I know you're out there
You visit in sleep like a tooth fairy
You stalk chimneys, a saint in the night
You live somewhere between fairy rings and neverland
You work somewhere between daydreams and reality
I know you're real
You must be
My belief gives you life
I light your eyes
I imagine your smile
I live somewhere between your skin and heart
I work somewhere you can never be
I know you are more than a daydream
But why are you just a fantasy?

Some say you're notches on the bed
But I'd say you're a cut in my heart
Each one of you leaves a scar
And the soul is bound and torn apart
I can't burden the weight
I can't carry you all with me
To end the strain
I'll sever my brain
And my love will release me

I'm on the borderline
Of inspiration and suicide
Can I change my life?
Or leave an ugly corpse

The gusts were blowing
Our faces turned ice
Your hand was frozen
But so warm to touch
The leather burned cold
Though we were left buzzing
We were high, floating
From the heat just inside
Such a wonderful night
The strokes on canvass
Contrasted the world outside
But inside here, a little cabin
Your smile was fire
And your lips were flames
But I'd burn my mouth and blister
For another taste
Because next to you
I felt no cold
We make heat
You are bold
And as the gusts blow
Next to you is like paradise
Somewhere far
Somewhere warm

If you don't exist
Then neither should I
I'll enter Tartarus alone
And never see another night

Because the sun has no radiance
Without you, the atomic spark
Just a hollow disk in the sky
Giving life to the world
And warmth to all, but I

If you don't exist
All I breathe is monoxide
The atrophy burns my limbs
Till I lay down to die
If I turn to dirt now
Perhaps you'd exist in another life

If our souls return to stars
You could find me close to Mars
Waiting for my binary love
But If you don't exist
Then neither should I
And I will burn out
A shooting star in the sky

I'm a high rope walker
But I'm not an entertainer
I balance through day
And never dream at night
It's always one inch
To plummet
To fall inwards
Scuttling past the demons
The faces of those who inflict me
Their apparitions shake the line
And they grin as I slip
The rope has no end
And neither in front or behind
Can I see where it began
It seems freedom is clear
To let go and fall inwards
Into my darkness
Into sweet sleep
Perhaps I will live on as something more
Or just an occasional passing memory

The corpses feed
The walking dead
They swallow preservation
That keeps the mold from the bread
Overworked organs overfill with poison
The heart pumps formaldehyde
Through pressured pipes
The extra pounds squeeze
The dead to the earth
But they keep walking
And talking
And working
Till they can no more
They call it life
But they never live

You may not understand my words

But you can read my eyes

What is lost in translation

Can always be seen in my smile

Your hand in mine

My heart rises high

And it's a simple thing to say

What other words could phrase

That I'm lost

I'm falling in love

And no language can separate

Passion is a well well fracked
Keep pumping
But the earth is dry
There's not enough for tears
Not enough for life
The clay is baked
The shape is set
Your attempts form cracks
But the expression remains
Look into my eyes
Pottery glazed
Underneath I pray for rain

Her crown reigns short
But stands out from among the trees
Her bark is soft
She is unmatched in beauty
When I drew near
Her flowers were clear
No shade of color worthy

You put a stopper in my heart
The love flows over
Nowhere for it to go
Leaks out when I'm sober

When you found me
At my weakest
My front, at its strongest
Palisades erected
And your questions deflected
Yet now I long to be one with your form
Your words rained down
Golden arrows of sun
They bit and pierced
The layers off the wall
Your smile exposed me
And now I long to be one with your form
I don't think you're a mind ****
But you penetrated my brain
My thoughts now consumed by you
My words can do little to explain
But I long to be one with your form
Wrapped tightly around one another
With my lips for comfort
Embracing the night
Rowing in unison
Squeeze me with your limbs
I'll go much deeper
When your pulse quickens
And the milk thickens
We'll give birth to nirvana
And be consumed with each other

She, with her plastic intention
Sweet smell, and rancid thought
Ran her finger from her lip
Her ******* tangle
Legs spaced at the knee
And her Her hair in a dangle
Penetrating eyes, that overcome my doubt
Perfect curves, image of fruit
Juicy and ripe, and ready to burst
Though sweet, it is sour
Though disturbing, so tempting
On hands and knees she crawls to me
Eyes never move
Heart cannot beat
Still locked, her hand now on me
I fall to the ground
And fall twenty feet
Her blanket around my brush
My hand in her touch
The red pair comes closer
They slip onto my face
I fall once more, into outer space
A wild vine grows rapidly around us
In the silence we scream
In our breath we roar
In my mind I forget
I release my reason
She is real
If not for another time
Just to exist right now
Stripped of my mind
Stripped to my body
Entangled in her roots, to rest the night
And to fuse, lose my sight
Make a river run down us
And never turn up soil
Get buried under it
And stay
In me, away
Her intention
Such devious intentions
Will I forget
Or fall down again

Your skin is silk
No matter how rough
I love the way you stare
The way you move
When we ****
Your hips have mind
Your legs have life
In this moment I know love
In this moment I'm alive
Passion is a drug
And only you can get me high

Your ghost haunts me daily
It looms over my head
Fills me to my feet
Overburdening and overflowing
Melancholic love
Consuming
A smile would give life to an apparition
A moment in your eyes
One moment before the rest
A touch can soothe the burns
A moment lost in caress
One moment before the rest
The spirit fades into memory
And you in its place
I lay down my arms
I prostrate at your feet
My fears laid open before you
One moment before the rest

A man covered
Shadows for sheets
And little rays that pierce the protection
Pillows of hope
They reek of flowers, feminine
Stiff with the mortis
All seems to be alive
Yet there are no beats
His skin is warm
His face is wet
All outside is booming and thumping
The incandescent lights shine
Door creaks closed quietly
No one comes to him here
Not one bothers to break this illusion
As a picture reel runs over memories
The Flowers permeate
Inducers of emotions
That glow violently in his mind
This room, his room
A mecca for all that’s gone
All the relics lay scattered around
Visual stimulation
Stubs and papers, Poems and pictures
Remind him
Music plays softly
He can hear it in the background
The songs of his faith
He is in love
He knows this now
She is nothing
But he is always there to jump
He is always there to run
Manipulate everything
To make the world hers
And now this is only place she lives
In comfort alone, under cover
With pain to release her
And water to ease her
Fermented drinks to cease her
Like the one I sip now
To write horribly
With this tainted mind
I shut the door and press play
Its time to remember
Its time to pray

The Sampaguita Bloom

That soft aroma

It encased me for days

Kept locked in your aura

The flickering candle

Kindling in your eye

The pink curve

That beauty, called your smile

It lingers here

A memory forever

The future now

Who knows what will whether?

I keep my words whispered
Though I'm screaming inside
These feelings are punishment
To keep my heart in line

Embracing you is masochism
Writhing and feeling alive
Encased by you
The body's natural high

Legs lock
Mouths dance
Hands pull
Eyes glance

You reside inside
That girl laying next to me
I'll be gone
And you'll never hear my whispers
I took them with me
Though I left something behind
I'll swallow words
Till I can say them to another

You poke the ashes hoping for some heat
Your eyes fixate on the gray
But there is no red
Consuming cold
These coals have long been dead

There's nothing here but the corpse of a fire
But I'll smile for you
If that will keep you warm

You aim for everest
With only the skill to cross a hill
You wait for gold
When silver is handed to you
You **** your head, bewildered
Offended I'd reach out to you
A corpse sitting quietly
Ready to decay
Delay, postpone salutations
Till a ring would have no place to hang
Keep waiting on prince charming
No one wants the farmer
Every peasant girl is a princess
And every man is a pauper

I'm not a word smith
I don't strike iron
But irony strikes me
Pretty peculiar
The lines I give birth to
Full of wisdom
Yet I don't heed
I craft my rhymes with a whittling knife
Form a pencil, stab myself in the heart, then write
I bleed on to this canvas
With each beat squirting splatter
You could finger paint a red Picasso
But face it, your frame can't hold this much gray matter

Yes, my lady
That shadow is gone
The slipping silhouette
Real light shines through
Radiating the truth
I **** my head away
My eyes shrink
And belly aches
I held it in
Released it yesterday
Time not defined
For it is nothing
Yes, I do
You aren’t worth my tears
My biggest fears
You cover your self in ***** truth
Deception
Contraception
I speak your language well

Hello
Did you have a moment to read?
For what are words if not heard?
And what are lines if not seen?

I just wanted to share my disappointment
It's been haunting all my dreams
But this is real now
And reality feels bleak

I'm just a coward
Who can't find the words to speak
So I hide behind my pretty lines
Using metaphors and similes

To euphemize this euthanasia
The euphoric must be beat
Throw away those hopes of mine
And all the memories

Time to say goodbye
I'd learned to fly
But you,
You clipped my wings