vessel to pour myself into,
Forever

But see my eyes couldn’t see
Beneath the charm
Forever sounded so surreal
So calm and collected
So perfect

Until she opened my eyes
The bottomless pit
Forever
Revealing all, but barely enough
The entire time screaming
I am not synonymous with perfect
Perfect is boring

I am painful chaos
Sweet forgiveness
Soft magic
And more
Tag along
We have forever to find out

#forever #random #musings

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