'Love life live a little **** it and take a risk'

As much as I'd want to put myself out there.
Giving the world my heart and whatever it is I have to.
I can't...
A broken, ****** up heart isn't enough for me to give the world.

Rejection stabbed right through me, missing my heart until I decided to **** it!
Then it pieced through. Leaving pieces of an unwanted heart and a shattered mind.

I never want to give anyone my all.
Because for some reason Rejection prevails leading to heartbreak.

We danced all night,
Moving our bodies with the beat,
Your warm body radiating into mine as you touched me,
Your warm breath on my neck sending chills down my spine...
I don't know what you did to me but I was up in cloud 9.

Each touch, Each smile, Each laugh, everything we did last night was perfect.

'I never meant to hurt you'

The last words that echoed from her letter.

'I Love you'

Her words lingered in my mind.

'Bang Bang!'

The sound stained my heart.

Send me your suicidal letter and lead me to self harm.

But to commit the crime infront of me, lead me to an asylum

I read a book last night.
About a girl named Rhea,
Who put up a great fight.
But she lost either way.
And then I thought to myself.

"Wow her name is my name just that she has an H and I don't, but her name is my name.
Our personalities are the same.
Her pain was mine just that hers was more defined.
Entangled with horrendous secrets.
Its like our pain was intertwined"

I thought so much about this fictional character. She made me cry and then further broke my heart.
It then hit me.

"That girl is me"

You got me power tripping.
Mind switching.
In a phase.
Lost in a maze.
My hearts a haze.
Woop!

You got my heart drowning.
Lips frowning.
Mind pounding.
Woop!

You left me in a world caught.
star struck, I'm in love punk.
I felt like I just hit a slam dunk.
Till I saw you with them, then my heart sunk.

****...
I thought I hit it real good tonight.
Thought what we had was beyond right.
I guess I was wrong, I lost the fight.
I got to walk away this ain't a good sight.  
This is real pain, I can't see the light.

I can't believe this.
Loving you was my greatest habit.
My hearts clenched, goddamit!
I lost my rabbit.

If I text you I may miss you a little less cos **** I can't concentrate. And I'm not being moderate or cheesy. I'm being completely honest. You've corrupted every single thought in my mind to just you... Before I sleep you're what I think about and when I wake up, your face pops up in my mind. After studying, my mind quickly disperses searching for memories that we share. I feel the need to hear your voice, your laugher and most importantly see your smile. I can't help but count the days I have till I see you right now its 7 days, a week from now I get to see you, to hold you in my arms. I hate having feelings like these towards someone because I don't know how to handle them and with you around Its not like I can contain them properly. You hear me use words such as 'I  Love you' and 'you're awesome' and I bet you think that's what friends say  its no big deal although it seems like that to me its much more than that. Its more of a commitment. You're amazing to my heart and soul and I guess you should know that.

The girl I want to save is a danger to my emotions.
She has me going crazy causing commotions.
She has my mind creating fireworks that turn to sour explosions.
She has my heart on the edge, On the very verge of giving up on her.
Someone Please rescue Her.

I wonder how she lost Her sanity,vanity and serenity.
Leading her to darkness that's causing her insanity.
I try to tell her to wake up that this numbness ain't right,
But apparently I ain't living in the real world, That I ain't facing reality.
Someone please rescue Her.

She shut me out like a soccer player denied of a goal.
Transfer window's closed, I can't negation I lost her poor soul.
All I can do is pray for her.
Its not much but Its something.
If possible someone Please rescue Her.

I've failed her,
Like a math test I cannot prevail.
I Lost her and she lost herself.
Dear God please rescue Her.
You're all she has