Want and need are two different things
That in the midst of things just aren't fair.

I had a feeling of being High....
The only problem I had not smoked.

I want that feeling of energy rush
when you come near

I need you to show me you care
Even though we don't go there.

I want that tingly feeling all over again
When you pull me against your body

I need you by my side...

But I guess I need my family more.

I want to lay next you for hours on end
Forgetting that the world even Exists.

I need to stay with my family...
But it's really hard when all I WANT

is to be with you...

Want  and Need are to very different things
That in the midst of things just aren't fair.

at night i think about u often since thats when we'd talk alot....
I will miss you very much. Not as much as i missed E, *** i was seeing him alot longer. But it is a great deal of heartache!!

You were sent to do evil......but you really didnt.

You made me see things differenly....
changed my mindset on things that had been a certain way for yrs.
You got me to tell my self i love mysel every day....even today i do it.
I always keep the ringer off otherwise it makes noise since its still set to the settings you made on the phone.
You got me to see the difference in an apology and from saying sorry.
You tried your hardest to get me to think better of myself and for that i am ever so grateful to you for that.

i dont know why u  did that and i probably never will know why but i do thank you.!!!

I really did care and love you.
take care sweetness....

luv u......
bye.
:(

Im not going to be on here much anymore......
it makes me sad that you dont talk to me much now....
I guess i meant nothing but i just dont feel thats the truth !!

I hate to read your twitter accts...it really upsets me ,
But what should i expect......

from someone who cheats on the "best friend" wwith some older chick for 4 months for money from some old *** guy.

I just need to keep telling myself that you hate me and i meant nothing to u.






so i will just sit and cry like i usually do.

It really is hard *** I do have love for you
Even after finding out the real reasons u were there for u kno who!

I kno u grew to like me alittle ...
It just ***** *** now we can find a way to hang out and meet In the middle!

U really did make me happier and brought me lots of joy
Just suxs now *** I can't play anymore with my boy toy ( jk)

I'm sorry I didn't tell u how u being there affected me
Maybe one day i will be able to but until then in my heart missing u is where u will be!!

Ur my heart and I can't let u go-
I don't even know how even if I wanted to!!
I constantly think about u and the time we shared
It's hard to forget u when my life has forever been impaired!

I wish we could be friends from afar....
It's not how I want it but at least  u haven't gone too far!

I'd give anythg just to talk to u a few times a week!!
That would be the best thing and I'd be so happy I'd totally freak!

But u hate me and it's over and done...
I don't want to marry u but in my heart ur number 1!!!!!

Im not mad at you.
Im mad at me.
Im mad that i get so attached
When you obviously arent
I just dont know what to do with myself anymore
Im so tired of being sad
Im tired of not feeling like im enough
Maybe it would be easier if we just stopped
Because i cant keep falling if theres nothing there to catch me

how can a few weekends for a few months mean anything?

how can you end up liking the person who was there to mess with your mind?

How can i care for someone who  is half my age?

how do i stop this hurting and endless ache i have for you and your return?