I found myself stuttering yesterday...
clumsily tripping, fumbling,
over words.
The explanation of my whereabouts -
in question.
Like a guilty child.
Awareness then anger emerge.
irritated, indignant hostility.
That I would allow this again -
over and over and over again…
Trying to account for every moment beneath suspicious eyes. Groundless guilt rising up, as I choke, words broke and unspoke
- while the little voice in my head screams "I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!"
conditioned (kənˈdɪʃənd) adj
1. (Psychology) psychol of or denoting a response that has been learned. Compare unconditioned
2. (foll by to) accustomed; inured; prepared by training
un·con·di·tioned (ŭn′kən-dĭsh′ənd) adj
1. (Psychology) psychol characterizing an innate reflex and the stimulus and response that form parts of it. Compare conditioned1
2. (Philosophy) metaphysics unrestricted by conditions; infinite; absolute
3. without limitations; unconditional
