What is this aching feeling in my heart - no,
not aching, I refuse to acknowledge that he has
an effect on me
He
What a simple, 2 letter word
How nice
it is to see him reduced to that for
he really is
nothing more than that right?
To me?
I don’t even like him
He’s not my type
Then why do I let him occupy my mind?
Why do I wait for him to light up
my blank screen?
Why do I write a poem after seeing him
with another girl?
Let go.
I care about this more than I should.
I want him just because he’s wanted.
I put in effort when he only deserves my
minimum.
I know my worth. Do
I?
Are these signs? Have they been here
all along?
Becoming a ghost is easy
But suddenly it isn’t
What
Why
do I hold out hope ?

Why am I so stuck on you?
Because you fit all my standards
Because I saw great potential in us
Because we have such a great chemistry

Why did it end?
I can't put it all into words
You said I overwhelmed you
Gosh, how I wish I could take all those overly personal questions back

Why didn't I think about what I wanted to say before I said it?
Because I'm impulsive
Because I have trust issues
Because your answers determined if I would be able to let my guard down

Why did you leave?
Because you're emotionally unavailable
Because I'm too much for you
Because maybe, just maybe, there was someone else