Another year
Another fear
My mind closer to perfection
My body falls apart
Atrophy and enlightenment
The heart pumps
The brain stumbles
Knowledgeable
Fallable
My fragile home

Old man Jack slowly sips his life away
The same old worn out bar top
Swallows his lager with hate
The cracked protruding pavement
Walking home, dim lights guiding the way
To an empty apartment
A studio in disarray

Blame the ex wife
Blame the immgrants
But Jack will never change
Alcohol can make you tough
It's the American way

Living in dystopia
Living the American dream
Reality can be sobering
Loneliness is king

While the cities flood
The homeless drown
Technically distracted
People move on
Species die
But my iPhone recharges
Quiet ignorance
Evolutionary *******

The bones rot out from our faces
While we Socially isolate
Surface level understanding
Swallowed by earthquakes
The billion dollar stare
The American way

Living is dystopia
Living the American dream
Digitally dehumanized
Loneliness is king

Ignore the other
Reject your mother
Poison your brother
Together we suffer
Fat, sick and dying
Cull the black sheep
Genius is weak
It's the American way

Living in hell
Living in the modern world
Wealthy, mentally castrated, and high
Popping pills to stay alive
America on life support
While the whole world dies

My art is dead
Void of life
Impassionate
Do not support this
It's lazy
Lathargic
Empty

What's the cost?
A compaynionship
I bet it's too much

Fall into the water
A puddle, a mile to go
Sinking ever faster
Time passing slow
A sea of eccentricity
Of Uncertainty

Apprehension eased
Approaching bottom
The surface to a world forgotten
A stone staircase compells you
Descend

Every floor, a door to what could be
What could have been
Every possibility
Looking out on a relationship that never was
The dog you never had
The skill you never learned
Or an unforseen fad
Homeless
A billionaire
Hopeless
Dispear
A family
Alone
An artist
An accountant
A scientist
Or a poet

Ascend
Swim
Break the surface
Wake up

Drink until the scabs rub bare

It doesn't feel like it did before

But still I know it's there

Scar tissue tried forming

Never healed

The same old story

Year after year

Eyes dried

Skin tight

Waking upright

I guess I'm alive

Speak with your eyes
Wrinkles on your face
Hints of a smile
Or signs of disgrace
Stay away
For safetys sake
Keep your distance
Choices to make
The space we notice
The feet make us aware
Every person a pariah
With tender love
We care

I'm a well adjusted maniac
Balancing life, mid panic attack
Frantically calm, repulse, attract
Kiss you
Shoot you in the face and laugh
Issue?
No I don't have any issues
Except for highlights and Hooked on Homicide
And subscriptions to prescriptions
For the conformally normal guy
Processing correctly
Intel inside

It's not window shopping
I've passed by many times
The clerk knows my name
They've got my card on file
I've flirted with idea
But never make a purchase
Even with a lifetime warranty
That's a hell of a commitment
And pretty eyes catch pretty lies
What sprakles like jewels
plastic inside
Those thin veneers
Won't last for years
But look, it's on sale
I know it but it's tough
So tempting
But stop
Those eyes are glass
One swipe of a card
Could be your last

Blanket statements keep you warm
Silent and peaceful beneath
Safe from harm
There you dream
Black and white
Chromatic reason
You're a just adjudicator
The world full of sinners
Deliver your sentence
Without repentance
Burn the heretics at the stake
After all
Consider what's at stake
Justice for just us
Just as they deserve

I'm an alien
I don't speak
I'm an alien
Communication weak
I'm an alien
Distant beside you
Misunderstood and invisible
Not hostile
Somewhat gullible
Abduction is seductive
Or a huge turn off
Known only to few
From a world of one
I'm just an explorer
Touring you

I'm a drug dealer
You can find me on the street
At the corner
Did you break something carelessly?
Come get your fix
I've got something for you
It's the latest obsession
To millions of kids
Just keep your head down
Don't take your eyes off this
This will help you stay social
Even if you're feeling depressed
It's immersive
A unique quick fix
It'll get your fingers shaking
Phantom tingles in your leg
Dopamine from a screen
It's the new iPhone X

It's a familiar burn

Callused skin is numb

I keep touching it

expecting a different outcome

And is it me or them?

Who to blame

I can only give what I concieve

This thing they call love

I know no other

Beneath the bruises and scars

My fingertips still reach out to touch

What I give, I give fully

And perhaps that is my folly

I'll sever the skin left bare to feel

No exposure, no more

I'm an Android
But not as smart
My brain is void
Here's a gift
Please love me
I don't know how to feel
But I know I love you
The circuits fire
Metal skin perspires
Rusty muscles give life
To vestigial programs
Boot my heart
My CPU flutters
I'm just a metal man
A tin can that shakes hands
I smile, while processing your desires
I wish had the light
That spark of life
The comprehension of human dimension
But my domain remains plastic
Metal and silicone
But I'll overload my circuits
It's worth it
Just to feel you

They call it chasing the dragon
Those addicted to drugs
But what do you call it
When you're addicted to love?
Those tingling sensations
Butterflies and temptations
Because baby you
You get me so high
The way I feel
Like its the first time

There's a fire that dances
Whimsical and true
Encased in flesh
Quite beautiful

The flames burst from brown
Wide open in white
Everything she touches
Burst forth with life

Tempered by heart
Twice as warm as the flames
But raging with vitality
That nothing can tame

I gazed into this fire
Amazed with wonder
I danced to her tune
I felt the hunger

Laid open and bare
The fires consume
But I'd turn to ash with her
And smile in the plumes

I love the way you envelope me
Like a blanket on a cool night
You protect me from a cold breeze
Because you comfort me
No liquid fire
No fiery herbs
Just the warm embrace of nothing
Calcium infused collagen
Guide me into sleep
Awake is a nightmare
Relax me
Slow to breathe
What is left is insignificant
What is forward doesn't matter
Legacies are earned
Not worth a stain to be remembered
Understanding would flatter
Am I mad?
I look forward to the answer

Milk my mind for creative juices
Take a sip and be inebriated
Stumble and walk
Stutter and talk
Be transported
Your mind in another world
While your body falls short

Let me register
Mechanical or electronic
Make motions
Or Fire synapses
Cause I'm about to cash out.

I'm incredible
Inedible
Unless you're a cannibal
Definitely bedible
To make some love
Stroke some rough
Give tough love
So bend over
Go forward
Close your eyes
And feign sober
Enjoy this moment
As I give you bliss

Look over me
You can't see my genius towering
My mind leaving stacks
You can't comprehend
They'd leave you drowning
Mouth open in awe
You'd gasp for air
As I pound it deeper
Past your throat
Mind *******
All you see is me
Little portagee
But my words will change the earth

It's complicated
The words that reverberated
Against the walls
You've built up around your heart
I'll pick an emerald out
While the rest Falls apart

The demons claw and scale
The walls hold tight
You're never getting in
Take the world with you

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A shadow that speaks
A shadow that reeks.
Keep your head down, darling
You're better a memory

The eyes pass
Flicker
Don't stare into the sun
I'll burn a hole straight through
Your aversion
*******
I might as well be a ghost

Libate, gyrate with me
Simple motions
Complex moans
Lubricate my soul

The Stains are memories
The frame has marks
The springs buckle
The wood no longer whole

Blurs in the night lite
Four arms
Four legs
Spread cotton and lace

****** to my pain
Your touch is numb
It calms my mind
The rush of empty bliss

You fabricate
Your paper mache heart
With the hollow voices
Of the men you love
You subjugate
Loves binding strings
Making something meaningless

You wander
Wonder about what’s beyond
Gather
The looks and stares from everyone

They can’t see
Inside, what is happening
Black blood
Coursing to an empty shell
What once was is gone away

And there were two
One to give in
And one to refuse
But it’s not me
I swear it’s not me
That’s talking to you
Something is changing
Splitting deep inside
I am trapped behind
The person I hide
Smoke rises slowly
To ceiling where I reside
And the fuel burns
As it goes down
Where memories die
I’m thinking in a new way
A new way, not the good kind
And my world is ending
But my body will survive
In this twisted form I give
The twisted words I say
I tell them all to you
Inching hearts closer
Bodies sicken
My skin is getting closer
Closer to friction
Come, please come soon
The soul needs release
Passion to make me a fool

Trance
Enchantress
Take a chance tonight

Grasses bend and wave
Smoke plays with the moon
That light coming through
From where its arms can’t reach
Gray and blue

God has lit a trillion candles
Flames flicker off the mantle
The scent of wood perfumes
While its warmth consumes

Under cover
Where skin slides so smooth
Whispering words
I can’t quite make from you
Something says you’re sorry
Others say I love you too

Are we dreaming?
What’s happening in this quiet room?
Laying in dark
My eyes closed
And it feels like I’m not alone

My eyes won’t open
My body can’t let it go
Just one more moment
To lay here with you
I can feel the hair
Brush across my face
I know my lips are dry
But why is it you I taste?

Blue cascades
In the long
Long and weary days
The night is mine
The day is lost
The moon my friend
And the sun is gone

It burns slow
With each drag
My fuel is dwindling
Dreaming of sweet kindling
You hold in your hands
Physical perfection
Visions of a face
Lost in direction

No words leave my mind
Of love or lust
I’m not that blind
People burn
People Feed
People are all
Everything that becomes me

Solitude is multitude
Seclusion an illusion
You are here
But never there
I am where
My words are fair
A poison most annoying

Time is our ally
And also our enemy
Your heart and hormones
Destroy all your dignity
In a mass confusion
Head trauma
You see what you want

The future holds for you
A clue so bold
It’s a wonder you don’t see it now
Cradling your heart
Is me
With hands wide open
And my mind in synch
I am the all-forgiving deity
The step that lifts
When you cannot reach
I see the child within you
And the adult that’s bursting out
I see everything you do
Love a word, this could be
Maybe love this is, maybe

Truth and loyalty
Placed before
It yours
Take all that I give
Friend or lover
It matter neither
To all of you
I love

My addiction
So sadistic
Hands and feet
Face and legs
Quench it
And For this I fall
Rapidly plummeting
Trace discrepancy
Codependency
You are my drug
My everything

You and me
We could be poetry
But you and I
Are living lies
But the world is wrong
And you've accepted it's answer
Release your love and come much closer

Darkness feels
From ear to ear
Cold and warm
Soft and numb
Flying freely into space
What have I become?

Stars pass through my eyes
And light exits through my brain
Time stands still in my ear
Tasting all the drops of rain
The world is upon me once again

And what are hearts?
Not meant to break
And what is love?
Not meant to take
Will someone please, walk me down this way?

The never-ending corridor
White walls
With infinite doors
No ceiling
And no floors

Walk with me, hand in mine
And show me where I can find time
My hand on the ****
Turn it for me and open wide
With your lonely key
You’ve kept inside

What a world behind this door
Hell or paradise
I’m not sure
Depression in expressive waves
Dimly lit and Fading away
Invoking all emotion
The motions law that you made
Gravity is something gray
My heart slows to a shallow beat
I pull the ground from my feet
And I find that no one is here but me

Love is a world far away
Passion exists only today
Chemical seduction
My body’s abduction
A natural imbalanced high
Give me my drug
And **** the pain
Straight from to vein
And to the brain
Addiction bleeds from the heart
Spilling out across the sea
The door opens from behind
And once again, I know me

Darkness feels warm and home
Alone in space again I go
Microcosm in my mind
The heart dies with the fading stars
The mind goes with each passing day
Alone to float across
An empty shell that once
One day maybe something more
Till you come out
And push me through the door

The leaves frost over
The rabid cold bites skin
It's mid August
But the sun has no power here
Gray and blue haunt us
Frozen slabs of granite
Each breathe perilous
The earth gives way to darkness
Hibernation
In winter never ending
The ice ceases beating
The plants dry and wither
Sooner or later
All succumbs to winter

The watering hole is where the species congregate. It is where fertile flowers pollinate the air with pheromones. It is where I feel most removed from society. I can never compete with the verulante baboons pounding their chest and flashing their *****. I can never measure up to the towering beasts who sip the water here. These doe would never share a drop with me.