i am secretly in love with you
but i do not want to say to you
I feel it silly to say to you.
that i loved you always, and do still
if not love, it is what near to love
but this does not let me say to you
cause i feel i do not behove you
POEM ON SOMEONE WHOM THE MORE I KNOW, THE MORE SHE DOES NOT KNOW. I M STILL WANDERING WHETHER SHE IS ABSOLUTE OR CONCRETE. BUT I HAVE HER IN THIS WORLD.
Your heartbeat is like the soundtrack to my soul and everytime I hold you close I don't want to let you go in fear of forgetting the rhythm.
But you have no idea.
You make me feel so much.
You make me crave every part of you, like an addiction I'm not quite ready to be cured of.
And will I ever?
It matters not at all to you.
Interferes with your life in no way and you love it.
I know you love that I can't move on because if I could, where would that leave us?
Could you live with the knowledge I didn't love you anymore like I'm living with the knowledge you never did?
I'd be your plus one forever.
I'd be whatever you wanted me to be but the one thing I hate being is all that I am to you.
And what is a secret but something you are ashamed of?
I spend my life being second best and I'm forced to believe I deserve it.
Maybe I do.
But I'd evade every possible scenario that could make you feel like that.
I'd make you feel like the most important person in the world.
Because to me that's what you are.
You're so special.
I'd never hide you or lock you away.
I'd show the world how lucky I am to have you if you were mine.
And I'd make sure you felt the same.
— The End —