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Mateuš Conrad Aug 2018
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Mateuš Conrad
Aug 2018
where was i? right, anywhere but here,
listening to some medieval music,
i sometimes sit in one place,
fade, and then find myself sitting
in the same place with a question
on the tip of my tongue: where am i?!
hard not to notice:
heaven reigns supreme with
a "st." michael coming down
with the sword...
depiction, please!
where's satan?
coming from below armed only
with a tongue...
fair fight, by anyone's standard:
i'm dripping sweat from both
ridicule and sarcasm...
st. michael comes down with a sword...
satan rises up with a flaming tongue,
does satan lick michael's sword
to draw the blood required for
running the heart factory?
medieval people and their
"nuanced" explanation...
so many images contra words
contra literacy of the people outside
the realm of monks...
satan rises from the depths of
hell saying: i wish a socratic dialectic
with god...
god replies: michael i will send armed
with swords...
who ever said: the quill is mightier than
than the sword,
implied: when the tongue has
to be necessarily silenced? then!
das schwart,
das feder,
das zunge...
how many definite articles are
there in deutsche? das, der, die?
too many or too few?
always with "st." michael armed
with a sword...
and satan... armed with only his tongue!
i guess, the tongue becomes a tank,
while the sword becomes a feather's
tickling effect...
angehoben das teufel von der
tiefe: und gab sie namen...
(raised the devils from the depths:
and gave them names)...
why is satan only armed with a flaming tongue,
while "st." michael is armed with a sword?
is god, the god-dialectic / theology
so afraid that it has to remain topped
with unchallenged imagery
of sword contra tongue?
ich werden anfangen:
ich werden treffen du hälfteweg...
im schreiben...
satan rose to a depiction
with "st." michael: disarmed...
tongue in mouth: which should have been
his hand, "st." michael descended with
a sword... come to think of it,
with satan's tongue cut off...
it still spoke to "st." michael within his
hand...
the sword overcame the medium...
and so writing was born...
once upon a time when satan's tongue
in his hand began licking the sword
of michael...
and? if the contemporaries
should hope to know:
writing is the res extensa medium
of res cogitans:
writing is an extension of thinking:
it's not an invitation to speak...
writing cannot be speaking,
however much commentaries you leave
behind...
writing is an extension of thinking:
it's not an invitation to speak...
it's no disguise...
in terms of the depiction...
enough of Milton and Dante and...
satan came to the summit
without his armour without his weapons...
the summit of the plateau...
tongue in gob and joke in cheek...
while "st." michael descended
wit a sword and a missing tongue...
it would appear that god cut out
"st." michael's tongue before his descent
while arming him with a sword to
cut the conversation even shorter
than it was supposed to be, to take place...
the aspired to monotheistic monogamy
of king Solomon,
to imitate swans...
Muhammad's lost enterprise of
the: greatest harem the world has ever
seen... sorry... Muo-Mo-Hammie:
the macedonian alexander beat you to
the count of 365 concubines...
as did genghis khan...
so many pakistanis with khan
as a surname...
your failed harem ambition?
compared to the otherwise world "greats"?
with the ******* promise of 72 virgins
post-mortem? that ship is sinking in my head...
muhammad failed in the ambition
of averaging a 100+ concunbine **** fest...
so he promised 72 for those that believed in
him...
and if he was ever competing with
king solomon? look at solomon...
he chose monogamy in the end...
i guess it's a noble enterprise to come back
among the lizards...
to spawn from an egg: from an womb
made external by an egg in the form of a bird...
birds: half mammal half lizard...
muhammad failed at having
an envious harem...
which makes me a little bit envious
of him... compared to the others...
he's quiet honest...
but if he was illiterate...
who the **** wrote the Quran?
what's that book, in praise of older women?
andrás vajda...
who would have written the first
verses (if not the last) of the Quran if not
khadijah **** khuwaylid?
i'm sorry to say: the feeling of conversation
soon turns into a feeling of conversion,
me, beer in hand, park, bench,
an old pakistani walks up to me...
flips out a digital Quran,
tries to convert me...
opens the book on surah al-baqarah...
i point at three words...
what are these, i ask?
he replies: oh... only allah knows...
really?! really?! i ask myself...
the three words?
alif. lam. meem.
allah knows?!
guess i'm allah then...
given alif: أَلِف (α, א) a-lif
lam: لاَم (λ, ל) l-am
and meem: مِيم (μ, מ) m'eem...
so yeah, "god" knows...
how was this old pakistani going to convert
me, supposing i was simply some european
"drunk" sitting on a bench, drinking beer,
assuming i was ease target for
isis propaganda?!
"god knows"... when it comes
to old pakistanis trying to
recruit young europeans...
god knows ****!
if this old pakistani was seeking an easy target
like some paedo, he was much mistaken,
what does a pumpernickle (has) to do with
a windmill?! zilch!
i'm not going to exactly crawl out
of my walther von der vogelweider:
palästinalied that much easier...
i won't....
i just think:
the yids have tight defences
against proselytes... they abhor converts...
islam, welcomes them,
at their own peril...
and there i was thinking that
urdu was "superior" to sanskrit...
an old pakistani tells me "god knows"
in relation to alif. lam. meem.
i guess the quran has an inbuilt
proselyte defence mechanism:
in reverse... ask a muslim what alif. lam. meem.
means... if they tell you: only god knows...
ha ha...
hello stupid...
is the islamic world playing
a jewish game of gematria?
are the three letters supposed to represent
some sort of "covert" message?
A.L.M.?
what, based on the hebrew alphabet
where "a" is not an an A but a consonant(s)
akin to ayin and aleph?!
the gay genesis?
really?
we: the europeans were perhaps
the barbarians in the medieval years,
harrowed by the cold...
lucky us: lucky me: we did learn to read...
so ignorant of the pakis to presume
such and such...
that we are still unable to read
and will fall for the next sort of *******...
look at us! we even began to question
christianity with the unearthing of
the nag hammadi library where
jesus played chinese whispers with
st. thomas!
next time i'll be listening to a camel jockey
or a magic carpet ride aladdin
i'll ask them: you dehydrated, or something?!
oh forget h'america,
their evangelical ******* is worth
as much as a free microwave or a toaster...
_
hell man...
i mean my neighbor smokes
16 8ths in a spare of the week...
wha?
****...
i remember i used to smoke
an 8th over the week...
yeah... an 1/8... of an ounce...
he smokes two ounces
in a week,
gets the **** on discount...
but still has to cough up
over 100 quid for the stash...
but... but... these organic
cigarettes you're pushing?
ha ha... **** me... holy basil
(tulsi leaves) -
and the peppermint and green
tea leaves?
in ******, whatever you want
to call it, rolling paper...
i've seen the inner sleeve -
big fan of hunter s. thompson,
i suspect...
otherwise you wouldn't
have used the second, plastic
filter...
tell you what... don't put
that plastic filter on every cigarette -
halve it...
or provide two or three...
it's reusable -
i smoked one of your
placebo marijuana joints...
and then i'm going to smoke
a red Indian cough-up...
ah... these blue Indians...
Vishnu centrists -
beyond blue blooded,
more blue skinned herbalists...
dunno... the effects are subtle...
you can only tell the difference
if you actually smoke tobacco...
but sure as hot **** on a street
in Calcutta -
it beats the Arabic portable
hookah pipe...
i.e.?
vapping - or vapourißing -
i'd say less a cure for tobacco smokers,
and more a cure for
the dope-heads...
he (my neighbor) smokes
2 ounces a week,
and somehow manages to stay
down on a job...
no ******* way...
he says it helps him to sleep...
like me...
a liter of ***** and two
paracetamols,
or one naproxen (if i'm lucky),
or two paracetamols
and one amitriptyline (25mg)...
sorry, what? sound of mind?
sound of mind to the point
where i'm mindful of grammar
and spelling?
**** man...
the content is transcendent
of whatever the receiving end deems
it to be...
i might actually buy into
this... placebo marijuana -
given that i am a tobacco smoker...
ha ha! holy basil:
like Basil Fawlty...
as you see...
there are people, and there are "people",
there are neighbors,
and there are "neighbors",
i don't see how the natives
can dictate universal laws of
private property ownership...
esp. over such... trivial...
meaningless...
sitting down on a cactus
****-naked "problems"...
i hate being mean,
i hate telling someone to *******...
i really do...
i compromised -
i stopped smoking cigarettes
out of my window...
but yesterday's confrontation?
over a ******* barbeque...
oops... the compromise
has just been revoked...
music blasting into my ears
through my earphones...
the next thing my cuntish neighbor
will "hear" is sign language...
oh yeah... that primary school
lesson:
(a) WHY (b) DON'T
(c) YOU (d) **** (e) OFF
(a) index + middle fingers
slapped on the left palm knuckles up
(b) index + middle fingers
slapped on the left palm knuckles down
(c) scissor index + *******
into the side of the left hand
(d) fist, vertical slam onto the left
palm
(e) thumb's up moving away from
the palm of the left hand...
because?
i just can't be bothered trying
to reason with some people...
they might as well be put in zoological
confinement, and put under observation...
but i'd feel sorry for the chimps
and other animals, have to share a close
proximity.
listening to some medieval music,
i sometimes sit in one place,
fade, and then find myself sitting
in the same place with a question
on the tip of my tongue: where am i?!
hard not to notice:
heaven reigns supreme with
a "st." michael coming down
with the sword...
depiction, please!
where's satan?
coming from below armed only
with a tongue...
fair fight, by anyone's standard:
i'm dripping sweat from both
ridicule and sarcasm...
st. michael comes down with a sword...
satan rises up with a flaming tongue,
does satan lick michael's sword
to draw the blood required for
running the heart factory?
medieval people and their
"nuanced" explanation...
so many images contra words
contra literacy of the people outside
the realm of monks...
satan rises from the depths of
hell saying: i wish a socratic dialectic
with god...
god replies: michael i will send armed
with swords...
who ever said: the quill is mightier than
than the sword,
implied: when the tongue has
to be necessarily silenced? then!
das schwart,
das feder,
das zunge...
how many definite articles are
there in deutsche? das, der, die?
too many or too few?
always with "st." michael armed
with a sword...
and satan... armed with only his tongue!
i guess, the tongue becomes a tank,
while the sword becomes a feather's
tickling effect...
angehoben das teufel von der
tiefe: und gab sie namen...
(raised the devils from the depths:
and gave them names)...
why is satan only armed with a flaming tongue,
while "st." michael is armed with a sword?
is god, the god-dialectic / theology
so afraid that it has to remain topped
with unchallenged imagery
of sword contra tongue?
ich werden anfangen:
ich werden treffen du hälfteweg...
im schreiben...
satan rose to a depiction
with "st." michael: disarmed...
tongue in mouth: which should have been
his hand, "st." michael descended with
a sword... come to think of it,
with satan's tongue cut off...
it still spoke to "st." michael within his
hand...
the sword overcame the medium...
and so writing was born...
once upon a time when satan's tongue
in his hand began licking the sword
of michael...
and? if the contemporaries
should hope to know:
writing is the res extensa medium
of res cogitans:
writing is an extension of thinking:
it's not an invitation to speak...
writing cannot be speaking,
however much commentaries you leave
behind...
writing is an extension of thinking:
it's not an invitation to speak...
it's no disguise...
in terms of the depiction...
enough of Milton and Dante and...
satan came to the summit
without his armour without his weapons...
the summit of the plateau...
tongue in gob and joke in cheek...
while "st." michael descended
wit a sword and a missing tongue...
it would appear that god cut out
"st." michael's tongue before his descent
while arming him with a sword to
cut the conversation even shorter
than it was supposed to be, to take place...
the aspired to monotheistic monogamy
of king Solomon,
to imitate swans...
Muhammad's lost enterprise of
the: greatest harem the world has ever
seen... sorry... Muo-Mo-Hammie:
the macedonian alexander beat you to
the count of 365 concubines...
as did genghis khan...
so many pakistanis with khan
as a surname...
your failed harem ambition?
compared to the otherwise world "greats"?
with the ******* promise of 72 virgins
post-mortem? that ship is sinking in my head...
muhammad failed in the ambition
of averaging a 100+ concunbine **** fest...
so he promised 72 for those that believed in
him...
and if he was ever competing with
king solomon? look at solomon...
he chose monogamy in the end...
i guess it's a noble enterprise to come back
among the lizards...
to spawn from an egg: from an womb
made external by an egg in the form of a bird...
birds: half mammal half lizard...
muhammad failed at having
an envious harem...
which makes me a little bit envious
of him... compared to the others...
he's quiet honest...
but if he was illiterate...
who the **** wrote the Quran?
what's that book, in praise of older women?
andrás vajda...
who would have written the first
verses (if not the last) of the Quran if not
khadijah **** khuwaylid?
i'm sorry to say: the feeling of conversation
soon turns into a feeling of conversion,
me, beer in hand, park, bench,
an old pakistani walks up to me...
flips out a digital Quran,
tries to convert me...
opens the book on surah al-baqarah...
i point at three words...
what are these, i ask?
he replies: oh... only allah knows...
really?! really?! i ask myself...
the three words?
alif. lam. meem.
allah knows?!
guess i'm allah then...
given alif: أَلِف (α, א) a-lif
lam: لاَم (λ, ל) l-am
and meem: مِيم (μ, מ) m'eem...
so yeah, "god" knows...
how was this old pakistani going to convert
me, supposing i was simply some european
"drunk" sitting on a bench, drinking beer,
assuming i was ease target for
isis propaganda?!
"god knows"... when it comes
to old pakistanis trying to
recruit young europeans...
god knows ****!
if this old pakistani was seeking an easy target
like some paedo, he was much mistaken,
what does a pumpernickle (has) to do with
a windmill?! zilch!
i'm not going to exactly crawl out
of my walther von der vogelweider:
palästinalied that much easier...
i won't....
i just think:
the yids have tight defences
against proselytes... they abhor converts...
islam, welcomes them,
at their own peril...
and there i was thinking that
urdu was "superior" to sanskrit...
an old pakistani tells me "god knows"
in relation to alif. lam. meem.
i guess the quran has an inbuilt
proselyte defence mechanism:
in reverse... ask a muslim what alif. lam. meem.
means... if they tell you: only god knows...
ha ha...
hello stupid...
is the islamic world playing
a jewish game of gematria?
are the three letters supposed to represent
some sort of "covert" message?
A.L.M.?
what, based on the hebrew alphabet
where "a" is not an an A but a consonant(s)
akin to ayin and aleph?!
the gay genesis?
really?
we: the europeans were perhaps
the barbarians in the medieval years,
harrowed by the cold...
lucky us: lucky me: we did learn to read...
so ignorant of the pakis to presume
such and such...
that we are still unable to read
and will fall for the next sort of *******...
look at us! we even began to question
christianity with the unearthing of
the nag hammadi library where
jesus played chinese whispers with
st. thomas!
next time i'll be listening to a camel jockey
or a magic carpet ride aladdin
i'll ask them: you dehydrated, or something?!
oh forget h'america,
their evangelical ******* is worth
as much as a free microwave or a toaster...
_
hell man...
i mean my neighbor smokes
16 8ths in a spare of the week...
wha?
****...
i remember i used to smoke
an 8th over the week...
yeah... an 1/8... of an ounce...
he smokes two ounces
in a week,
gets the **** on discount...
but still has to cough up
over 100 quid for the stash...
but... but... these organic
cigarettes you're pushing?
ha ha... **** me... holy basil
(tulsi leaves) -
and the peppermint and green
tea leaves?
in ******, whatever you want
to call it, rolling paper...
i've seen the inner sleeve -
big fan of hunter s. thompson,
i suspect...
otherwise you wouldn't
have used the second, plastic
filter...
tell you what... don't put
that plastic filter on every cigarette -
halve it...
or provide two or three...
it's reusable -
i smoked one of your
placebo marijuana joints...
and then i'm going to smoke
a red Indian cough-up...
ah... these blue Indians...
Vishnu centrists -
beyond blue blooded,
more blue skinned herbalists...
dunno... the effects are subtle...
you can only tell the difference
if you actually smoke tobacco...
but sure as hot **** on a street
in Calcutta -
it beats the Arabic portable
hookah pipe...
i.e.?
vapping - or vapourißing -
i'd say less a cure for tobacco smokers,
and more a cure for
the dope-heads...
he (my neighbor) smokes
2 ounces a week,
and somehow manages to stay
down on a job...
no ******* way...
he says it helps him to sleep...
like me...
a liter of ***** and two
paracetamols,
or one naproxen (if i'm lucky),
or two paracetamols
and one amitriptyline (25mg)...
sorry, what? sound of mind?
sound of mind to the point
where i'm mindful of grammar
and spelling?
**** man...
the content is transcendent
of whatever the receiving end deems
it to be...
i might actually buy into
this... placebo marijuana -
given that i am a tobacco smoker...
ha ha! holy basil:
like Basil Fawlty...
as you see...
there are people, and there are "people",
there are neighbors,
and there are "neighbors",
i don't see how the natives
can dictate universal laws of
private property ownership...
esp. over such... trivial...
meaningless...
sitting down on a cactus
****-naked "problems"...
i hate being mean,
i hate telling someone to *******...
i really do...
i compromised -
i stopped smoking cigarettes
out of my window...
but yesterday's confrontation?
over a ******* barbeque...
oops... the compromise
has just been revoked...
music blasting into my ears
through my earphones...
the next thing my cuntish neighbor
will "hear" is sign language...
oh yeah... that primary school
lesson:
(a) WHY (b) DON'T
(c) YOU (d) **** (e) OFF
(a) index + middle fingers
slapped on the left palm knuckles up
(b) index + middle fingers
slapped on the left palm knuckles down
(c) scissor index + *******
into the side of the left hand
(d) fist, vertical slam onto the left
palm
(e) thumb's up moving away from
the palm of the left hand...
because?
i just can't be bothered trying
to reason with some people...
they might as well be put in zoological
confinement, and put under observation...
but i'd feel sorry for the chimps
and other animals, have to share a close
proximity.
Mark Toney Jun 2020
Happy or Depressed
Mark Toney
Jun 2020
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Wait for tomorrow’s new day
6/21/2020 - Poetry form: Shape - This was inspired by fellow HelloPoetry poet Riley Cartwright’s shape poem “The Music in My Head.” Thank you, Riley - © 2020 Mark Toney. All rights reserved.
Nat Lipstadt
Sep 2015
I have copied and posted most of my elecronic conversations of just (!) the last few months here between
Ernesto L. Gonzales and myself.
I have edited out some very few particulars to respect both of our privacy, and yet it is intensely personal. Respect that please!
He developed a few such intense relationships with others here which
having only learned of recently of the details, make me realize, ever more cognizant what a special, caring human being was the DedPoet.
Represented in a center alignment to better honor this man,
this poet, my brother.
~~~~~
The DedPoet Jul 4
Taking your suggestion into consideration, I stumbled across the fact that I went from past to present. So instead of
Gangsters dont shed no tears,
I changed it to But gangsters dont cry,
With this and the last two lines,
Which I also changed by eliminating
And as a man I cry,
Simplified to
As a man I remember,
As a man I cry.
Crying being that which I could not do as a youth, with the experience of life learning to cry later brings about realism and evocative feelings toward the reader, tying them with the poem, becoming a not so forgetful piece.
Nat, Your words of I want you to live,
They began a slow change in my life, today
Ibam in full fruition of that. I am alive, living, working, getting better, taking what was given to me, conquest of my demons. Yes Nat, I have arrived, humbly but with much confidence. Your influence had a great deal to do with my personal and poetical growth as a person. I have matured because you gave a ****, because you knew deep down I could beat everything life had thrown at me.
Know this Nat,
Put it in your mind,
Relish it and be proud;
YOU CHANGED MY LIFE
AND I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 4
Humbled silence. FYI was fired last week, no surprIse, may "retire" or look for a position, undecided...
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 4
What's the situation with the kids?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 4
I have my girls right now. She got pregnant and bow she needs me. Go figure. Anyway, im enjoying life drug and alcohol free, getting into working condition at work. All is as it should be, despite the problems I used to let become mountains.
Fired huh? Could you survive on retirement?
And if find anotjer position, do you feel that you would still be willing, able of course, but willing is another matter when you mentioned retirement as an option.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 4
I am soon to be..my youngest son worked with me for...and seeing him re-established is important to me.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 4
What is your proffesion exactly?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 5
Bond broker/trader
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 5
It took a day to get this right. A broker!!! Wow!! A poetic bond broker???? Wow. Im still shocked at that. Friend, you roll with the punches in life. Your son matters most, and I see that as well. Your note from yesterday helped me to focus more on my children financially. I got the time thing down, the icecream and food, but they need so much more. Yeah Im still learning, but Im learning exponentially. Anyway, I still plan on shaking your ha.d one day.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 5
Nah, a big freaking hug
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 5
Shhh. Your privacy protected
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1252193/six-**...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 5
I could give a cheesy poem saying yes Nat changed my life, which was my first idea. Then, to be genuine and give ou some insight to my new journey and outlook I wrote Saffron Son Settling Into Memories and is dedicated to you friend.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 18
Well if your offer is to edit my poems, I respectfully decline. I can spell despite the poems looking otherwise. I post directly to hellopoetry, the words come out so fast that its hard to edit. I have been writing nonstop in progress for a book. They have their own editors, lol.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 18
No prob
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
All u need to do is line them up better. Invest in an inexpensive tablet...
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
Or *******, I will
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
I have a phone, one that I borrow. You know Im **** poor. I haven't posted in the longest while I have ever gone through. Tablets are far from my thoughts. I have pen and paper, bought from the 99 cent store. My daughter's mother, my ex, is in the hospital fighting for her life. And suddenly Im with my girls all day, everyday. Great for me, but I wish it was under better circumstances.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
What's your address?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
Im too proud to accept any donations. I thank you from the bottom of my heart Nat. My email is... if you ever want to just correspond. I am taking control of the poverty in my life and when your at the bottom, theres only one way to go.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
What donation? ***! Self protection of my aging eyes and brain!
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
Ive been offered before. Money to help with kids, sorry if i jumped the gun there Nat. What would u do with the adress?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
Send you a tablet
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
I couldn't accept that. I wouldn't know how. Never been offered anything like that.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
If you truly believed in my talent, if that was the reason other than mis spelled words, I would take it. I would take it gratefully. I'll tell you one thing, yours is the only that I believe in on this site. Granted there are talented individuals, but none try to better themselves and stay in an anxious state of repeating verses. You try to break them from this, encouragement and all. What do you say Nat?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
I say just this,
brother.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
San Antonio, Tx. 78227
Ernesto L. Gonzales Jr.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 21
Nat, I just gave u all my info, could u respond and tell me my identity is ok.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 22
Just saw Not sure what u mean, "idenity ok". Can u explain?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 22
Lol, not that my identity is worth much, but is was a little dark joke since you had not responded to me. I did get a little worried. Thats all. After all, you and I know bofh well that thsi is a risky thinf, you know, information And all.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
Np. Up at 12:48am til now thinking about the future
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
1. What type of cell phone?
2. Will your carrier allow u two devices on your number?
3. Just answer and no yada yada noise?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
Its not my cell phone. Its my dad's. A regular three year old lg fone. But we do have wifi here at home for my nephew. Unlimited data.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
See if u can add another tablet device, on his plan...should be nominal...like $10/month
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
Actually the wifi would be enabled inside the house because of the wifi. I would just need to ask how, but I do know it is at no extra charghe. Nat, as a man in wall street, what is your take on the current situation with the dollar and its basis on petroleum in the world? Is it doomed to fail anytime soon?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
Oil has stabilized around 50 bucks which is very reasonable. U.S. Frackers can make money there,the Saudis too...and with new supply growing. And demand stable and but will surely increase, I expect price to hold the 50 dlr area and very slowly rise..as for the dollar, it's all about that bass...I mean I test rates! Ours going up everybody else's going down, so dollar will remain the king for the foreseeable future if the global economy just chugs along as it has and more so if the economy actually picks up to grow 3% or better consistently
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
Just worried about the alarmist calling for an imminent collapse based on China and Russia leaving the dollar to trade in ruble and chinese currency, if Im not mistaken, the currency war it is called.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
What are the advantages of a tablet anyway?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 24
You can see what you are doing; the layout and formatting is very important. From a phone it never comes out right
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 24
Guess ur right, for and layout are so important to the overall effect of what your tryingg to convey.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 25
I took the initiative and put ten bucks down on a tablet. It will take a few months but I looked into tablets and found it to be a worthwhile investment. Thanks Nat, it will help me alot. You planted the idea, I will make it hsppen. This positive can do atitude is part of my new outlook which has done leaps and bounds for my life.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 25
P.S. Ive begun a study in earnest on Yeats, one of the greats I had not yet truly begun reading. Your lessons go far my friend. Thank you for teaching one who wants and desires to get better at this craft.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 25
we learn from each other. never forget that! the greates lesson in lif to learn is the eloquence of simplicity. now look, u just gave me a new poem to write
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 26
Nice work on the other piece. Dont want to he cliche but "eloquently stated". Yeah I saw that review. Lol. Tell me, what does a New Yorker do on a Sunday?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 27
Id like to take the opportunity you gave me. I will humbly take you on your offer. Part of my evolution as a person is to swallow my pride and take help where help is offered. I have alot of writing to do Nat but as I get into the lifestyle of everyday working I see poetry fading and I have a need so deep to write as it has helped me along the way so much. If your offer still stands, I would love to take you up on the offer. Either way, a lesson is learned: Take the hands that help you up as opposed to holding hands to that which pulls one down.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 27
I will get it done now that u r committed to the curves of living, yet see around the bend what could be....now the's another poem borning...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 27
Your wise, you know that? Yeah, it takes alot to learn the stuff. Youth is wasted in the young.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 3
Promises are nice bro, but I really dont care for them if its not something that you can do. I'd rather you tell me no Nat, your word is law as far as Im concerned. Dont worry about the tablet, it was a nice thought, but I dont want to see you in that light as not being able to come through. I want your word to mean something to me.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 4
just been busy with the grandkids for a 5 day vacation. don't u worry about thing baby!
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 4
Yours is the only one I trust here on this site, everyone is going batshit crazy about this or that. Poetry seems to he taking a second seat.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 4
Gotta sat Nat, you probably underestimate how much I look to you for guidance. Though i dont reach out much, your poetry in itself is an example I libve by. No *** kissing, simply take it as respect for your work, I see you amongg the best I have read of all the dead poets.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 6
Well been busy looking for work and arranging a life if that doesn't happen. but ur in the to do list!
P.s. Ain't dead yet but I could be by the time I finish typing thi.....
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 6
Not your greatest work, but if you are dead, you go down as one oc the all time best in my opinion. Gettingg my daughter ready for school. Clothes are expensive, wish tbey had uniforms. Itd be cheaper.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 6
I can't even imagine but in years u will look back and think those were the best of times
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 17
your tablet on the to do list, just got hit with other bills higher priority.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
Dont worry about it a tablet. Just be my friend.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 22
that was crossed off my to do list a long long time ago...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
My to do list is short as well. I want to see New York, I want to shake your hand.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
I am completely serious. I need to know how much round trip tickets cost, room and board, etc. Ive never flown but its time I do.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 22
whoa. that's a lot of dough, who will watch the kids?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
They will stay behind.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 24
here's one problem. I live with my Gf in her apt...and I won't ask her ...change her mind, it's her place...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 24
I will pay my way. I have money coming to me on a house I just framed, did u forget Im a master carpenter? When my health permits I make good money. Lol, which I hapoily distribute back into the economy.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Sep 9
So I called a number I saw on television for experimental drug for liver. Second time I do this, but what the hay, gotta fight. Im scared. Terrified, staring at my humanity like this. No words for the fear.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Sep 9
there are words. you have them in your posses, just need to expel them without any veneer or hesitation
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt 5 days ago
talk to me! what's up and give me the cell number asap
The DedPoet
The DedPoet 4 days ago
Its my time, I'm sick and dying, bed ridden and in the final stages of sclerosis of the liver, I want you to know that I have always thought of your poetry as genius, but I only have one request of you. The tablet you wanted to send me, keep it for yourself an begin a new outlook on your surroundings, you write so much about people here or familiar things tat relate to the site. I just wanted to see your perspective fresh with your abundant talent, your rugged and tired, your giving yet honest, brutal writer of understanding, I'm not for talk it now, my concentration is on closing doors and settling old problems with family, I have a rare chance to do this. You take care, God bless and goodbye.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt 4 days ago
I will call you again tomorrow. please answer!
*The DedPoet
The DedPoet 10 hours ago
My brother passed away Sunday night, we cremated him today. He left all copyright of his work to you.I'm sorry for the new. I will be posting a poem a week for him as he wanted. He had many poems that he wanted to save for publishing. Thank you for your time.
Ernesto L. Gonzales and myself.
I have edited out some very few particulars to respect both of our privacy, and yet it is intensely personal. Respect that please!
He developed a few such intense relationships with others here which
having only learned of recently of the details, make me realize, ever more cognizant what a special, caring human being was the DedPoet.
Represented in a center alignment to better honor this man,
this poet, my brother.
~~~~~
The DedPoet Jul 4
Taking your suggestion into consideration, I stumbled across the fact that I went from past to present. So instead of
Gangsters dont shed no tears,
I changed it to But gangsters dont cry,
With this and the last two lines,
Which I also changed by eliminating
And as a man I cry,
Simplified to
As a man I remember,
As a man I cry.
Crying being that which I could not do as a youth, with the experience of life learning to cry later brings about realism and evocative feelings toward the reader, tying them with the poem, becoming a not so forgetful piece.
Nat, Your words of I want you to live,
They began a slow change in my life, today
Ibam in full fruition of that. I am alive, living, working, getting better, taking what was given to me, conquest of my demons. Yes Nat, I have arrived, humbly but with much confidence. Your influence had a great deal to do with my personal and poetical growth as a person. I have matured because you gave a ****, because you knew deep down I could beat everything life had thrown at me.
Know this Nat,
Put it in your mind,
Relish it and be proud;
YOU CHANGED MY LIFE
AND I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 4
Humbled silence. FYI was fired last week, no surprIse, may "retire" or look for a position, undecided...
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 4
What's the situation with the kids?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 4
I have my girls right now. She got pregnant and bow she needs me. Go figure. Anyway, im enjoying life drug and alcohol free, getting into working condition at work. All is as it should be, despite the problems I used to let become mountains.
Fired huh? Could you survive on retirement?
And if find anotjer position, do you feel that you would still be willing, able of course, but willing is another matter when you mentioned retirement as an option.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 4
I am soon to be..my youngest son worked with me for...and seeing him re-established is important to me.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 4
What is your proffesion exactly?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 5
Bond broker/trader
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 5
It took a day to get this right. A broker!!! Wow!! A poetic bond broker???? Wow. Im still shocked at that. Friend, you roll with the punches in life. Your son matters most, and I see that as well. Your note from yesterday helped me to focus more on my children financially. I got the time thing down, the icecream and food, but they need so much more. Yeah Im still learning, but Im learning exponentially. Anyway, I still plan on shaking your ha.d one day.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 5
Nah, a big freaking hug
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 5
Shhh. Your privacy protected
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1252193/six-**...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 5
I could give a cheesy poem saying yes Nat changed my life, which was my first idea. Then, to be genuine and give ou some insight to my new journey and outlook I wrote Saffron Son Settling Into Memories and is dedicated to you friend.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 18
Well if your offer is to edit my poems, I respectfully decline. I can spell despite the poems looking otherwise. I post directly to hellopoetry, the words come out so fast that its hard to edit. I have been writing nonstop in progress for a book. They have their own editors, lol.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 18
No prob
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
All u need to do is line them up better. Invest in an inexpensive tablet...
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
Or *******, I will
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
I have a phone, one that I borrow. You know Im **** poor. I haven't posted in the longest while I have ever gone through. Tablets are far from my thoughts. I have pen and paper, bought from the 99 cent store. My daughter's mother, my ex, is in the hospital fighting for her life. And suddenly Im with my girls all day, everyday. Great for me, but I wish it was under better circumstances.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
What's your address?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
Im too proud to accept any donations. I thank you from the bottom of my heart Nat. My email is... if you ever want to just correspond. I am taking control of the poverty in my life and when your at the bottom, theres only one way to go.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
What donation? ***! Self protection of my aging eyes and brain!
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
Ive been offered before. Money to help with kids, sorry if i jumped the gun there Nat. What would u do with the adress?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
Send you a tablet
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
I couldn't accept that. I wouldn't know how. Never been offered anything like that.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
If you truly believed in my talent, if that was the reason other than mis spelled words, I would take it. I would take it gratefully. I'll tell you one thing, yours is the only that I believe in on this site. Granted there are talented individuals, but none try to better themselves and stay in an anxious state of repeating verses. You try to break them from this, encouragement and all. What do you say Nat?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 19
I say just this,
brother.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 19
San Antonio, Tx. 78227
Ernesto L. Gonzales Jr.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 21
Nat, I just gave u all my info, could u respond and tell me my identity is ok.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 22
Just saw Not sure what u mean, "idenity ok". Can u explain?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 22
Lol, not that my identity is worth much, but is was a little dark joke since you had not responded to me. I did get a little worried. Thats all. After all, you and I know bofh well that thsi is a risky thinf, you know, information And all.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
Np. Up at 12:48am til now thinking about the future
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
1. What type of cell phone?
2. Will your carrier allow u two devices on your number?
3. Just answer and no yada yada noise?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
Its not my cell phone. Its my dad's. A regular three year old lg fone. But we do have wifi here at home for my nephew. Unlimited data.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
See if u can add another tablet device, on his plan...should be nominal...like $10/month
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
Actually the wifi would be enabled inside the house because of the wifi. I would just need to ask how, but I do know it is at no extra charghe. Nat, as a man in wall street, what is your take on the current situation with the dollar and its basis on petroleum in the world? Is it doomed to fail anytime soon?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 23
Oil has stabilized around 50 bucks which is very reasonable. U.S. Frackers can make money there,the Saudis too...and with new supply growing. And demand stable and but will surely increase, I expect price to hold the 50 dlr area and very slowly rise..as for the dollar, it's all about that bass...I mean I test rates! Ours going up everybody else's going down, so dollar will remain the king for the foreseeable future if the global economy just chugs along as it has and more so if the economy actually picks up to grow 3% or better consistently
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
Just worried about the alarmist calling for an imminent collapse based on China and Russia leaving the dollar to trade in ruble and chinese currency, if Im not mistaken, the currency war it is called.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 23
What are the advantages of a tablet anyway?
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 24
You can see what you are doing; the layout and formatting is very important. From a phone it never comes out right
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 24
Guess ur right, for and layout are so important to the overall effect of what your tryingg to convey.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 25
I took the initiative and put ten bucks down on a tablet. It will take a few months but I looked into tablets and found it to be a worthwhile investment. Thanks Nat, it will help me alot. You planted the idea, I will make it hsppen. This positive can do atitude is part of my new outlook which has done leaps and bounds for my life.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 25
P.S. Ive begun a study in earnest on Yeats, one of the greats I had not yet truly begun reading. Your lessons go far my friend. Thank you for teaching one who wants and desires to get better at this craft.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 25
we learn from each other. never forget that! the greates lesson in lif to learn is the eloquence of simplicity. now look, u just gave me a new poem to write
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 26
Nice work on the other piece. Dont want to he cliche but "eloquently stated". Yeah I saw that review. Lol. Tell me, what does a New Yorker do on a Sunday?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 27
Id like to take the opportunity you gave me. I will humbly take you on your offer. Part of my evolution as a person is to swallow my pride and take help where help is offered. I have alot of writing to do Nat but as I get into the lifestyle of everyday working I see poetry fading and I have a need so deep to write as it has helped me along the way so much. If your offer still stands, I would love to take you up on the offer. Either way, a lesson is learned: Take the hands that help you up as opposed to holding hands to that which pulls one down.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Jul 27
I will get it done now that u r committed to the curves of living, yet see around the bend what could be....now the's another poem borning...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Jul 27
Your wise, you know that? Yeah, it takes alot to learn the stuff. Youth is wasted in the young.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 3
Promises are nice bro, but I really dont care for them if its not something that you can do. I'd rather you tell me no Nat, your word is law as far as Im concerned. Dont worry about the tablet, it was a nice thought, but I dont want to see you in that light as not being able to come through. I want your word to mean something to me.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 4
just been busy with the grandkids for a 5 day vacation. don't u worry about thing baby!
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 4
Yours is the only one I trust here on this site, everyone is going batshit crazy about this or that. Poetry seems to he taking a second seat.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 4
Gotta sat Nat, you probably underestimate how much I look to you for guidance. Though i dont reach out much, your poetry in itself is an example I libve by. No *** kissing, simply take it as respect for your work, I see you amongg the best I have read of all the dead poets.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 6
Well been busy looking for work and arranging a life if that doesn't happen. but ur in the to do list!
P.s. Ain't dead yet but I could be by the time I finish typing thi.....
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 6
Not your greatest work, but if you are dead, you go down as one oc the all time best in my opinion. Gettingg my daughter ready for school. Clothes are expensive, wish tbey had uniforms. Itd be cheaper.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 6
I can't even imagine but in years u will look back and think those were the best of times
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 17
your tablet on the to do list, just got hit with other bills higher priority.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
Dont worry about it a tablet. Just be my friend.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 22
that was crossed off my to do list a long long time ago...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
My to do list is short as well. I want to see New York, I want to shake your hand.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
I am completely serious. I need to know how much round trip tickets cost, room and board, etc. Ive never flown but its time I do.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 22
whoa. that's a lot of dough, who will watch the kids?
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 22
They will stay behind.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Aug 24
here's one problem. I live with my Gf in her apt...and I won't ask her ...change her mind, it's her place...
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Aug 24
I will pay my way. I have money coming to me on a house I just framed, did u forget Im a master carpenter? When my health permits I make good money. Lol, which I hapoily distribute back into the economy.
The DedPoet
The DedPoet Sep 9
So I called a number I saw on television for experimental drug for liver. Second time I do this, but what the hay, gotta fight. Im scared. Terrified, staring at my humanity like this. No words for the fear.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt Sep 9
there are words. you have them in your posses, just need to expel them without any veneer or hesitation
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt 5 days ago
talk to me! what's up and give me the cell number asap
The DedPoet
The DedPoet 4 days ago
Its my time, I'm sick and dying, bed ridden and in the final stages of sclerosis of the liver, I want you to know that I have always thought of your poetry as genius, but I only have one request of you. The tablet you wanted to send me, keep it for yourself an begin a new outlook on your surroundings, you write so much about people here or familiar things tat relate to the site. I just wanted to see your perspective fresh with your abundant talent, your rugged and tired, your giving yet honest, brutal writer of understanding, I'm not for talk it now, my concentration is on closing doors and settling old problems with family, I have a rare chance to do this. You take care, God bless and goodbye.
Nat Lipstadt
Nat Lipstadt 4 days ago
I will call you again tomorrow. please answer!
*The DedPoet
The DedPoet 10 hours ago
My brother passed away Sunday night, we cremated him today. He left all copyright of his work to you.I'm sorry for the new. I will be posting a poem a week for him as he wanted. He had many poems that he wanted to save for publishing. Thank you for your time.
I never sent him the tablet.
Other things and expenses intervened and it fell to the bottom of my list.
I cannot pick up mine without wincing and that will always be true.
We spoke by telephone but once.
He called me at 2:00 and we spoke for an hour.
I still call his cellphone, even now, to listen to his gravely gravelly voice greeting, promising to call back very soon.
His overly effusive praise of my writing was left in after much internal debate, but it was the initial rooting of our conversation. I have only posted our correspondence of the last three months. Much more preceded these messages.
I did not save his life as he so generously stated,
but will try do him justice as best I can.
Other things and expenses intervened and it fell to the bottom of my list.
I cannot pick up mine without wincing and that will always be true.
We spoke by telephone but once.
He called me at 2:00 and we spoke for an hour.
I still call his cellphone, even now, to listen to his gravely gravelly voice greeting, promising to call back very soon.
His overly effusive praise of my writing was left in after much internal debate, but it was the initial rooting of our conversation. I have only posted our correspondence of the last three months. Much more preceded these messages.
I did not save his life as he so generously stated,
but will try do him justice as best I can.