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This safe little bubble
is about to
P O P!
You better watch out,
or the beasties will get you
They’ll dig in their teeth and you’ll
S C R E A M
No one, no one, no one can hear you SCREAM!!!!
Isn’t it so sad?
You cry, but no one sees the saltwater sorrow streaking your face
and they just can’t hear the sound of your heart
thudding to a sudden stop
as your body goes numb
Blissful numb, can you stay in the dark?
“No, no, no!”
The voice attacks and digs electric probes into your chest
ZAP!
“Wake up!”
ZAP!!
“Wake up!”
ZAP!!!
“Please, please, please, wake up!”
But I’m in so much pain,
you try to say
Can’t you see this is easier than trying to stay?
Oh, no, I didn’t want to hurt you this way!
Fresh tears f
a
l
l
d r i p p i n g on the floor like the blood just did
Your blood, keeping you warm and alive and feeling and hurting
and you didn’t want to feel anymore
So you forgot that you had a heart and soul
You forgot that you hold so many hearts in your hands
You forgot that someone still cares
You forgot that someone still needs you there
You forgot
how to
breathe.
The machine breathes for you as you open your eyes
The golden sunlight pokes through the blinds
Highlighting the face of the one who holds you dear
Fast asleep, but face still screaming fear
And you realize why you still live:
You still hold someone’s heart in your hands,
and you must never, ever let it fall
and shatter against the cold concrete
Where chalk lines told you where to jump
Where the neighbor’s dog died after you pulled his crushed body out of the road
Where a fresh first kiss shocked your heart, and more followed after
And where you tried not to cry as you said one more goodbye
How long ago was that, that last goodbye?
Hello and goodbye,
you suddenly start to cry
The sunlight lights up the opening eyes
Of the one you hold dear
The one whose heart you still hold
Oh, you’re so glad
to say hello.
“I’m here.”
this one ended up being pretty emotional...which is how I was feeling when I wrote it. I didn’t originally intend for it to take this direction, but most of my poems end up writing themselves, and that’s what this one did.
i’ve been seeing so many friends online struggling with depression, and feeling worthless because their boyfriend/girlfriend left them or hasn’t talked to them in a while or said something that seems to imply a breakup in the near future, and it makes me so sad to see so many people my age (teenager) struggling so much and already giving up on life when they’ve barely given it a chance. i do know what it’s like to struggle with those feelings, anyone who’s read my poems from the past year and a half knows that. i do understand how it feels to want to give up, to yearn for numbness, darkness, a place free of pain.
but i also know how it feels to find hope again, how it feels to be saved. i know that staying strong is worth the tears and the fears, it’s worth the pain. i dealt with the pain, and i didn’t give up, and as a result i literally bumped into the love of my life. because of him, i have hope again, i have a reason to live that isn’t fear, and i have a brighter future.
so, for those of you who are struggling, for all the people both young and old who are having a hard time finding joy and hope, don’t give up now. keep searching for the light. no matter how dark your world is right now, you can always find light again if you just keep searching. you can’t give up on it, because it could be right in front of you when you least expect it. i know that from first-hand experience. stay strong and live on.
