Bare feet sinking into snow
Prickling creeps up my ankles
Little knives embedding and climbing
Swallowing hungrily
Bitter blasts of cold air
Choking, tensing, tightening
Nerves peel back like wallpaper
And I felt it all,
I knew I was still alive

It's time to listen to your heart
I know the pain is buried deep
And your wounds have all scarred
But today, is the day that you let your parts cry their grief
Delve deeply into your old pains
Blow up with rage and terror
Bring out the demons you've been fighting for far too long now
Bring them all out in the lime light
Let yourself cry through it all
It's the only way you will heal
It's the only way you will be whole again
Let the tears fall down
The pain is yours to heal
Let it all out, Let it all out
©Sonia Ettyang

I change like night and day
So don't get caught up in the moment
For It's just for a moment
I may ran away and hide, in the thick of the forest
But promise not to be alarmed
I'm fine all on my own
Promise you won't come out seeking for me
This is who I am
I'm a lone wolf
You got to understand
I need to recharge my soul
Stay clear off the noise
I'm a lone wolf
I thirst for freedom
Freedom to be alone sometimes
I'm a lone wolf
My spirit thrives on solitude
Without it I'll starve to death
But I'll be coming back
Back when my batteries are full again
Back when  my soul has gained back its mettle
Back when my mind, body and spirit are in one peace
©Sonia Ettyang

When I rise to the rays of the sun
And stand tall through the shadows of the thick bushes
You marvel at my beauty
You fall in love with my fragrance
How I wish you looked at me differently
And understand why I grow thicker thorns
Far too many times I'd watch my petals fall
Through the rainy nights with the greatest storms
I picked my self up and grew again, rose again
I learnt that I must wither and fall before I bloom again
And fill the earth with my radiant essence
©Sonia Ettyang

How is it even possible
To wander so far
Get lost and tired
Only to find myself
Back where I was before?

How interesting
They treat me like I'm strange
But act just the same