i'm in that state again
where i'm not sure
if i'm stable enough
to seem "normal"

i think about disappearing
for a while
or maybe forever

every little thing tends to irk me
i'm sorry if i take
my anger out on you
when you don't deserve it

it just seems to me at this time
i can do without life
and life do can without me

see i was extremely happy
about two days ago
but my sadness did not like that
so it decided to take back over

don't sleep anymore
feeling on top of the world
no one can stop me now
can go hours on end
of thoughtless talks
constantly moving
legs bumping up and down
up and down
biting my nails
gritting my teeth
irritated
impulsive
indecisive
happy as all hell
but it will not last
i can bet you that