it's not me
pushing you
away except
it actually is me

it's the kind of
morning that the
wind is blowing
just right so that
the open flag
flutters in front
of the window
where i can see it

the kind of morning
i don't need coffee
and i try not to
think about

it too
much

(i just wanted to
be the girl in
an owl city song)

pacing back and
forth in straight
lines and gritting
my teeth against
an onslaught of
small town gunfire

(i'll bet annmarie
never had scars
or scratches
brielle didn't cry
and shake for
hours thinking
how to end it all
it turned out
okay for anna
and vienna probably
knew how to dance
between the snowflakes
and underneath her regret)

i've never been good at
drowning out thoughts
they just get louder the
longer time rolls on

good at rolling out
cookie dough and
good at drowning
in dishwater when
the brownie batter's
baking and the bowl
needs washing when
nobody's looking

(i've had moments
here and there in golden
sneakers and navy blue
lace covered dresses
but i'm not the girl
in an owl city song
not something worth
writing dreamy poems
about not so lovestruck you
replace your words with dada)

girls like me wear flannel
khaki too much day old
eyeliner too many day old
scones have half heads of weird
colored hair and spend valentines
day alone watching tv

so maybe why i'm bitter
as the inside of a lemon is
that i'll never be able to change
to someone drenched in verbena
spinning through the sunny
skies between your fingers

Jax,Lily,Flawless,Marta,Dr.Shweta,Shiv,Neeraj,Dg.
Emeka,Miss,Jule­s,Bridgett,Salim, Joceyn,memoona.
Sampreeta,daud,Stephanie,Grace,No name,Eloisa.
Hijenduanao,Kauthar,Damien,Joye,Marta,Narendra.
Jole­ne, Perry, Freebird,Surbhi,Godawan,Ikimi,tm,
Xaela,try,S Nirmal,Astrea,Erin,Mindless,Lace,HB.
AP,Timur,Kasidee,Caterra,the­ untold,Melancholy.
Melanie,mckenzie, clark,beebz,sherri,bryan,bakunawa.
khaliyah,brianna,Ay2brutus,Ang­el-like,Maxx,Lure ***.
Mike, me zeal, Kim,Kim,Maeiby,Shanath,Marshall,xallan.
Weeping Willow,Mike Hauser,Serena,AnnMarie,DavidLewis.
JenniferJohnson, itgonnamakesense,Mike Essiq,Nancy.
Olivia,Paul,Mark,Phil,PoetressBhumi and Wilyam Pax.
Here some more love you all, I pray that you are blessed.

typical
the wanting
the hunger
the pain
is it just
heartbreak
there’s more to it
than that
i must admit
at this bipolar moment
my love
is the moon
her melody
sweet ringing
i long for her
to be mine
i understand
what the sun means
when he says
he misses her
because they were
meant to be
and yet
at the same time
never meant to be
together


written by Annmarie Rose Agnes Eichhorn
1/6/2018

I want to know
Did you see
The same sun I saw?

On both crisp
And humid morns
Were you up

All night, envisioning
With me
The last breath being taken?

I went to the trees
That morning
And was told
Secrets about that day.

In the bark,
I felt the heat
Of all that was
To come.

Barefoot and lost
I strolled
Waiting for the dawning;

An answer to my everlasting prayers.
In the glimmer, I felt you.
You were there.

Under my feet, the grass wept.
Is it you crying?
The sun winked at me today.
Did you shut your eyes?

I felt the sea rage and foam.
The time is now,
We are set free to roam.

When you shall return to me,
Give me a sign
Of your homecoming.

That night,
The gusts blew and blew.
It was then,
In the abyss of my heart,
I knew.



-Annmarie Eichhorn