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based on a true story
27/F/New York
mastering the art of subtle writing.
Non-binary/chasing sunsets.
you make me lovely and it's so lovely to be lovely to the one i love
Poems
Mateuš Conrad
Aug 2018
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pnam Dec 2019
LDR to LTR
pnam
Dec 2019
In this new world so connected digitally
Online with your smartphone or desktop continuously
Every touch or click with your fingers sublimely
Connecting messaging chatting seductively
Rush of dopamine brain lives ecstatically
Bits and bytes that rise and fall emotionally
Waiting for physical touch earnestly
LDR love seem to be extraordinarily
Yet to see LDR grows into LTR eventually
Online with your smartphone or desktop continuously
Every touch or click with your fingers sublimely
Connecting messaging chatting seductively
Rush of dopamine brain lives ecstatically
Bits and bytes that rise and fall emotionally
Waiting for physical touch earnestly
LDR love seem to be extraordinarily
Yet to see LDR grows into LTR eventually
LDR = Long Distance Relationship
LTR = Long Term Relationship
Dated Dec 2019
LTR = Long Term Relationship
Dated Dec 2019
MoB
Jan 2012
Every time I look up,
I look for you.
Every letter I open
Every call I receive.
I hold on to a desperate hope
That you'll have realized you love me
That your regret of letting me go
Will overcome your stubbornness.
But that's assuming you feel some regret...
you never come, and
the letters are never from you,
and you never call.
I continue, alone,
Hoping with an empty hope,
Dreaming an empty dream.
I wake up every day from my stupor
knowing I'm still on my own
that all it will ever be is just pretending.
But I still look for you,
I still wait for you
even if it means I'll be alone.
I look for you.
Every letter I open
Every call I receive.
I hold on to a desperate hope
That you'll have realized you love me
That your regret of letting me go
Will overcome your stubbornness.
But that's assuming you feel some regret...
you never come, and
the letters are never from you,
and you never call.
I continue, alone,
Hoping with an empty hope,
Dreaming an empty dream.
I wake up every day from my stupor
knowing I'm still on my own
that all it will ever be is just pretending.
But I still look for you,
I still wait for you
even if it means I'll be alone.