I’m mostly sad through the day
Then it happens, for a moment or two
I feel happy, for no reason at all.

I try to hold onto that moment
don’t want it to slip away
“Don’t push me back to my torment”
I beg and plead for it to stay.

It’s like when you know you’re dreaming
Your mind wakes you up
Feeling sadness in me teeming
And the moment is up.

Left broken in my darkness again
Felt everything will be okay for a bit
It’s gone, now it’s all about the pain
Pain, that rules me and owns me
Mocks me and trolls me
Pretends to be the light as it fools me
it’s everywhere, It’s more me than me.

It used to be balanced
Now it’s just me, alone
Without an umbrella
Walking under an endless rain.